Tbh its incredibly likely someone just stole her pictures, that kind of shit happens all the time. I'm not tracking down fakers because I'm allergic to 'thinspo' but I promise they're there if anyone fancies looking
Well, obviously. But a reverse image search took me straight to her blog and before and after pictures with family members in it. I looked her up on FB, and that's the girl and she is still alive. At least physically.
As for the mysterious rash everyone keeps talking about.
I translated some Q & A from her blog and it seems to be literal scars from self harm done to the outside of her belly. Translated and abridged from
http://leaamalie.blogspot.no/2015/01/svar-pa-sprsmalsrunden.html
Q: Du you have control over your self harm, or is it unconscious?
A: Before the summer (2015), I was reviewed by experts from [hospital] to figure out what this lethal self-harm stems from, how I did it, why I did it, triggers, etc.. What they found was that I have a coping mechanism called “psychosis organized self-harm”. This means that I’m not myself when I self-harm. I’m psychotic, and in this psychosis I’m extremely paranoid and see, hear and feel things that make me injure myself. I reach a point where I lose all inhibition, all threshold of pain, feelings, sensibility and common sense. The only thing I can remember before this self-mutilation occurs, is that pain shoots through all of my body and that it feels like my stomach is about to explode. A violent sense of pressure.
At this point I am filled to the brim with anxiety. When the anxiety reaches a certain point (3rd degree) one can dissociate. This means that that things simply get too much for one’s brain and body that it has to find a way to get some release. What happens is when I get psychogenic fits or when I have that particular pressure in my stomach, I severely damage my own belly, because the voice lets me know this will lessen this feeling. […] It should also be mentioned that the self-harm mostly happens when I am tired or have had a string of rough days and used up my reserves. […] The biggest challenge in the present are all the complications and late effects that have arisen from the self-mutilation […].
I'm guessing the "psychosis organized self-harm" is another term for major self-mutilation (MSM), but don't quote me on this.
Q: What have been the direst consequences from the dissociative self-mutilation?
A: The direst consequences are probably that the mass of scar tissue in my belly is so extensive that surgery won’t be possible if something were to happen again. That I might not be able to carry a child to term. All the pain I struggle with, that I am unable to use my abdominal musculature, that I have been close to bleeding out, that my entrails are ruined and adhered to each other. […] But the biggest consequence is the mental aspect of it, both for me and my family, and those who have found me after an episode. We are all traumatized […] and I struggle with forgiving myself for this. The consequences this has brought upon others. But done is done. I cannot control the past, only the future.
In addition, in another blog post (
http://leaamalie.blogspot.no/2016/08/du-skal-vre-glad-du-kan.html) she talks about how going to the toilet after this is like:
I have a stomach that is pretty fucked up. There have been lots of consequences from playing Russian Roulette with my abdomen. This is one I have to live with: I go to the bathroom twice a month. And not in an easy way. More in an extremely brutal way. I have to use a probe, and from morning to afternoon I have to stay in bed and be filled with 4 litres of muck… one gets terribly nauseous and it is incredibly painful. At least in my case. There are “stones” in my belly that are to be removed. Not just one. A whole digestive tracts full of them.
So that is what I am spending the day tomorrow doing. While others [my age] maybe go out, or eat tacos with their friends.
Sorry if this is derailing this thread, but I don't know where else to post this information. I have seen this rash mentioned in several ED threads, both on the Farms and in other forums online, and I just wanted to clarify that it has nothing to do with the strain of purging, her gut rotting, or whatever other fanciful explanations people come up with.
TL;DR: The "anorexia belly rash" are scars from several psychotic episodes involving self-mutilation. I don't know how she did it, but the comment about bleeding and deep scar tissue leads me to believe that at least one episode involved cutting. The one in the picture doesn't have cutting scars, so that might be from blunt force trauma or extreme heat, etc..
