Christ almighty what a mess this is. To us, watching Sekhmet666 and Samantha fight over Styx is like watching two girls fight over a turd in a toilet bowl. Is either of you really winning? Well Samantha get's Styx's money for right now. We will see if that lasts past Styx's sentencing hearing.
On the surface Stekmet666's pictures show someone who is reasonably cute and can clean up well. She states that she is incredibly thankful for what little she has. Chips in by paying rent. So what is her problem?
She states she has been homeless and without a boyfriend for the past 10 years. Why? One user here states that her facebook profile makes her look like a munchie. Maybe she suffers from some form of mental illness?
Wirey long chin-hair will knock her down to a 2. That is easily solvable with a little self grooming. In inelastic skin. She is 43. Age is what it is. Most of her pictures are myspace style photos with baggy clothes.
These two pictures kind of show that under all of those baggy clothes she is well overweight. Fat.
Another photo shows what looks like she is smoking pot.
Smoking pot wouldn't be a disqualifier for all men.
@Sekhmet666 I am not trying to bash on you. I want to understand why you think Styx is the best you can do for yourself.
It sounds like you can hold down a steady job, so you shouldn't be that bad off mentally.
Are you a munchie abusing prescription drugs and/or illegal drugs other than pot? Have you had any mental health evaluations to see if you suffer from any mental illnesses?
If you are a munchie, then I can completely understand why Styx is the best you can do. In fact, you probably deserve each other right now. To you, he is the best booty call you can get.
But you can choose to improve yourself.
If you are abusing illegal or prescription drugs outside of pot, you can choose to start attending Narcotic Anonymous meetings to see if they can guide you to a place where you make better choices. You can tell your doctor(s) of your drug abuse.
If you are abusing substances, you and Styx are incredibly self destructive to each other. Hell, you stated that you are ingratiating yourself to an alcoholic by buying him booze. You are destroying each other just to not be alone.
You are surrounded by people abusing substances. His parents are heavy pot smokers. I would expect they are regular drunkards too.
Since you have a steady job and pay rent, get your own studio apartment. Start going to a local church. It isn't so much about religious trappings as it is about surrounding yourself by a community of people who make better choices for themselves.
As they say, you are the sum of your 5 closest friends. Surround yourself with better people or suffer the consequences.
You can choose to lose weight. Starting with cutting out alcohol, refined sugar and then starches. You worked at Sprouts for a while. You must have some idea of what a proper diet looks like. Start following this guy on youtube. Slowly adopt his nutrition advice over time.
To understand what you are dealing with when it comes to Styx follow this HG Tudor who advises people on how to deal with narcissists. You have seen how Styx ruthlessly goes after and threatens his Exs as he has reason to believe he can control them as he did once before.
Men and women want very different things in a relationship and act very differently for different reasons. To understand the differences, follow this guy hoe_math. He mainly targets his channel towards men to help them understand what is going on. But he also explains to women what is going on with men.
To Styx, you are a "sweeper." And Styx is a situational 8 due to his status of having a large audience and willing to pander to women who are fascinated by either Satanists or pirates.
To Styx your are a warm hole to be disposed of like a kleenex when he is tired of you. Buying him booze, paying rent, ingratiating yourself with his parents will only last so long.
Styx will eventually point a knife or gun at you, and his mother will dutifully drop you off at the local women's shelter. You are on borrowed time. So start planning now to build yourself up to a better position.
You can't fix Styx. But you can choose to fix yourself. I am hoping that you are of the set of Styx's Exs who learns and improves instead of wallowing in a self made hell.
Yes, you are 43 and are pretty much out of the marriage market without the ability to have children. But if you groom, lose weight, deal with whatever addictions and/or mental illness issues you have, drop the loser, get your own apartment. You can make yourself available to find a man who is also fat and lonely in town. You are just Styx's warm hole kleenex.
I wish you the best of choices.
