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You turned an innocuous comment about using the Farms for fun and friendly times into a post about how you cannot function unless you conscript users into making your life choices for you. I'm suggesting you deal with that.
I see. I felt happiest when I completely cut it out of my life for a brief period of time (Before I came back in a bout of anxiety and now here we are), but if such a balance exists I’ll see if I can shoot for that
 
I have had these teeth falling out dreams many times over the years and every time I wake up relieved that it was just a dream. I have read before that it is related to a very basic and primitive fear as in the animal world if you have no teeth you starve and die. So yes stress, anxiety insecurity all contribute to causing these teeth nightmares.
I often have dreans-within-dreams, or whole movies or full subplots inside another dream. And those things have included teeth crumbling/ falling out dreams-within-dreams. It is incredibly cruel of my mind to make me think I'm awake and realizing my teeth falling out was just a dream...only to have them fall out again! At that point I usually force myself awake, bc how dare I.

or talk to AnOminous about food, he seems to have an extensive knowledge about cooking, preserving, canning, etc.
I want to do some preserves and fermenting next year.
Can you fucking stop.
 
Got a call from a doctor who's friends with someone I go to Church with. He got a run-down on my prognosis and believes he has a regiment that could help. Apparently had someone with a similar outlook that's just been getting scans, but otherwise has been in remission for 3 years now. Nothing to lose at this point so I'm going to give it a try.
had a genuine out of body experience and some strong visuals while riding the amberlamps
Shit man, sorry. That's rough, especially at this time of year. If whatever they gave you is too strong or gives you an upset stomach, see if they can do dilaudid for your next pain treatment instead. Still gets rid of my pain every time I'm inpatient without making my stomach churn. It does make me an obnoxious chatterbox since you still get the euphoric feeling. The nurses definitely deserve a raise for listening to whatever stupid shit I have to say while on narcotics.
 
or talk to AnOminous about food, he seems to have an extensive knowledge about cooking, preserving, canning, etc.
I want to do some preserves and fermenting next year.
There are plenty of people here way better at food than I am.
 
Got a call from a doctor who's friends with someone I go to Church with. He got a run-down on my prognosis and believes he has a regiment that could help. Apparently had someone with a similar outlook that's just been getting scans, but otherwise has been in remission for 3 years now. Nothing to lose at this point so I'm going to give it a try.
I'm in an angry mood tonight due to [reasons] but this has given me a jolt of hope. I'm still praying for you. Whatever you're about to embark on, I hope it's not too uncomfortable and I hope you can still enjoy the things you enjoy in the midst. Fuck cancer.
 
I'm in an angry mood tonight due to [reasons] but this has given me a jolt of hope. I'm still praying for you. Whatever you're about to embark on, I hope it's not too uncomfortable and I hope you can still enjoy the things you enjoy in the midst. Fuck cancer.
Sorry to hear you've had a shitty day, and thanks for always having something nice to say :) a bunch of fat assholes took up all the radiology parking today (none of them had the parking pass) so I was pissed for a while today myself that I got to take the shoelace express all the way back after I was done. I hope your night gets better and that you have a good weekend.
 
There are plenty of people here way better at food than I am.
I think its more you remind me of someone from a lifetime ago. Long before the Internet existed, there was a guy in the place I grew up that knew just about damn near everything, Encyclopedia Britannica levels of knowledge. Wanted to talk about rocketry? he knew what escape velocity was. Needed to jury rig a machine to do something its not normally supposed to do? He knew machining and welding. Want a recipe for clover buns? He's got you covered.
 
Got a call from a doctor who's friends with someone I go to Church with. He got a run-down on my prognosis and believes he has a regiment that could help. Apparently had someone with a similar outlook that's just been getting scans, but otherwise has been in remission for 3 years now. Nothing to lose at this point so I'm going to give it a try.
Intriguing, I hope the regiment isn't too difficult or tough on you.
 
I’m getting second thoughts on quitting this site. I feel like I’m not allowed to.
Can you fucking stop.
It’s not Dizzy’s responsibility to tard-wrangle me. It’s fine.
For three nights now I've had intense nightmares, and I don't know how to stop them. Today I had a dream that my teeth were falling out. Fucking scary as shit, and I was so grateful when I finally woke up and realized I still had all of my teeth.
I’ve heard that can be a sign of a fear of losing control, like you’re scared of life thrashing you around and giving you no chance.
 
KF made me realize there’s real consequences to being wrong, such as social ostracization and public mocking. KF gave me a sense of shame beyond morality. Before, I’d only feel shame whenever I did something I felt was morally wrong. Now, I feel it even if what I’m doing isn’t necessarily bad imo, but in KF’s opinion. It makes me feel uncool. Before I just wanted to be myself, now I want to be cool. And KF is the best guide to being cool.

I saw someone on here once say that bullying causes social cohesion, and they’re right. KF is how you achieve that mold, and maybe it makes me stressed or unhappy or whatever, but it’s “right”.

Seeking permission to do something from KF is probably the best thing you could do for yourself, it’s not that far off from like podcasts or anything. You’ll live a boring life, but a righteous life.
You keep saying things that make me think "yeah, that sounds reasonable I can agree with that" but then immediately it turns into "wait no, that's not what I signed up for, how did we get to this conclusion?!" I think you should stop thinking in such extremes like going from KF is bad for me I need to quit it forever to KF is really good because X, I should do what xyz says on KF. But I guess for you it's not so simple to not think in extremes?... I suppose it's the nature of your ailment. Perhaps that's why you do need a break.

I'm not sure how to put into words exactly what I'm trying to get at. But basically, I think that in life you need some balance between being yourself and being what others expect you to be. You can't just pick a random group and decide that they're right and you should do what they say. But you can't just self indulge mindlessly in whatever thoughts and desires you have either. Finding the right middle ground is not something you do in a short span of time. I think it's something you get to after you consider what many groups of people say, and rationalize all that based on your own life experiences and context.

Perhaps part of it is also the folly of youth being flippant and rushing to conclusions; combined with these weird times we live in...
 
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