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You know, sometimes I just want to raise some hell and I don't think too many people at all know that side of me.

I think some people are long overdue for the surprise. Or maybe that's just untreated bipolar disorder. I hope not. I'm gonna call a good friend about it later before I do or say anything crazy.
 
Banquet Meal said:
oh my god.
so my daughter let me know about some neopets/gross tea place collaboration where they were selling adorable neopet plushies...but they were like 60 miles away..my husband who is amazing drove all the way there and back to get all of them for me :semperfidelis:

to be fair, i also bought him a bunch of books he wanted, so its not entirely one sided...most of the time
i LOVED to play neopets back in the day, when my older kids were little..we were so poor, and i couldnt afford anything in the game, but i still loved to play it, and this was so nice. (i still love neopets, idc)
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Maaaaaaaaan I got back into Neopets before the recent purchase but before Jumpstart further tarnished the lore, I have a black kougra plushie from the original plushie run from back in the day. Sitting on my bookshelf with my other plushies and weebshit.
It's such a comforting game experience.
 
Sometimes I'll make a new account for kingdom of loathing and just relive the fun, game still lives up to the nostalgia. Always wanted to be a true die hard and go through all the loops the game has but after 2 or 3 I always forget about the account lol. I should do that again.
 
Had my first appointment at physical therapy today, wasn't bad. Really just a sort of massage, i expected we do exercises or something but no, ten minutes of rubbing on my lower back, done. It feels somewhat better but i am not sure if it will really make a difference in the long run. Got five more appointments until March, we'll see. 30€ co-pay (hello, european Universal Healthcare) ain't too bad but i doubt i will ask my orthopedician for more physio after this stint. Exercise and losing weight (i am slowly turning into a fatass again ever since the back thing started, broke the 90kg mark which i never even got close to in many, many years) is probably more effective in the long run.

Friend of Dorothy Parker said:
What are you thinking for ring style?
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Simple gold band with maybe a tiny stone, i would prefer without stone lookswise but i know she would like something less plain. I actually told her about it yesterday and she kind of brushed me off, i did not expect that reaction. Probably gonna shelf the ring thing for now and buy her some other jewelery instead, maybe a necklace or ear rings. I can somewhat understand her reaction, we could use the money for more pressing stuff but still, i'm kinda miffed about the whole thing. EDIT: She just now came at me with some "It's the thought that counts" stuff about the rings, definitely putting the rings idea to rest for now...
Friend of Dorothy Parker said:
And I assume it may not actually be exciting or fun for you ("situations" with Interpol might be more "interesting" than "fun"), but it is a bit fascinating. ...has she ever considered changing her name?
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Definitely not fun. We both get strip-searched every single time when we fly over for example, her brother's car is bugged (i've seen the bugs, some palm-sized things with a SIM card inserted) so potentially everything we talk about gets recorded and we also get "shadowed" at the beach and stuff (easy to spot plain-clothes cops over there, no one else is going to the beach and laying down in their street wear and without a parasol right next to us on a practically empty beach) from time to time. All because crimes committed by members of her family 20-30 years ago, by relatives who she hasn't seen ever since childhood. There is much more to it but i can't go deeper for doxing reasons, it is all kind of high profile. I leave out how this connects to the Sardinian part of my family as well.
 
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Basically alone at work this entire week followed by a week off, meaning no pressure and no retaliation for "poor performance". Yet, the chest tightness is still there. Even if I imagine going back to my old, easy physical job, I'd just be shook about something else. Guess that's life for a while.
Baumstriezel said:
In the midst of “it’s so over”, I found there was, within me, an invincible “we’re so back”.
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Sometimes I imagine what it'd take to bring back excitement in my life. If I simply am so old that I'd at most get comfortable excitement about like.. being invited out to a thing or what have you. Or if I truly have the potential to reach that "holy shit; new friends, new girlfriend, new hobbies" level of passion for life. I'm reaching the age where I actively need to make a decision, reach out to a club or something and just get busy living. I write off my parents as boring but hell, my dad lived on a boat for most of his life and they motorbiked around europe with friends.
 
fist_of_khonshu said:
Ive been a little down since my move, also massive caffeine withdrawals since I cut Monster out. Im trying to start going to the gym more.
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I'm a recovering monster java addict and for a good while, those drinks actually made me feel a little more whole. They helped make me function during days where things are being rough. But overtime, whatever affect or boost that they had given me, wore off. So now I was just drinking this stuff, just for the sake of it and it wasn't doing anything anymore. But once you're off them, java or energy drink, the withdrawals suck hard. I haven't had a can in two weeks and sometimes I'm struggling to find something to drink now to tide me over. That shit just runs you.
 
nycifer said:
I'm a recovering monster java addict and for a good while, those drinks actually made me feel a little more whole. They helped make me function during days where things are being rough. But overtime, whatever affect or boost that they had given me, wore off. So now I was just drinking this stuff, just for the sake of it and it wasn't doing anything anymore. But once you're off them, java or energy drink, the withdrawals suck hard. I haven't had a can in two weeks and sometimes I'm struggling to find something to drink now to tide me over. That shit just runs you.
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It feels like a crack addiction but what I've been doing is slowly phasing it out. Like i'd do every other day, than every 2 days until now where I'll have one or two a week and am slowly weening off of that til I don't want them anymore. It's making me crash a bit but I'm trying fix my schedule so I don't need to rely on them. Not to mention I just applied for classes at a community college in my area and don't want to waste anymore money on crap I don't need.
 
Fuck me did today go to shit fast as fuck. My blood pressure finally after over a week went back into healthy territory and I felt great. But my blood pressure watch noted an irregular heartbeat which didn't bode well. Lunch time comes and I check that shit again and I'm square back into stage 2 hypertension but what freaked me out was my pulse was just 64. 30 minutes later I get out of my car and start shaking like a leaf, puking, stuttering, and having to catch my breath when speaking. I leave work early but check my blood pressure before I drive and my pulse evened out back to normal but of course my blood pressure spiked by another 25 ticks. The only saving grace is my doctor was able to move my appointment up to tomorrow.
 
The Feline Solution 2 said:
EDIT: She just now came at me with some "It's the thought that counts" stuff about the rings, definitely putting the rings idea to rest for now..
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Woah there. Ok, as a certified and qualified speaker of fluent Woman (TM) is she meaning that? Is she a low maintenance kind of girl? Because that’s the kind of thing I’d say and actually I’d love it. Sometimes we are socialised to negate our own wants to not appear needy or difficult. I am hideously guilty of doing this.
You need to have a conversation about this, ask her if she’d like to help you design it, maybe? Make sure she feels able to say yes.
Moomalade said:
Schumann Resonance Generator a go. At either 7.83hz, or even lower, somewhere between 1-3hz. Leave it on by your bedside.
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This is my kind of woo. I do actually think there’s something in this, and I may try it.
 
Banquet Meal said:
oh my god.
so my daughter let me know about some neopets/gross tea place collaboration where they were selling adorable neopet plushies...but they were like 60 miles away..my husband who is amazing drove all the way there and back to get all of them for me :semperfidelis:

to be fair, i also bought him a bunch of books he wanted, so its not entirely one sided...most of the time
i LOVED to play neopets back in the day, when my older kids were little..we were so poor, and i couldnt afford anything in the game, but i still loved to play it, and this was so nice. (i still love neopets, idc)
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I used to love Neopets!
 
PetiteFeet said:
I keep wanting to mentally read that as Alien vs Predator Disorder
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It's impossible for me to not automatically do that :story:
Otterly said:
Is she a low maintenance kind of girl?
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Of course, she's with me after all, low maintenance (regarding the monetary department, not in the feelings department) is all i got to offer. She certainly isn't with me for this long because of my stunning looks and my charming personality. Maybe because a bit of the latter.
Otterly said:
Because that’s the kind of thing I’d say and actually I’d love it.
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She's exactly like that but it still threw me off with how she said it.
 
I did not leave my husband, I confronted his behavior and told him to GTFO and he has recognized what I was saying and has shaped up. He has been working towards a career and I am proud of him, he takes steps everyday

I have prospects and a possible side hustle which will give me a little more independence.

The medication I've been taking for my stomach has been working, although I've had a little bit of a back track recently but every day it's getting better. I am still bagged by 9pm,

Yesterday I saw Send Help, liked it
 
PetiteFeet said:
Maaaaaaaaan I got back into Neopets before the recent purchase but before Jumpstart further tarnished the lore, I have a black kougra plushie from the original plushie run from back in the day. Sitting on my bookshelf with my other plushies and weebshit.
It's such a comforting game experience.
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i love neopets SO much..well i did back in the day. i still like them, but their website sucks now, it barely works..
these toys are so adorable though! unfortunately, assholes are buying them all up to sell on ebay, which is gay. i mean..i get making a profit or whatever, but nearly any time there is some cute promotional item for sale, some niggerdick goes and ruins it for everyone and buys them all up.
 
Forsaken Wanderer said:
I have nothing to live for, I hope death comes soon
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Look like you got your wish.
 
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