Do yourself a favor and don’t watch the video. Whatever method he chose was a slow and painful one. Towards the end he seemed to be trying to fight his way out of it and stand up. But he kept collapsing and puking up blood. Suicide is evil man. Try to die with loved ones by your side people.
Man if he researched suicide for a while, why choose this way to go. Christ.
@curbside2, he wasn't trying to stand up, he was having muscle spasms trying to vomit. Sudden contraction, loses his balance with the violence of the action, and then legs sort of mindlessly kick as they do sometimes when people die. He was probably unconscious, and if not unconscious on his way there.
I like odd knowledge. whatever the mental hang up that makes you want to learn stuff people don't want you know, I have it. (hence why I'm here posting slurs). I do not need a H&S check.
I dunno, TW: Autism speculation about a dude offing himself.
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@Moafar points out its likely Sodium Nitrate instead of a form of Cynanide. It works roughly the same by inhibiting oxygen from binding to hemoglobin. That''s what the anti-nausea gas is for.
From what I have gleaned from suicider communities, and what I saw in the video, he used a form of Cyanide (powder) and an inhaled gas/substance to keep it down long enough to for-sure kill him. I forget the exact combination, but basically your body will immediate attempt to expel the cyanide unless you take steps to prevent that. So you inhale some sort of thing to until you have absorbed a for sure lethal dose - which is not very long. (depending on cynanid used you are probably dead as soon as you swallow it unless you get immediate correct treatment, but you might take hours/days to expire.)
This is also why Joe was carefully measuring the dose - too much and you are certain to vomit, not enough you will
probably still die just horribly and slowly not true for NaN - you'll wake up with one hell of a headache. The fact he was vomitting and thrashing means he fucked it up and had too much chemical in there. But I don't think anyone was actually home.
If done correctly, by the time you remove the inhaler you should be about 30 seconds to unconsciousness, and drifting off; by the time your body would attempt to expel the poison you should be too weak to vomit.
Removing the inhaler is optional, but increases the odds of suffication reflex because of the gas running out. No one knows if you actually feel it if you dosed everything correctly naturally, but your body will twitch and jerk and you'll try to claw it off your face - is possible you might not be home any longer and its all reflex spasms, but absent any other evidence the concensus seems to be "walks like a duck quacks like a duck..."
anyway, that's why he taped it to his face then made sure everything was in place to quickly cut it off.
This method is still popular despite the risks because:
1) you can easily and legally get the components - no backgrounds, no registries, you can get them from normal shops or the internet.
2) Intact corpse. The number of people who can't live with the thought (
ha) of not leaving a perfect body behind is very high. Some people dont want their loved ones to see them as a bloody corpse with pulp where a head should be, some people are concerned about the mess, but a lot just can't cotton to the thought they won't be discovered serene and "asleep" (one of the reasons sleeping pills are so popular with women)
3)
Guaranteed results even if discovered. Its POSSIBLE you can be saved but it would require your body to have vomited up everything you swallowed nearly immediately and the paramedics to know what sort of cynanide your ingested to inject some sort of anti-cyanosis drug. Basically if you think you're going to get interrupted or won't have privacy, this is the way to go about it because they'll just see you mixing powder in water, then putting on a breather, and by the time they have an idea somethings wrong its too late this not true for sodium nirtrate. You will lose consciousness quickly but your body can keep going for a while. Good survival chance if you are found & at the hospital in time due to it being less "grabby" on your hemoglobin than cyanide.
4) I'm not going back digging for the details, and I'm guessing some kiwi likewise versed in forbidden knowledge will correct me if I'm wrong, but IIRC with this method its possible to do a "trial run". If you take some chemical/drug BEFORE you dose up, if you got your measurement right it will make you woozy, very weak and a little nauseous for a few hours (due to effectively hypoxia) but you won't projectile vomit. If you immediately spew, you mixed too much. If you don't effectively collapse on bed unable to lift your arm, you didn't mix in enough.
it might have been similar one that let you try-before-you buy, I sort of compressed all that shit since I'm not looking to an hero
The fact Joe ends up vomiting means he fucked up the solution; he had the scale sitting on his bed so that probably did it. Or he fucked up the gaseous part.
But from the people in the suicider communities, he likely barely felt it - like when you have fever dream or are super fucking hammered and time skips. I don't think anyone except the lizard brain was home past 30:54 and he was definitely just a browning-out brainstem after 34:40.
tl;dr: Make sure your digital scale is on a firm surface.
