the ultimate white/blackpill of life is that life is like a forced slot machine play using time when not money
you live long enough, eventually, you will win, and eventually, you will lose, and even with 50/50 odds the losses will stick with you more than the wins. you live long enough and odds that you'll meet the love of your life and then have your heart shattered, rebuilt, and shattered again worse than you know possible, that you will seek death and not find it, that you will lose so much important to you, never to return, that the promise of immortality is a cruel joke, and then you will get epiphanies on the meaning of life and perserverance from some random book's prologue reach near 100%
life is raw chaos, even when you take all measures to stabilize it