- Joined
- May 20, 2014
I'd bet every last of my W-Quarters that Golday is generally unhappy. I can see reality gradually eating its way into his childish world domination dreams. He takes a long time to learn, but he does eventually.
In this journal, "The Work in Artwork", GK starts off by describing how he found an artist and game designer on dA, and how realising that this guy was more talented and successful than he was made him wish he could cry. This shows that he is capable of some degree of self-analysis. Golday goes on to admit that he probably doesn't have what it takes to be a world-conquering comic book artiste:
He ends up concluding that maybe he ought to focus on writing and game design as he demonstrably fails at drawing and doesn't enjoy it. Admittedly, he can't write or code either, but it's a step in the right direction. Also it's good to see him upset at having produced An Hero Team - his comic is bad and he should feel bad.
There's also this terrible poem he wrote in 2011, which shows that the long shadow of failure is creeping ever closer to Golday's door. I've spoilered it because it's such a bad poem.
Somewhere deep down inside him he knows what's coming. It's not going to be penury, his family are too wealthy for him to know CWC levels of want. It just won't be the epic life of a million fans LARPing with him at his own Con. What sorrow, to be blessed with such dreams and cursed with such inability to capture them.
But lest we feel sorry for Goldie Sue, let's read his instructions for "Assembly of the Ultimate Girl". Basically, his ideal mate will have hideous facial deformities, lead poisoning, and
a foot fetish. How to begin the assembly? "Take the girl's shell, and inspect it for anomalies or crippling attributes. If any are found, purify thoroughly until girl is distilled." The end result? "This serves one equally qualified Golden Knight for life."
Serves.
For life.
In this journal, "The Work in Artwork", GK starts off by describing how he found an artist and game designer on dA, and how realising that this guy was more talented and successful than he was made him wish he could cry. This shows that he is capable of some degree of self-analysis. Golday goes on to admit that he probably doesn't have what it takes to be a world-conquering comic book artiste:
the Sad Knight said:I want to do something grand, but curse it, I could not stick with it! I mean, the month or 2 production for each comic book I make is decent, but that's it, decent! It's not like this "masterpiece" is carving out a chunk in the moon just to emblazon my name for all to see in the nighttime sky. It means, my weakness towards drawing is amplified to the nth degree! And it's hurting me inside. What really hurts is that I can not see myself stomaching the need to sit down 48-56 hours a week and doing nothing but drawing; writing and brainstorming, maybe, but not this.
He ends up concluding that maybe he ought to focus on writing and game design as he demonstrably fails at drawing and doesn't enjoy it. Admittedly, he can't write or code either, but it's a step in the right direction. Also it's good to see him upset at having produced An Hero Team - his comic is bad and he should feel bad.
There's also this terrible poem he wrote in 2011, which shows that the long shadow of failure is creeping ever closer to Golday's door. I've spoilered it because it's such a bad poem.
I want to be a mercenary, my own boss.
I'm sick of the military denying their political lords.
I can't reduce myself to a servant job that I'd toss.
Every job demands a specialist, even for cutting boards.
Is labor the only path open to me? I can see no other way.
Those are the kinds that only involve slap and serve, rinse and repeat.
Yet even they are contested by hundreds, all applying every day.
Being in college is one of two needs, the other has me beat.
Only idiots imagine life as a movie or video game.
The closest is making them, and that is my course.
I mean, a creative mind reduced to picking trash? What a shame.
So much energy and zest, wasted on college remorse.
If I were to act on my own terms, I'd land in jail.
I'm too noble for that fate, knowing what lies ahead.
But if nothing changes, I will be doomed to fail.
For now in Summer Vacation, with barely a vision, I lost my head.
I'm sick of the military denying their political lords.
I can't reduce myself to a servant job that I'd toss.
Every job demands a specialist, even for cutting boards.
Is labor the only path open to me? I can see no other way.
Those are the kinds that only involve slap and serve, rinse and repeat.
Yet even they are contested by hundreds, all applying every day.
Being in college is one of two needs, the other has me beat.
Only idiots imagine life as a movie or video game.
The closest is making them, and that is my course.
I mean, a creative mind reduced to picking trash? What a shame.
So much energy and zest, wasted on college remorse.
If I were to act on my own terms, I'd land in jail.
I'm too noble for that fate, knowing what lies ahead.
But if nothing changes, I will be doomed to fail.
For now in Summer Vacation, with barely a vision, I lost my head.
Somewhere deep down inside him he knows what's coming. It's not going to be penury, his family are too wealthy for him to know CWC levels of want. It just won't be the epic life of a million fans LARPing with him at his own Con. What sorrow, to be blessed with such dreams and cursed with such inability to capture them.
But lest we feel sorry for Goldie Sue, let's read his instructions for "Assembly of the Ultimate Girl". Basically, his ideal mate will have hideous facial deformities, lead poisoning, and
Serves.
For life.