Hello everyone. For those of you who know, I need no introduction. By reading my statement you will quickly come to the conclusion of who I am.
Now, a brief timeline. I first discovered the twitlonger about a week and a half ago, I want to say it was the 5th or the 6th. I read the entire thing, and
despite being ready to move on already, I was devastated by what I read. Setting aside all of the events that transpired between us,
no one deserves to go through what Imakuni has gone through. For a few days after reading, I started to feel ill, mostly mentally. I wasn't quite sure how to handle or process what I read, because not only is it a devastating thing to read, but
it changes everything I knew about Imakuni in past context. I was thinking of creating and sending an apology twitlonger to her, through a third party due to legal issues, but unfortunately I wasn't able to find any that would take my request without requiring a large lumpsum of cash. So, instead I will post the statement here for posterity;
Twitlonger
However, I decided to instead create this statement that I am typing right now instead, because
there are certain things I said in the twitlonger that I've changed my mind on. First of all if it wasn't already clarified,
I intend to maintain my distance and lack of direct communication with Imakuni. Not just for her sake, but for mine as well.
I have family that would be endangered if anything were to happen to me, and I've already been threatened legally once, even if the actual threat level was probably low in retrospect, the fact there's even a 1% chance something could happen to put me out of commission just isn't worth the risk. However, what I choose to do
does not in anyway impact what I currently think of Imakuni or what transpired in their personal life. Quite frankly, it hasn't affected me in a long time and it likely never will in the future, it just changes my perspective on things that have happened in the past, which I would like to delve into.
The stalking accusations that have been thrown my way are not unfounded. It is true that I kept hounding Imakuni for "answers" about why things happened the way they did. Even when I was forced to close the book and move on 3 years ago,
I still didn't really receive a definitive answer or conclusion.
Now I have, and the answer is really quite depressing. It was all the result of a damaged soul and a damaged mind trying to make an online friendship work,
and it just simply did not work out. My obsession over the issue for so long was completely and utterly baffling. When I look back at archived Skype conversations from 2011-2014, and I read some of the things I said,
they came off as completely out of character for me especially today.
If I was in Imakuni's place and someone was doing what I was doing back then, I think I too would have arrived at a similar conclusion. Not sure getting authorities involved was economically wise, but well, when you get so far gone with something you tend to lose sight of basic common sense,
which I think both of us were guilty of.
I allowed myself to become obsessed over an internet "friendship" for nearly 15 years. Maybe the obsession faded over time,
but it still existed and persisted all because I never got a definitive answer or conclusion. To be fair, I still don't think what we have now is definitive, but it definitely provided enough context to at least reach a satisfactory conclusion,
and it allowed me to look back at my actions without that cloud of mis-judgment hanging over me.
I did idiotic things. Terrible things. All to a person I had a few positive interactions with and, partially because of my mental state at such a young age and my personal situation at the time, combined with issues I was repressing about myself,
all lead to a melting pot of utter shit, to put it bluntly. To that end,
I am genuinely sorry towards Imakuni and anyone else that may have been affected by my idiotic rampage over the last several years.
I went into an internet blackout back in March 2020, coincidentally around the time the COVID19 pandemic started making waves here in the United States. The only exceptions are reddit and other basic things like email, and also this message board created by me and a few trusted associates in order to facilitate the misinformation posted by Kiwi Farms. It is worth noting that
other than the issues surrounding me and Imakuni, everything else posted about me in that thread is 100% false whether they were posted by me, an alt account, or a third party.
Now with all this said, I would really like to resume my internet blackout, at least until I need to make accounts for a job or something.
I hope this statement can finally put things to rest and put peoples' minds at ease.
It is my hope that Imakuni can continue to conduct behavior on the internet without the fear of someone "coming after" them, because I can promise with 100% certainty that she will never receive any direct messages from me ever again, for better or for worse.
And that's all she wrote.
), do a huge ass apology, and leave the internet for a while.
