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There's a difference between a black person and a nigger
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A thick Indian accent asking for your account number and pin didn't tip you off huh?
Next time do not redeem sir.
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I wish I had some solid advice besides get pissed and don't give up. Something actionable. Sometimes I myself think about just giving up, going with the flow "well, this is my lot in life".
Maybe you need a major change in our life. New job, new city, something.
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Listen: I gave you feels, even though you don't want sympathy. And I'm going to say this: if those scams didn't work, they wouldn't keep trying. You're not alone, but that is a big hit. I hope your bank is able to work with you. And if they tell you no, then escalate it as a complaint (put your guilt aside). They don't usually reverse themselves, but it is worth the effort for a possibility. Even partially would be something.
And I would also advise asking to deal directly with the fraud team, and ask them for the details of what occurred, especially any points at which some flag could have been raised on their end. Worst they can do is say no, over and over.
Can I ask - what did the scammer say? What info did they get from you and how did they use it to transfer out money? Depending, there may be ways to get more than basic tier help from the fraud group. That said, assuming their controls (manual and automated) are adequate and worked as intended, you may be out of luck, but it can really depend on your bank/their policies and practices/the specifics.
(My dad, in his late 70s, nearly got scammed by a fairly elaborate 2-person con that exploited his emotions and protective instincts toward a grandchild, and would also have put him in potential physical danger. The banker he'd called to arrange for (cash!) money did his job and put my father wise to the scam. He felt foolish, and I'm still furious a couple years later at these predators who exploit people's fundamental emotions, fears, confusion, and trust relationships. Ultimately there was no financial harm, but that aside, making my dad feel stupid and gullible? Unforgiveable scum.
All of that is to say - yes, you might have been stupid or distracted or compromised, but by tomorrow put on your objective hat and pursue all avenues to try to claw something back.
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I'm already on that "major change" meant to do just that. A lot can be said, the truth is is that humanity is not at its finest hour and I am not living in a golden age and my options with human material are severely limited, while fermented beverages are in excess.
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I'm contemplating if I can opt out of an afterlife and just not exist.
But more related I'm worried about how my semester is gonna go cause should I fail my only options left really are to try and find a job in the oil fields of North Dakota. Really though I'm more leaning towards just killing myself but I don't want to do it during the semester cause I don't want my roommates getting automatic A's cause fuck then niggas.
But more related I'm worried about how my semester is gonna go cause should I fail my only options left really are to try and find a job in the oil fields of North Dakota. Really though I'm more leaning towards just killing myself but I don't want to do it during the semester cause I don't want my roommates getting automatic A's cause fuck then niggas.
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Based. Go into a trade or something if school isn't for you. Make money, limited to no debt, have rough hands that chicks dig.
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Someone at my job died, which happens, but the circumstances are so shitty I almost want to say it was actual murder, but the legal kind that just kinda happens in the medical field. The weird part is no one wanted to clean up the aftermath and simply put a wet floor sign next to it. They all feigned ignorance of the proper way to do it. So despite me NOT being a medical person and them being NURSES, I cleaned it up.
They worked me an illegal amount according to the laws of my area and I'm filing a complaint but I'm worried about retribution. If they outright fire me, I'll simply end up with a LOT more money, so that would be fine, but they could do things like just make my day miserable by being mean and excluding me socially and it would just suck.
They worked me an illegal amount according to the laws of my area and I'm filing a complaint but I'm worried about retribution. If they outright fire me, I'll simply end up with a LOT more money, so that would be fine, but they could do things like just make my day miserable by being mean and excluding me socially and it would just suck.
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How do you defeat nihilism
? Let's say it's all in the way the brain is wired and your brain doesn't produce the same positive reactions that it normally should, which then leaves you feeling nothing. If it is indeed a physical or chemical issue in the grey matter then what can you do?
If others see this -
And you see this -
That is your perception and you can't see out of the eyes of others.
Or in other words if someone is wired like this -
Work - exciting, can wait to climb the ladder
Study - exciting, increasing my option i life
Hobbies - exciting, brings additional joy to life
Friends - exciting, get to share experiences with others
Chores - exciting, the house will look so nice and clean
And you are wired like this -
Work - boring, do I really have to waste another 40 years doing this
Study - boring, at best put me in a different line of work I hate just as much
Hobbies - boring, staring at a wall can make the time go by in a similar fashion
Friends - boring, everyone has such suburban mundane lives
Chores - boring, you have to do the same menial tasks over and over again
Then what options do you have do change your outlook on reality and find some meaning in all of the grey fog that everything is covered in?
? Let's say it's all in the way the brain is wired and your brain doesn't produce the same positive reactions that it normally should, which then leaves you feeling nothing. If it is indeed a physical or chemical issue in the grey matter then what can you do?If others see this -
And you see this -
That is your perception and you can't see out of the eyes of others.
Or in other words if someone is wired like this -
Work - exciting, can wait to climb the ladder
Study - exciting, increasing my option i life
Hobbies - exciting, brings additional joy to life
Friends - exciting, get to share experiences with others
Chores - exciting, the house will look so nice and clean
And you are wired like this -
Work - boring, do I really have to waste another 40 years doing this
Study - boring, at best put me in a different line of work I hate just as much
Hobbies - boring, staring at a wall can make the time go by in a similar fashion
Friends - boring, everyone has such suburban mundane lives
Chores - boring, you have to do the same menial tasks over and over again
Then what options do you have do change your outlook on reality and find some meaning in all of the grey fog that everything is covered in?
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Go outside and stop being a mopey emo fuck. You're not "wired" that way you act like this because your online buddies give you a positive feedback loop for acting like a mopey emo fuck.How do you defeat nihilism
If others see this -
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And you see this -
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That is your perception and you can't see out of the eyes of others.
Or in other words if someone is wired like this -
Work - exciting, can wait to climb the ladder
Study - exciting, increasing my option i life
Hobbies - exciting, brings additional joy to life
Friends - exciting, get to share experiences with others
Chores - exciting, the house will look so nice and clean
And you are wired like this -
Work - boring, do I really have to waste another 40 years doing this
Study - boring, at best put me in a different line of work I hate just as much
Hobbies - boring, staring at a wall can make the time go by in a similar fashion
Friends - boring, everyone has such suburban mundane lives
Chores - boring, you have to do the same menial tasks over and over again
Then what options do you have do change your outlook on reality and find some meaning in all of the grey fog that everything is covered in?
Disconnect from the borg.
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Become like me and embrace it.How do you defeat nihilism
Then what options do you have do change your outlook on reality and find some meaning in all of the grey fog that everything is covered in?
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I find it kind of funny in a way that you used a Dark Souls image while posting about defeating nihilism since that whole series is about understanding and overcoming the fact that nothing really matters and the cycle of fire and ash will continue no matter what. But you still have to find meaning in your struggle. Otherwise you will go hollow and lose your mind.How do you defeat nihilism
If others see this -
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And you see this -
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That is your perception and you can't see out of the eyes of others.
Or in other words if someone is wired like this -
Work - exciting, can wait to climb the ladder
Study - exciting, increasing my option i life
Hobbies - exciting, brings additional joy to life
Friends - exciting, get to share experiences with others
Chores - exciting, the house will look so nice and clean
And you are wired like this -
Work - boring, do I really have to waste another 40 years doing this
Study - boring, at best put me in a different line of work I hate just as much
Hobbies - boring, staring at a wall can make the time go by in a similar fashion
Friends - boring, everyone has such suburban mundane lives
Chores - boring, you have to do the same menial tasks over and over again
Then what options do you have do change your outlook on reality and find some meaning in all of the grey fog that everything is covered in?
My advice would be to make decisions that you want to make that you believe will make your life better. If you have friends or family that you enjoy seeing make the decision to see them since that will probably make you happy. Go out and do things you enjoy on your own. Don't overthink on questions that have no answers. I get that isn't as easy as it sounds but that's what I try to do when I struggle with my own standing in life and my outlook on the future. Hope that helps.
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Cook at church's chicken confirmed.
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Better than the Doublemeat palace.
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I have no ability to interact with other people as "myself" in the sense of "being true to my interests, beliefs and natural mannerisms". It's all just varying intensities of performance, with no underlying ideologies or interests stronger than the conformist impulse.
I'd prefer to be uncaring, or even psychopathix. NiceUnfortunately, that is not a choice I am capable of making.
I've wasted so much time with shrinks dealing with this bullshit, and I'm still shocked that not one of them has thrown out even a tentative jesture in the direction of narcissism or other such disorders. I suppose I'm not dramatic enough, I only deliver flat reports of being mentally hostage to the perceptions of others.
I'd prefer to be uncaring, or even psychopathix. NiceUnfortunately, that is not a choice I am capable of making.
I've wasted so much time with shrinks dealing with this bullshit, and I'm still shocked that not one of them has thrown out even a tentative jesture in the direction of narcissism or other such disorders. I suppose I'm not dramatic enough, I only deliver flat reports of being mentally hostage to the perceptions of others.
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@Vapor Sauce I do like the themes of the Dark Souls series a lot. I often think about the atmosphere, the post apocalyptic world of once majestic ruins and the mutant damned, it's both somewhat comforting and it reminds me of the current day nightmare we are trapped in. Silent Hill 2 is what everyone goes to but for good reason as that also gives off the same vibes of a dead world and condemned souls.
Thanks for the advice. We really don't get to do the things we wish to do or to see loved ones enough, too much time spent sweating it out in the uncaring factories.
Thanks for the advice. We really don't get to do the things we wish to do or to see loved ones enough, too much time spent sweating it out in the uncaring factories.
You wouldn't ask a wheel chair bound man to climb a staircase, why is it that illnesses deemed "mental" don't exist just because they cannot be seen so easily? I don't have any online buddies because I refuse to be a member of the borg.
How have you embraced it? Are you turning to the bottle and the escapism? I am having a Canadian Club right now, it's quite smooth. Sadly there is yet to be a place in the world for the afflicted, once found out they are usually cast away like a leper.
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I'm beginning to think I'm too nice and agreeable, but whenever I study things like Machiavelli's works and want to try to apply them to my own life, I just feel dirty and unethical so I end up chickening out and not doing it. I feel like I'm worse off for it.
This kind of thing is disturbingly common in the medical industry, the hospital administration will overwork staff, especially doctors/residents, and people end up dead because the doctors are too tired to be able to do the job right. Of course nobody will say anything because they don't want to lose the job.
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You know man, despite how much I agree with others sometimes with how absolutist your thinking is, I still agree with you on most stuff.
You essentially just summed up my existence in a way I couldn't do with a five paragraph emo post in a sentence.
(I know I said I wouldn't post for a while but I'll try and make this the last one so I'm not going out on a downer)
I will say that despite wanting to walk to my local gunstore yesterday, I had an actual genuinely good night of sleep. It's weird because I've forgotten how great of a feeling it is to just lay in a bed for a couple of hours with absolutely nothing on your schedule to do. The sheer bliss and euphoria of being able to sleep in and every substance on your skin just feeling cozy and warm is really nice.
I think a problem I have a lot is I have ridiculous standards for myself that comes from a lifetime of enjoying fiction and the way it depicts life. It doesn't matter if I write a script, because I wish I could have made a film. I might have some truly great friends, but I don't have nearly as many as some people I know. I'm making good money, but I'm not in a professional job doing "professional things". I have this tremendous burden I put on myself that doesn't help me at all. I can't enjoy anything because it's just a waste of time. When in reality, if I allowed myself to live in the moment for a second, I think the bigger things would fall in order, at least somewhat. What's the point in making a film if you can't even enjoy watching them anymore.
I made a list last night of the films and shows I've watched in the last year, and some of the stuff I've done. And it was really damn impressive. I didn't realize how much I actually did this year. And that was just about 15% of me being productive in between being a whiney, self-sabotaging faggot. Not bad.
I watched Synecdoche, New York recently and it really resonated with me. Not just because it's about a self-aggrandizing, fat emo faggot, but because I know what it's like to be a spectator in your own life. You try to think your life is this thing that will happen eventually, when in reality it's all happening around you all the time. There were so many chances I didn't take because I was dwelling on the past or afraid of rejection/failure or just had my mind on other things that I didn't even take them.
There's been so many things around me that I never even thought to look for until a year ago. There's been so many relationships and connections I let die because I was holding onto dead ones or just let time slip past me.
Moral of the story: Don't be me.
There's really a lot of beautiful shit out there if you give yourself the chance to experience them.
You do just enough of the boring shit you have to and SEARCH for the good.How do you defeat nihilism
When you're falling 100mph through the air, or you see a really beautiful cemetary on a windy day... I don't care how much of an emo faggot you are or how little serotonin you have or how much you spiritually die at your day job, you will feel alive in those moments.
If you have a car or a means of transportation, you can find things to do that will make you see some beauty in the world.
This might sound like a joke, but the thing that's always helped me is giving myself one thing at a time to stay alive for.
There were times where the only thing that made me really want to keep going was "Oh, I really want to finish this show. I guess I'll put it off another week."
It sounds stupid to some, but sometimes small things are all you really have.
If your job(s) is requiring you to think like a sociopathic dark triad 5D chessplaying semite instead of being a code monkey like you're supposed, it might be time to switch careers. Or at least jobs.
I don't know how much of the office politics you need to play but unless you're trying to climb to the top I would assume you can just engage enough that you're left alone.
Remind me never to go into tech/medical. I swear to god in the next ten years everyone's going to refuge enmass to the trades or freelance work. I can see Dishwashing being a dream career path with the faggotry on display in certain fields.
I'm not trying to sound bi-polar or say "Yeah, man life is really awesome all the time and there's nothing to worry about. Just vibe to the gay shit and everything will be poggers."
No, I'm still pretty fucking miserable.
But I know now that I didn't have to be miserable for all of that time. Some stuff was outside of my control, but there was a lot more within my grasp than I thought. I'm sure I'll feel like sticking a gun in my mouth again soon. But I still have a couple of things in the future to keep me alive.
But yeah, going to double post like a faggot.
TL;DR:
Don't be me. Don't be some guy who's so stuck in your head that you let life get away from you. Don't think your life has to mimc some Smiths' song you like or has to have the weight and verbosity of an old depressing Russian novel.
Don't be a nigger is all I'm saying.
Even if your job sucks and you hear something on the news about how a troon is going to play Iron Man, don't let it all ruin your day. Find cool shit out there. Keep in contact with your parents.
If you've got a couple of friends, live in an city or town with things to do, and have a family that doesn't completely hate you, than you're doing better than most.
Plenty of the greatest people ever were at odds with the customs and morals of their times and suffered greatly as a result. That doesn't mean you're going to write the next great novel, but you don't have to feel like it's this huge thing that's never happened before when you're dismayed at the state of humanity. It's been this way 500 years before now, and it will be this way 500 years from now.
That's not me saying "Everything's Actually Awesome!"
Things are bad. But the way I see it is we've got two options now.
Start rebelling against the way things are and deal with the consequences.
Try to carve a small bit of comfort for yourself and let the world rage around you.
Anything else at a certain point is pure niggery and I can't engage in it anymore. So in the future, I'm going to try a combination of both. I'm going to make fiction that challenges the times and stand my ground at whatever job I have, but I'm also going to do cool shit while I'm able to and try to meet like-minded people.
Just don't fall in this trap that you can't ever succeed and that everyone's out to get you and there's no hope so you'll just waste your life away. That's how niggers and troons think.
Don't be a nigger or a troon.
EDIT: It's a good thing I got that all out before the inevitable "I want to fucking die" starts coming back full force.