My mind is plagued by disgusting urges

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futaconnoisseur

futaconnoisseur

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There's always been something wrong with my mind. I'm not sure how it was messed up but it is. I wouldn't consider myself a full blown homosexual, but I am vulnerable to fantasies. Ofc I have never given in. Having these invasive thoughts makes me feel horrible. Yet they don't cease to invade my mind. I've wanted to look cute for the longest time. It's a subconscious desire I can't control. I was obsessed with it so much last year that I ended up dropping below 120 pounds. I feel intense jealousy whenever I see a femboy. I'm not sure why. I hate my mind worked like this. It makes living so miserable.

I want to know what caused my mind to work like this. Ihave tried taking dewormer after reading a theory on 4chan. I've tried priests. I hate these urges and they have ruined my ability to be happy. I wish I could get rid of them. I've considered getting on meds that block all sexual desire. Even then I fear I would still be consumed by a jealousy and misery.
 
How often do degenerates publish their public humiliation fetish on this website? That should be a bannable offense.
 
Diagnoses:
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Being gay is a choice. Stop being a faggot, lift, lose 200 pounds, and get laid by a woman. Then you won't be a faggot
 
don't be idle, keep yourself busy, keep your mind on the things above, work hard physically and tire yourself out, dont make any compromise, dont go to places where coomer shit is posted, even "softcore"
removing temptation from your life
removing avenues of sin
if you cant handle to look, dont look. a big part of healthy living isn't mere "self-control" but avoiding those situations to begin with
apart from these more physical actions, think on the mental ones as well
those men are very special to somebody, its sad and evil to look hungrily upon them
i understand lust is not a logical thing, and these words might not inhibit the obnoxious habit and urge that lust is
just gotta remove yourself and say no
if the thoughts wander, just gotta say no
so i guess another question is, do you feel regret for the lust you feel in your heart, or are you passively going along with it?
if the former, i think you know better now, how to shut out the lust
but if there is no avoidance of it, thats where you must start
lust is no fair at all

dont need to answer if you dont want to- did you get fucked up with internet pornography at a young age?
 
i don't give a fuck about what makes you cum, just get on the GOD DAMN CART before they get their sentries back up
 
Is this a pasta or are you just gay.
I'm sorry you're not a twink who exist only to be a sex object for disgusting faggot and will lose all value once you reach 30 and start to bald.
 
I'd love to give my opinion, but I fear this is just a shitpost given your other thread and its reception, so you're going all out on being the center of attention for the next 1 or 2 days, if you're lucky.

I.e: another LARP.
 
This individual was also in the Reddit thread arguing at length about how it's actually not weird or unreasonable to own a sex doll and have no friends.

Either they have a humiliation thing or are just saying shit for attention. So even if they aren't really gay literally, they definitely are figuratively.

henstepl said:
If you tap yourself between the eyebrows, does it make you blink?

If you tap yourself on the top of the head, does it make you blink?
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The gift of gay fingers!?!
 
I know that I'm retarded and this is probably a troll but on the off chance it isn't.
futaconnoisseur said:
I hate these urges and they have ruined my ability to be happy. I wish I could get rid of them.
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Have you tried just accepting that you have these thoughts? I don't mean indulging in it, but it seems like you're torturing yourself over these thoughts, which causes further paranoia, and then you feel worse and the thoughts get worse, it's cyclical. Learning to accept that these thoughts aren't you and that it's the actions you take that matter is the only way out.
 
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