Using my potential
Kent greets us like normal. And sniffles, he's chilling and just finished watching WWE and just ate dinner. You know? From earlier today, it's grave yard time I like being up at night on grave yard hours at night. Other than that, i want to say I am thankful who show me love since day one, the people who support me since the start. Other than that I want to talk about potential and a lot of people tell me you have potential Kent I see it in you.
As I go and look my self in the mirror there is nothing wrong with me I'm a normal clean cut dude, I'm color matching, my hat collection is growing. You know? I am doing pretty good for myself I see nothing wrong, I do have potential, when I listen to upbeat people I'm upbeat. This is why I listen to positive people not negative people. You know what I mean.
I want to tell you what happened and what's going on you know? You know? Give you an update on how I'm feeling. I feel pretty good like I said before like video before I'm going one day at a time and stuff like that. Living at my own pace, other than that, I did go back to the store I needed things to prepare to prepare dinner and stuff like that I cooked my dinner earlier, I saw beautiful again I haven't seen her in like a week well I haven't been there in a week maybe why I havn't seen her. So I bought the items I needed to buy and that stuff, when I saw her it just just just really really uh put a smile of my face put a smile on my face. When I saw beautiful I saw her it looked like she was happy to see me and she was smiling.
I had on my wearing my my wearing my Atlanta falcons beanie she asked me asked me asked me first I said how are you doing she saw hi and saw my beanie and asked me if I'm a falcons fan. I said no no no no. I told her I collect hats and beanies I told her that. I collect hats and beanies and like to match. When I told her that she said I see that. I like the Raiders, they are my favorite team and asked her she's a fan of the New Orelans Saint. I pointed out we beat you week 1. She said you got lucky it was one point. And everything, and I was telling her we was talking sports I didn't know she watched sports. I didn't know beautiful watched sports.
I said we are going to the play offs, she said you aren't going to the super bowl. I told her I don't care about the super bowl, I just care about the play offs you know? What I told her. Raiders haven't went to the play offs since 2002 so 15 years. We was talking sports for a little bit and stuff, she was laughing and smiling, she was real happy to see me. She has such a natural natural smile. You know? She's all natural and what attracts me to her. Because her natural beauty.
I made her laugh and stuff, I was feeling good. I just felt motivated and was more self assured and stuff. And uh, she was laughing and smiling and things. I told her I was buying cooking oil to cook my dinner, I told her I told beautiful, I asked her if she likes sea food. I asked her this, because I made fish. I had made some fish. I asked if she made fish. She said I love seafood. She loves it. I said to myself and told her girl you are missing you are really missing out. She was smiling and laughing and stuff.
And I didn't say nothing else because other people. She told me have to good day. I went on my day and uh walked out of the store. Walked out of the store. It looked like she was feeling more comfortable talking to me and having a talk with me, this is a good thing it's good. I didn't see any red flags at all. No red flags. Beautiful is getting comfortable talking to me this is a good thing, she's smiling and she was happy it made me feel good made me feel good. She knows me knows my face.
When we first were talking I asked her what she's been up to. She said she's been working and going to school that's what she's up to. I told her I'm working a lot (lol no) And everything. I told her I was working a whole lot I told her. You know? When I first started talking before sports she was like working and school just a normal convo. Her looking at me she is being more comfortable talking to me talking to me. You know?
It's a good thing, a very good thing. It's a very good thing she's more comfortable. She likes me she's starting to like me , that's just me it's my instinct telling me she likes me. And all that stuff. Yea, you know? She's beautiful that's why I call her that she is natural all her is nothing is fake you know? That's why I call her beautiful. She puts a smile on my face she's more comfortable talking to me. I started to feel much more good about my self and when I kept talking to her more and more and more.
But um, you know pretty much what's going on. I told her I told her she told me she loved sea food and fish. PErsonally I do it's one of my foods to eat is seafood. I told her girl you are missing out girl you are really missing out. She was blushing too you know what I mean. It made me feel good. She feels more comfortable talking to me as well. Like I said, I'm taking my time moving at my pace I'm thankful for people wishing me luck.
You know I am I see potential I see potential in myself. I see in the mirror I got this I got this. I aways thought I had it. It's just the rejection, holds me back. Being rejected so much. I have potential I'll use it it to get where I need and what I want in life, I see it in myself. I'll use it I'll take advantage of it. You know what I mean? I see it in me, since the start always saw it. Just rejection that holds me back. I'll keep using it and find the right woman I want to find the right woman, in any event though all I got to say what happened today I watched WWE smack down and uh did uh good. That's it thanks for support and love Kent signing out.
tl;dw
Kent creeps on a min wage employee.
He sees nothing wrong with himself
He likes being around ass patters they make him feel good
Since he wants to date this girl (who's taken) he's sure she's into him
He sees potential in himself
If I ever meet "beautiful" I'm going to buy her a stiff drink and bear mace. I'm sorry I'm far from a white knight but this is just creepy he keeps calling her that. I am ok with him not wanting to name her, but don't give her such a intimate pet name.
It's strange Kent keeps seeing himself as normal, when he bounces from he's the 1% and one of the best dudes on the planet literally, to he's worthless depending on his emotions but keeps saying he's normal. Either the best or worst isn't a normie. Also Kent has no normal traits or life status stuff aside he can drive a car. (granted that trend is dying on people his age but I digress) Normal people his age are at college, working, living out of the house, out partying, starting families etc. Kent is NEET...