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Woke up black today

God damn, it really is "having the right person to put you in a job", everywhere it seems.
"You need a network! You need to know people!". Those without +5 years of work history got nothing to offer a network. "Networks" are often just "people from your last job you added on LinkedIn". And the few times I've seen people 'use' their network, it was someone posting a new listing on LinkedIn and a guy going "Hey you should talk to @goldenspoonretard", and that's all it takes. A person not even to vouch for you, but to let them know you exist. Ironically, this was done on a post of a mom posting for a job for her "motivated, independent son" who.. didn't make the post herself for her to simply re-post or whatever? Jesus christ, and of course it worked.

I had a healthy talk with my barber. He works part-time retard wrangling (literally) and make a ton of money. One of his coworkers work like +60 hour weeks which is borderline illegal here, makes fat stacks and then loses it all gambling. Insane debt to bikers and whole nine yards. Then we talked about 90 Day Fiance and those kinds of nutjobs. We agreed in the end we felt pretty good about our lives; no debt, no mental issues, a solid income. Negative visualization is a good thing to do sometimes: Take a moment to realize how many comforts you've got. I make more than my parents ever did (barely), I got a debtless car and ~45 mins to and from work.

Anyway: Halfway through my week off. Ain't done shit other than get my car serviced and checked, which I guess is good enough. The placebo alone of a mechanic saying it's a healthy car is worth the fee of a proper brand workshop.
 
Do simple recipes, learn the basics, then throw in your own flair to those recipes to make them unique. Just by doing that you're better than most people at cooking
I have to cook daily (family to feed) and honestly I am so turned off cooking by the fat tha it has to be done in a short time daily, in a stressful time (post work and school run) after a stressful day at work. I also am blessed with a family who are picky (adults and children both) and various members refuse to eat;
Onion, garlic, fish, yoghurt (one loves yoghurt) cheese, baked cheese, baked carrots (will eat raw) eggs and a million other things. Our diet is very very monotonous and I’m utterly sick of it to the point I’ve almost stopped eating and don’t look great. I’ve tried over the years to strike the balance between not having any drama over food, and accommodating the genuine issues while praising trying new foods. Ironically the one with the issues that are genuine is probably the best eater now, the others are just picky.
If someone else cooked for me, even if it was the most basic of things, I would be overjoyed.
Yeah but usually, I felt incredibly like a total failure when I couldn't poach an egg. It's one of those skills you feel you suck unless you can do it. And it took me into my age of decrepitude before I managed to do it right. I FINALLY DID IT -- ACK!
Delia smith (British cook, national treasure) was roundly mocked for her piece on how to boil an egg, but it’s actually not that easy. Poached I’m fine with (small pan, create a vortex, slide egg into vortex, watch obsessively) but boiled, I get it wrong almost every darn time. Every egg is different, and to get that hard white, just soft enough tok for dipping without being too liquid is hard.
Nobody ever taught me the basics of cookery (or much else tbh) and I’ve just learned what I ca but I’m not very good at it.
 
Does anyone have tips for treating sinus infections? I have meds on hand already, but god my sinuses feel like genuine hell
Could try a nasal saline rinse but ymmv and use distilled water for gods sakes if you do.
This is the only thing I've tried myself and I think it helps. But I usually don't get any serious sinus issues, ymmv indeed.
 
i have been better and worse, the new medication is doing wonders for controlling stomach acid but now histamines are like; don't worry bro I got this and are making me feel very sick and depressed. I haven't been sleeping great and last night nausea got me at about 4:30 and even with gravol I couldn't get back to sleep.

My stupid stomach hasn't stopped me from spending an hour cleaning the kitchen this morning, tidying and doing a load of laundry tho, so yay.

Maybe it's my stomach getting me down but I've come to the realization that when I was born I must not have bonded with mother, there is no motherly love. Dad is totally a undiagnosed autistic and I didn't bond with him either. Sister is a bitch who never wanted a sibling and I didn't bond with her either because she always resented me being alive. When I was eleven I went to go visit my uncle and his partner and l told them that I loved and supported them being gay, his partner said that he didn't want a niece and my uncle went along with it. His partner still maintains that he didn't mean it like that, but I have a really good memory.

I wasn't meant to be born, it was a fluke.
 
"You need a network! You need to know people!". Those without +5 years of work history got nothing to offer a network. "Networks" are often just "people from your last job you added on LinkedIn". And the few times I've seen people 'use' their network, it was someone posting a new listing on LinkedIn and a guy going "Hey you should talk to @goldenspoonretard", and that's all it takes. A person not even to vouch for you, but to let them know you exist. Ironically, this was done on a post of a mom posting for a job for her "motivated, independent son" who.. didn't make the post herself for her to simply re-post or whatever? Jesus christ, and of course it worked.
And that's what it's fucking ASS: I have 1 year and 3 months (15 months) of work on a good company, doing Quality Assurance work. I have good prospects of going back by 15 March, because I need to wait a six month period (per Brazilian law) to wait until I may or may not be rehired. Why do I say that? Because they know my qualifications and profile, and how I was with my job, and because the market is complete fucking balls currently. Sometimes I wonder if my resumé has an invisible line which says "KIKE HATER" (obviously not, I am just jesting - I am not this autistic, plus I would hate myself since I have Sephardic blood), and this is why I don't have any positive returns.

All I know is that I just get my mother who has limited contacts, and she was the sole reason I found any jobs so far. I sometimes wonder why is this the reason why people find jobs. Nepotism, I mean.
 
When I was eleven I went to go visit my uncle and his partner and l told them that I loved and supported them being gay, his partner said that he didn't want a niece and my uncle went along with it. His partner still maintains that he didn't mean it like that, but I have a really good memory.
By not being interesting for the kind of man that you will find in the gay way, you were likely saved from being introduced to many of them, in your formative years and as an emotionally neglected kid. Why else would he express open disappointment? That you can't go fishing with them or watch a game of balls? C'mon.
 
alright, had to take a long ass sleep because of all the extreme feelings ive been having for the past couple weeks, things could be alot better, im just avoiding anything on YouTube that isn't music or vtubers today, and so far its helped immensely, any other user created slop reccommended to me usually puts in anxiety through the roof, leading to these feelings, my moms still in the hospital, probably wont be getting out for awhile due to mental health reasons, my dad has been disorganized as fuck lately but im trying really hard to be patient, he was honestly just as reliant on her as me and I don't think he has adjusted nearly as quickly to her not being here
 
Maybe it's my stomach getting me down but I've come to the realization that when I was born I must not have bonded with mother, there is no motherly love. Dad is totally a undiagnosed autistic and I didn't bond with him either. Sister is a bitch who never wanted a sibling and I didn't bond with her either because she always resented me being alive. When I was eleven I went to go visit my uncle and his partner and l told them that I loved and supported them being gay, his partner said that he didn't want a niece and my uncle went along with it. His partner still maintains that he didn't mean it like that, but I have a really good memory.

I wasn't meant to be born, it was a fluke.
Welcome to the club, I was an actual accident. I still remember my dad using the fact that he originally wanted to abort me as a "gotcha" in an argument. Never bonded with my parents either, for the first few formative years of my life I was the odd one out with my siblings. I'm telling you all of this to suggest to you to see a therapist as soon as you can, cause we seem to have gone through similar formative years, and I know my formative years irreversibly ruined me in a lot of very important ways. That if you perhaps ended up the same way as me, you should be aware of how it may have fucked you up so you can overcome it.
im just avoiding anything on YouTube that isn't music or vtubers today
Try doing that tomorrow too, sounds like a very relaxing way to use Youtube. I only use Youtube for music, FUNNY drama (Stuff like furry drama where it's so absurd and ridiculous), Youtube gameplay, and lore dumps of serieses I like. I avoid legit drama like the plague.
 
By not being interesting for the kind of man that you will find in the gay way, you were likely saved from being introduced to many of them, in your formative years and as an emotionally neglected kid. Why else would he express open disappointment? That you can't go fishing with them or watch a game of balls? C'mon.
Unfortunately I've had lots of toxic gay men in my life, one even tried to kill me, I wish I was joking ;)
You're missing my point, I am saying that my family is plagued with generational trauma and I've had no real foundational relationships and I don't feel as if I fit, here or anywhere
 
i have been better and worse, the new medication is doing wonders for controlling stomach acid but now histamines are like; don't worry bro I got this and are making me feel very sick and depressed. I haven't been sleeping great and last night nausea got me at about 4:30 and even with gravol I couldn't get back to sleep.

My stupid stomach hasn't stopped me from spending an hour cleaning the kitchen this morning, tidying and doing a load of laundry tho, so yay.

Maybe it's my stomach getting me down but I've come to the realization that when I was born I must not have bonded with mother, there is no motherly love. Dad is totally a undiagnosed autistic and I didn't bond with him either. Sister is a bitch who never wanted a sibling and I didn't bond with her either because she always resented me being alive. When I was eleven I went to go visit my uncle and his partner and l told them that I loved and supported them being gay, his partner said that he didn't want a niece and my uncle went along with it. His partner still maintains that he didn't mean it like that, but I have a really good memory.

I wasn't meant to be born, it was a fluke.
i'm happy that you were born.
 
Joined a +30-40 yr WoW guild and their Discord server. I know they were all old bums, but seeing these people, equal to me in terms of in-game role, looking like they're 45 and make twice my wage.. It didn't humble me but it felt weird. The kind of people you'd meet in a sports club, clearly living a better life than you, but you're equals, or at least don't let wealth affect you. That's a skill I clearly need to refine. I don't want a big car or house, but to look someone in the eyes knowing they're 'superior' and ignoring it? Man.
Some dude at my dad's funeral farted so fucking loud that everyone started laughing
If we faced death more often in life, I think we'd take it a lot lighter. It's a celebration of life however cliche that may be. Imagine losing an aunt and then being told "the whole family is throwing a remembrance party with booze and fried chicken", would you not feel a lot more inclined to go? "Uhh we go to this chapel, sulk for 45 mins as a priest pretends to know the woman we're burying, then we drive home and sulk more". I've only attended two funerals but there's a somber angle to exiting the chapel and seeing the sun rise cause it's 10am on a saturday. Life goes on.
Try doing that tomorrow too, sounds like a very relaxing way to use Youtube. I only use Youtube for music, FUNNY drama (Stuff like furry drama where it's so absurd and ridiculous), Youtube gameplay, and lore dumps of serieses I like. I avoid legit drama like the plague.
In periods I've unbookmarked Twitch/Youtube and you really end up forgetting it's a thing. I open Twitch to THEN try to find something to watch, not "Hm, I wanna watch this streamer play". That's when you know it's bad. On Youtube I primarily watch 50 min mindless essays, but even those are becoming so copy-paste you'll find some 20k sub contrarian rant on about "Actually Half Life 2 was so bad-", like nigga, you can talk about a game at length without having some gotcha angle. Other times, I pause the video 25 mins in and go "I'm not listening, this isn't interesting nor useful" and I realize it's basically auditory doomscrolling. We need to allow ourselves to waste time but we need to be aware of it. Like watching a bad movie for the sake of it.
 
On Youtube I primarily watch 50 min mindless essays, but even those are becoming so copy-paste you'll find some 20k sub contrarian rant on about "Actually Half Life 2 was so bad-", like nigga, you can talk about a game at length without having some gotcha angle
I actually enjoy long form content despite being somewhat copy and paste, the biggest sign of enshittification to me is the complaintslop/doomer content it comes of as manly narcissistic and often overblown i’m not denying there’s issues with our current society but there’s been issues all throughout human history in every culture and society, like the AI hysteria for example i’m not in favor of unrestricted use by corporations but it’s gotten to like salem witch trials level of hysteria where every person with even a slightly pro-AI opinion gets labeled as the enemy of the people i’m in favor of regulation but the alarmism gets to me, same with other political issues like i would definitely consider myself culturally a conservative but like it feels no one can have even a minor disagreement anymore without it turning into a screeching match, it was definitely more noticeable on the left previously but right-wing infighting is also normal in honestly not even violent i don’t want to me my positions are largely based on wanting to be left alone do some issues effect me certainly but people don’t know when to pick their battles anymore
 
In periods I've unbookmarked Twitch/Youtube and you really end up forgetting it's a thing. I open Twitch to THEN try to find something to watch, not "Hm, I wanna watch this streamer play". That's when you know it's bad. On Youtube I primarily watch 50 min mindless essays, but even those are becoming so copy-paste you'll find some 20k sub contrarian rant on about "Actually Half Life 2 was so bad-", like nigga, you can talk about a game at length without having some gotcha angle. Other times, I pause the video 25 mins in and go "I'm not listening, this isn't interesting nor useful" and I realize it's basically auditory doomscrolling. We need to allow ourselves to waste time but we need to be aware of it. Like watching a bad movie for the sake of it.
I've noticed a lot of content on Youtube that's only point is "This thing is objectively bad and you are bad if you like it". I know we're on Kiwifarms, but I always was of the opinion that it's standard to exaggerate here and no one actually thinks anyone is inherently evil if they like Bluey. Neither do those Youtubers, but they just know getting people scared of being ostracized from the internet and getting people angry and defensive gets views. I called it Misery-Farming on Onion Farms
 
I've noticed a lot of content on Youtube that's only point is "This thing is objectively bad and you are bad if you like it".
I don't know where you guys are seeing content like this but it's nearly the exact opposite. So many youtubers will make 40+ min videos ranting about everything wrong with a game and the conclusion isn't "This thing is bad and you're bad if you like it" it's always yes this game has issues but it's so fun that I'm willing to ignore the fact that the game rapes my wallet, doesn't value my time, and crashes more often than it doesn't. It seems like our standards have never been lower.
 
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