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I've been really beating myself up for the past couple of months about the fact that I'm in such a holding pattern and not getting things done. Today I woke up and decided to give myself a little grace because in spite of being a procrastinator on several things I should be moving on, I am at least getting up every day, paying my bills on time, and not actively harming myself. I probably will still not get anything useful done today, but I've decided to let that be okay.

It's good & important to stop berating yourself, especially if the inner critic is loud, and/ or constant, or you have an inner discouragement junkie. Have high standards, aim for them, push yourself to get there, but so long as you're not totally and irrevocably blowing important things, forgive yourself and keep going.

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I had a rare notably positive healthcare experience today. Had a mammogram scheduled this morning (normally I schedule nothing on Mondays bc Mondays I am slow, but I've decided to break some pointless habits) for x:30, told to arrive at x:15. Got there right at x:15, no line to check in; check-in took 1 minute, didn't even have to show ID. They call me at x:25, tech hands me a heated robe to change into, we do the thing, and I'm dressed and walking out the front door at x:38. Also I have an mri (unrelated) to do, and the orthopedist has Saturday hours!

I've been historically terrible about making and getting to doctors' appointments, but when they make it so easy and unstressful, even I am getting over the procrastination and avoidance.
 
It's good & important to stop berating yourself, especially if the inner critic is loud, and/ or constant, or you have an inner discouragement junkie. Have high standards, aim for them, push yourself to get there, but so long as you're not totally and irrevocably blowing important things, forgive yourself and keep going.

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I had a rare notably positive healthcare experience today. Had a mammogram scheduled this morning (normally I schedule nothing on Mondays bc Mondays I am slow, but I've decided to break some pointless habits) for x:30, told to arrive at x:15. Got there right at x:15, no line to check in; check-in took 1 minute, didn't even have to show ID. They call me at x:25, tech hands me a heated robe to change into, we do the thing, and I'm dressed and walking out the front door at x:38. Also I have an mri (unrelated) to do, and the orthopedist has Saturday hours!

I've been historically terrible about making and getting to doctors' appointments, but when they make it so easy and unstressful, even I am getting over the procrastination and avoidance.
I'm doing a double-post to add that within 2 hours, I had scan results in my medical chart app and a text alert to it. Along with a text alert from a completely different healthcare system that my PT is approved and would I like to schedule my initial sessions via text.

OK, yeah, like I said I've been an avoider, so apparently did not realize that the 21st century finally caught on in healthcare. So I'm feeling a little

 
Honestly not terrible today. Gonna try finally going to town meetings. I've heard the people in charge are really fucking gay about their affairs, like they set their table far away from others and discuss in hush-hush terms, but they're also nothing but old dying fucks too so who knows. I guess the most important thing is to show up, really.
Or maybe it'll just be a shitty experience and a reminder that I gotta get outta this hellhole. But won't know until I try.
 
Brushed my teeth for the first time today with a toothbrush, toothpaste, and mouthwash that I lawfully purchased in my newfound manic quest for NEET reversal! Honestly it kinda hurts and it just feels like I am bloodletting myself into the sink but I know on an intellectual level that this works, so I'll keep at it.
 
Brushed my teeth for the first time today with a toothbrush, toothpaste, and mouthwash that I lawfully purchased in my newfound manic quest for NEET reversal! Honestly it kinda hurts and it just feels like I am bloodletting myself into the sink but I know on an intellectual level that this works, so I'll keep at it.
Don't brush too hard, especially if you haven't been doing it regularly. Your gums are likely swollen due to plaque on your teeth, and will bleed easily. Be gentle. But keep at it 2x/ day. And those floss sticks are super-easy/ easier than the spool of floss.

And don't forget to brush your tongue!
 
Brushed my teeth for the first time today with a toothbrush, toothpaste, and mouthwash that I lawfully purchased in my newfound manic quest for NEET reversal! Honestly it kinda hurts and it just feels like I am bloodletting myself into the sink but I know on an intellectual level that this works, so I'll keep at it.
Can anyone chime in on what is the correct use of mouth wash? I should probably ask my dentist but I've heard debates that you shouldn't be using mouthwash after brushing. It washes away the fluoride before it has a chance to work from the toothpaste, and mouthwash only contains a much smaller amount of fluoride. I have Listerine and the directions say to use it after brushing but now I'm wondering if I should wash before I brush or wait some time after.
 
She's gone. we had our problems, but we were still friends. I'm missing her and grieving. She absolutely loved penguins so I'm going to post one.

Penguin.webp
 
Im kind of meh on my new job. I'm constantly traveling, doing commissioning for my prior employer that fired me. It's fucking weird how much money the old company is wasting doing it this way.

Did a job in PA. Flew down to where my old house is on the East Coast. Loaded up a UHaul and drive out to SLC. Just as I get here, I find out my elderly mother tried to commit suicide.

I swear to go ever since the last week of April, shit just can't seem to go right.
 
I've tried transcendental meditation and... I obviously did it wrong, yet I feel tranquility and hope that it is a path towards something good.
 
Finished an enormous project like months early- by myself, so I have pretty much the week or two off to goof. And the allergy shot injury I got from the pajeet doctor is actually... healing. I've gone from critical to... battle scar; price of pajeet victory. Praise Jesus.
Never go to a pajeet or jew doctor ever. EVER.
I hope all of you I like stay green out there. 1754789490454273.gif
 
Brushed my teeth for the first time today with a toothbrush, toothpaste, and mouthwash that I lawfully purchased in my newfound manic quest for NEET reversal! Honestly it kinda hurts and it just feels like I am bloodletting myself into the sink but I know on an intellectual level that this works, so I'll keep at it.
It's bleeding because you have gingivitis from not brushing. As you get used to brushing and there's no longer nasty food particles rotting and infecting your gums, they'll bleed less and then not at all. Use a soft bristle brush, not a harsh one. It might seem counterintuitive, but it's better for your teeth and gums (harsh brushing causes your gums to recede and this is bad for your teeth).

Personally, I also floss and use a water pic type thing, not every day but when it seems necessary.

As for mouthwash, I use a fluoride mouthwash in between brushing because I often use a toothpaste that contains no fluoride (nano-hydroxyapatate toothpaste).
 
Paranoid about accidentally giving away a powerlevel. Suffice to say: bleak!

Staying alive because it's bloody inconvenient to do the other thing properly.
 
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