Hey everyone,
I know some of you are hurt, angry, or disappointed that the site closed. I understand that. FNP was a place people spent time in, built libraries on, and made friends through. Seeing it disappear affected a lot of people, and I never wanted it to happen that way.
What I think many people don’t fully understand though is what it took for me to keep FNP alive in the first place.
I founded FNP in September 2023 and ran it almost entirely alone for years. Every late night, every bill, every stressful decision, every problem behind the scenes, that was me dealing with it. I put my own money, time, energy, and honestly most of my life into keeping the site online.
Behind the scenes, things became extremely difficult. People I trusted with access and responsibility ended up using that position against me. Servers were reported, infrastructure was disrupted, money was lost, data was lost, and I was constantly being pushed into a corner. There were months where it felt like people were trying to wear me down until I either gave up, walked away, or handed everything over.
A lot of the public narrative around FNP was controlled by people with influence and connections, and I felt powerless to properly defend myself while it was happening. At the same time, I was trying to carry the entire weight of the site mentally, financially, and emotionally.
I’m autistic, I struggle mentally, and I’ve always struggled with this. A lot of you probably know that by now. FNP became my whole life, and over time the pressure eventually became too much.
I was overwhelmed, exhausted, depressed, and honestly just sad. Closing the site was never done because I stopped caring. If anything, it happened because I cared too much for too long and eventually reached a point where I genuinely didn’t know how to keep going safely anymore.
That’s the part I wish more people understood.
I’m not writing this for sympathy or to publicly attack anyone. I just want people to understand there was a real human being behind the site, and that human being was struggling badly while trying to hold everything together.
I’ve now come back with a fresh setup, fresh control, and a healthier direction for the future. The people who caused problems are no longer involved, because after everything that happened, I no longer want them around FNP or around me.
Even after reopening, in the first 5 minutes there were immediately attempts to create negativity again, some people where literally waiting just so they could try something, personally attack me, or target FNP’s infrastructure. Honestly, that only confirmed for me that separating from that environment was the right decision. I don’t want drama around FNP. I just want to focus on rebuilding the community, moving forward peacefully, and enjoying the site again with the people who genuinely want to be here.
And if you want to be part of where FNP goes from here, just being around, seeding, talking in chat, uploading, or showing support in any way you can, that’s the kind of support that actually keeps a place like this alive.
If some of you are still angry with me, I understand. I just hope maybe now you can better understand what these last few years were actually like for me behind the scenes.
And if you came back, thank you. Seriously. It means more than you probably realise.
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-Kami
