Hey guys, how has everyone been?

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I managed to sign up for the classes I need for the upcoming college semester. Aside from that, I gave two dollars to a homeless guy who needed some money get to food at the fast food joint I had breakfast at earlier.
 
I just cleaned up some more disk space on my computer and installed NoScript for Firefox, which really seems to be making my computer faster, as in "loading more than one page per minute". It's been like that for a week. Ugh. At least it's better now.
 
I'm literally at my wits end. The last month has been absolute hell due to my landlord, the agency, and the council.

Last month a water pipe from upstairs broke and it's been spewing shit everywhere. Around this time dickheads upstairs also decided to leave their rubbish in front of my flat (permamently, instead of taking it to the roadside for bin day). We complained when this happened, the landlord didn't do shit. Couple weeks later he tells us he's sent people round, bullshit.

I ring the council to make a complaint, they don't get back to me. I ring the agency to complain, they fuck me about.

DICKHEAD NEIGHBOURS UPSTAIRS MAKE A COMPLAINT AND ITS DEALT WITH IN UNDER 24 HOURS BY THE LANDLORD. AND IVE JUST BEEN FINED BY THE AGENCY FOR *UPSTAIRS'S* RUBBISH PILED IN THE FRONT GARDEN. JUST BECAUSE THEYRE DUMPING IT OUTSIDE OF MY FLAT DOESNT MEAN ITS MY FUCKING RUBBISH.

I'm so FUCKING ANGRY with this place but there's nothing I can fucking do about it. I need to move out but I fucking can't.
 
Tried a few times to resubmit a project for a better grade. Computer froze every time. Checked my updates for the class and there was nothing. Constant freezing was making me angry so I stepped away for a while to do a few errands (which takes a while to do on a sprained ankle and a bicycle). Came back to see the final exam in my updates and I'm just a few minutes to late to finish it.
Got a letter from my college a few days ago saying I owed them a grand (mostly for the summer class). But when I went online to pay it says I owe them seven grand.
So, all in all I had a great day.
 
I've been so sore. It's winter here and the cold fronts keep on coming. I had a few surgeries in my leg in 2012 and 2014 and I still have 2 metal plates in my leg so the cold makes it achy as fuck. I'm so tired of being in pain *sigh*
 
I had to take my cat Fluffy to the vet this morning due to health complications. She's old, almost 15 years old now, and they said that things are touchy and gave me some meds for her that will hopefully put her right on track. Unfortunately, the bill is costly and I'm scrapping the bottom of my money, but I'm going to do all I can for her. I've had her her entire life and she means the world to me.
 
Had a pretty good time today. I was at the air show with the gf and damn I was impressed. I was disappointed though because we go there in the morning but the Royal Marines weren't doing the beach landing until quater past five. Best part was two lynx helicopters performing a mock attack against a passing cruise ship (no weapons were fired).
 
Last two weeks have been kinda crazy, busy as shit on Mon, Tue and Wed, then dead as door nails the last 3 nights before my day off. (Happened last week too, oh well.) I'm 4 days away from my vacation, but the only plans I've got is just staying home and hanging out with friends/family. On the other hand, one of my co-workers was rather bitchy about my having the day off on Sundays, even tho it's my only day off. Couldn't respond to her cause I was tied up with tickets, so I'm hoping she was joking cause we're friend-ish and I know I'd lash back at her. :/
 
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"From now on, my name is big baby jesus."
 
Teddy said:
Just saw Minions with my younger sister. Freaking horrible. Had to listen brats complaining about their snacks, asking stupid questions and people laughing at horrible jokes.

I'm never watching a kids movie again.
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Had that issue with Inside Out. Kid behind me was clearly an exceptional individual, and made comments every minute. He was only encouraged by family.
 
The surprise Mr. Multiples pumped up to me a couple weeks ago finally made its journey to his domicile and he had me over yesterday to open it up.

It's a motherfucking Woolly Yoshi amiibo! Completely out of left field and especially great because I kinda wrote off ever finding one. He imported it from Japan and left me guessing at what it could be.

No matter what he's always thought of some of the most amazing surprises that were always really thoughtful. It was a great cap to a fucking fantastic weekend spent with friends.
 
Things have been kind of weird. In the pasr month, I had to take a job in retail in order to pay my bills while I look for something in my field, moved about sixty miles away, went without an Internet connection for weeks, and now I am dealing with a lot of complex family stuff. To be honest, if someone had told me three months ago that this is what my life would look like right now, I'm not sure that I would have believed it. Things could definitely be worse, though, and, all things considered, I think I'm keeping it together pretty well.
 
I dunno if this belongs here, the drunk/high thread, the "how are you doing thread" or an another forum altogether. But if I post it on another forum that I do whenever I'm high and in the mood for power leveling/trolling, I end up getting pissed off because I know they'll give me the same answers that you can expect from the SJW set.

Yes I am both drunk, high and blasting Guns N' Roses I'm a Human Being on repeat. But I'm posting it here because even lolcow fans need safe spaces and despite what the SJWs and lolcows think of us, we have feelings too and this is perhaps the closest thing to a safe space we have.

I'm supposed to be trying to write my one paragraph goal for tonight in my write up of my trip to DC and subsequent side-trip to C-Ville for OPL's hearing. Instead, here I am, high and drunk and with a belly full of Jamaican food, wondering why, after more than a year of finally getting over Her, I'm thinking again about Her rejection from a new angle. I'm also thinking about how I feel like no matter how drunk I get, I'll never be able to get over the barrier of social awkwardness and anxiety and talk to people I want (at least not without over-analyzing it anyway). I think about all the dating horror stories and how it all just seems like a huge waste of time when you look at it and wonder if I should even bother, despite not having even really started either (just the thought of setting up an OKC or PoF profile and putting all the work into it, only to face the same 0.01% "success" rate (success being defined solely as "they swiped right on my profile) I had on Tinder scares the shit out of me). I think about how after reading the latest featured thread on the LessWrong autists and Roko's Basilisk, I wouldn't mind at all sometimes if they were actually right and some AI popped up one day and decided "fuck humanity, they can't do anything right, Imma kill 'em all or torture their avatars".

I thought I was over Her for a long time now. The one whom at the moment was the driving force behind my desire to leave L-S.com behind and start making a life for myself. Now I wonder if all I've accomplished until now was either out of some sincere desire on my part to stop being a loser or did I do it all for a girl? On top of that, after reading about a rejection story similar to mine on a FB group, I wonder if She told me that she wasn't ready for a relationship was really because she didn't feel ready for a relationship at all or she just didn't want a relationship With Me and that was her way of trying to let me down easy and with as less damage to my inexperienced and easily hurt romantic feelings, as possible. The fact that She ended up going out with her long-time crush soon afterwards points towards the latter. I understand now, that indeed maybe we just weren't meant to be and that our initial attraction was perhaps pretty unhealthy. But now, in my state of OG Kush induced introspection, I wonder if it was a good thing She let me down the way She did or not.

Speaking of being high, tonight I went to a Jamaican Independence Day party. It was good and all, and after being sufficiently imbibed, I managed to talk to some coworkers. Yet I feel like I failed in making sufficient small-talk and with the people I would of have liked to have approached and talked to. I went in with a "I just want to eat Jerk chicken and curried goat and have a few drinks" attitude and even so I felt like I failed at something. I feel like I can't even make friends, let alone find something to talk about with relative strangers.

I wonder if my perpetual procrastination to finally start a serious attempt at dating (or at least the social cowards way of dating sites) is due to my fear of being rejected and ignored even online. On top of that, reading about all the horror stories from both men and women (women getting hit on in the most obvious and crude ways and getting inboxes full of dick pics from strangers, while guys, for the most part tend to get ignored or not taken seriously because of the aforementioned dudes) I wonder if it's worth the hassle. My anxiety and fear of being labeled a creep keep me from even simple and innocent flirting such as telling a girl that she looks beautiful.

And it all comes down to feeling frustrated with myself and humanity. Yeah, it's totally on me that I feel like this. But shit, how the hell did human civilization get to the point where some people end up getting shafted by others (from simple bullying to being conquered by invaders) and somehow it's the victims fault for failing to reach a societal standard and conform to it. I'm not on the spectrum and yet, I still fail to understand what it is that I'm doing wrong. Then people tell me how I always seem to be in a good mood and dancing or rocking out on my own. If people only knew that my good mood is me smiling to keep the sadness away and I randomly play air guitar or something because it's better than always letting your hands twitch or nervously shake your leg due to possible ADHD.

Anyway, I put more thought and effort into writing this drunken little rant, then on actually writing one measly paragraph into yet another writing project that I may never finish. How's that for ya?
 
I'm on the train home after the first day of the new semester.

It was amazing.
 
I recently got myself a new chromebook to replace the old one since the screen began to glitch and it was about time I needed a new one anyway.

The old chromebook will hopefully go to my cousin for them to use, though she might need to fix the screen on it. If that doesn't work, I will likely recycle it.
 
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