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- Feb 11, 2023
I went to a party with my friend, his gf, and his roommate. The roommate was our designated driver for the night. The rest of us proceeded to drink a lot. I wasn't worried about it, I knew all of these people, felt like I was in a really safe place with my friends, and had a ride home with someone sober.
The night is coming to an end. The roommate takes everyone back to their place to drop of the couple. We all went inside to hang out for a bit. The couple goes to bed pretty soon after, and the roommate starts to make out with me. That's fine. He is a cute guy, I'm a single girl, whatever right? I asked him if he was going to drive me home, and he said not yet. Then he takes off my pants and starts to try to go down on me. I told him I didn't think it was a good idea. He told me not to be lame. I felt really bad about it, but I didn't know what else to do. He is a pretty big guy, 6'4'', and I got freaked out by everything going on. I didn't enjoy it at all. After that, he started to have sex with me. I never said no, which is why I feel like this isn't rape. I just feel like shit about it. At some point I passed out. I woke up the next morning in his bed and I asked him to please take me home. He has been texting me the past few days.
I just can't get over what happened. He was sober, I was drunk. I was fine with the flirting and the kissing, so maybe I should have drawn more of a line as to where to stop. He seems to want to have some kind of relationship with me now, since he's been calling and stuff. None of his messages mention the sex or anything, so maybe he thinks I don't remember? I'm just really confused and overwhelmed. I just don't know if this is a case of regret or if I was violated. Either way, I feel gross about it. He's in my immediate group of friends and I'm going to have to see him again.
The night is coming to an end. The roommate takes everyone back to their place to drop of the couple. We all went inside to hang out for a bit. The couple goes to bed pretty soon after, and the roommate starts to make out with me. That's fine. He is a cute guy, I'm a single girl, whatever right? I asked him if he was going to drive me home, and he said not yet. Then he takes off my pants and starts to try to go down on me. I told him I didn't think it was a good idea. He told me not to be lame. I felt really bad about it, but I didn't know what else to do. He is a pretty big guy, 6'4'', and I got freaked out by everything going on. I didn't enjoy it at all. After that, he started to have sex with me. I never said no, which is why I feel like this isn't rape. I just feel like shit about it. At some point I passed out. I woke up the next morning in his bed and I asked him to please take me home. He has been texting me the past few days.
I just can't get over what happened. He was sober, I was drunk. I was fine with the flirting and the kissing, so maybe I should have drawn more of a line as to where to stop. He seems to want to have some kind of relationship with me now, since he's been calling and stuff. None of his messages mention the sex or anything, so maybe he thinks I don't remember? I'm just really confused and overwhelmed. I just don't know if this is a case of regret or if I was violated. Either way, I feel gross about it. He's in my immediate group of friends and I'm going to have to see him again.
