https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/6ccmm8/i_dont_want_to_live_without_my_best_friend_15/
/r/SuicideWatch ● /u/BrainyBiscuit ● Sat May 20 2017 13:44:03 GMT-0700[See on Reddit]
I don't want to live without my best friend. [15]
Her name is Parker, and I met her in March of 2016. We connected on a very personal level, and we would always talk. Things went great, and in August, I had the courage to ask her out. She said yes, but a few weeks later she went back to her ex. Our friendship was still really strong, but moving on was the hardest part, and I'm still not over her. In January, she broke up with her girlfriend, and I tried to be the best friend I could to her, but I couldn't hide my feelings well, and I would occasionally try to tell her how I feel. Things went same as usual until April 11th, the last day I heard from her. I was excited for Yooka-Laylee, and she congratulated me before saying she would be at her mom's for a few days. So, a few days later, I messaged her on skype. No response. I messaged her daily for a few more days, and still no response. I checked her steam, and she'd been offline. I got really worried, to the point where I messaged her on kik, and when she didn't respond, I knew something was wrong. I tried reaching out to all of her friends to find out what had happened, and one of them messaged me back, saying that she had been grounded for sexting. He had no idea when she would return, and Parker did message me on kik shortly after, saying the same thing, and that she does everything in secret now. I messaged her back, but to this day, my message hasn't made it to her inbox. Her friend won't respond to my messages, and all I can do is wait. After she left, I've felt empty. I've been trying my best to live without her, and to fill the void until she comes back. But no one can replace her. Her kindness, understanding, and care is unmatched by anyone. I don't know her in real life, but she does live close state-wise. It's hard to find people anything like her anywhere, real life or on the internet. I love her, and I mean that genuinely. Before I met her, I had been very suicidal and depressed, and now my mild depression is worsening, and I feel weaker emotionally every day without her being here. I don't know what to do. I tried r/teenagers, and it just made me feel a little suicidal, and now I feel very suicidal. Help me please. I don't want to live, but I don't want to die either.
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/5iypx5/before_i_make_a_decision_heres_my_story/
/r/SuicideWatch ● /u/BrainyBiscuit ● Sat Dec 17 2016 21:05:35 GMT-0800[See on Reddit]
Before I make a decision, here's my story.
"I'm a hardcore nerd. I don't just draw stiff realistic images, or play mainstream games, or enjoy overrated hobbies. I was born to create drawings, stories, comics, and gaming is my passion, I research it, I play more than just "GTA on Xbox 360". I play crypt of the necrodancer, I play castle in the darkness, I play super meat boy, binding of Isaac, shantae, and so many games that casual gamers, artists, and nerds don't care about. If you exist, I most likely hate you, because you're simple. You just read harry potter, and watch hunger games, and play call of duty. No one ever digs deeper than that. No one truly loves art the way I do. I'm tired of this. The greatest thing that has ever happened to me, Parker Lee, is gone. She was the only person who understood. She hated mainstream, and normal, and casual. She read Captain Underpants, and watched Rick and Morty, and played Don't Starve. She was my everything. I've spent six months trying to fill the void, trying to find someone hardcore, passionate, and artistic, someone who can prove they are who they say, and not just…casual. But I'm done. I can't take it anymore. This is my last try… Hello, my name is Kobe Thomas Ramos. I live in Kokomo, Mississippi, and I love art. I only wish to find someone who shares my interests and general mindset. I'm autistic, so sorry if I come off as strange or unusual. I'm also overweight, Asian, and Puerto Rican. If you would like to talk and be besties, please message me. I would very much appreciate if you'd comment anything you feel in regards to what I've said. I'm not perfect. Thank you so much for reading, have a nice day, and stay intellectual."
This was a post I submitted to r/teenagers in a desperate attempt to make friends. User kevinarefunny and other users thought this to be very funny, and reposted it on copy pasta, under the title "I'm a Hardcore Nerd". They called it cringe, a joke, trolling, and continued to refer to 'Linux'. I feel humiliated. Is this what I get for being desperate? I bet one of them is reading this right now. Any who, I'm fucking done. I can't take this anymore. Read through my history, and you can piece together what a time I've had on reddit. I'm done using shitty teen apps and middle aged forums, because, unless someone can convince me otherwise, I will kill myself. Thanks for reading I guess. And thank you Kevin, for being a douchebag.