Hey guys, how has everyone been?

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Today was OK. I'm going back to school this summer and I had to take a test to get into my university's program. I passed it, but I didn't do as well as I would have liked. On top of that, I bought my wife jewelry for Valentine's Day, and then one of my daughters managed to twist it and snap it this morning. My wife is pretty crushed. I'll have to take it to the jeweler's and see if they can do anything.
 
Just had another bitch fest with my mom & sister about shit. Just about how I need to get my life together and etc.

Don't read if you don't want to hear a bunch of sperging.

My main actual problem is I need a place to live real soon for work purposes, but my mom always thinks she needs to approve of roommates and etc. She has all these ideas on things that people of our culture would have, and they think they are suggesting me otherwise from moving in with these people. Number 1, I also work with these people in the restaurant and have already known them for years. Number 2, I am 27 goddamn years old, why can't she accept that I can take care of myself? Sure, maybe I can't afford the $600 rent presently, but that'll change when I can work night shifts, which will happen when I live closer.

Of course, there are a whole lot of issues. But for the most part, my mom and sister just don't believe that I am alright, that I do function like a normal person outside the family house, that I leave that ferry every morning with smiling with an authentic smile, that I do have friends who I trust and likewise for them.

They always gotta worry about what I say too. I put up a diatribe on my Facebook about how they made me feel. I didn't mention anyone or anything specifically, just how I'm so sick of the world perceiving me as naive when I've lived in cities like Orlando, Florida by myself, riding down the dark 11PM streets on my bike. I truly know how to take care of myself. Of course, though, sister thinks I'm crying for attention or some other shit and they tell me to delete it.

You probably think I'm crying for attention right now anyway, but thats not true, I just need to freaking get it off my chest, thats all.

Tomorrow is another day though, and my friend will get back at me with the details.
 
still sick (if I get over one sickness, I get hit with another), feel like crap, never feel like I've slept even when I have, I keep forgetting everything and I have a million zillion things to do, and I've just been in a downer phase and feeling extremely lonely and wishing I appreciated things in the past that I took for granted and never thought they'd go away. The thing about when I get hit by the loneliness truck is, even if I had a busy, social day it can strike, and even if I've been a shut-in for extended periods it might not even show up.

I just wish I had someone to talk to about enjoyable things and just have fun.

tfw no pf

well, now I have to go quit forgetting things now and take care of stuff.
 
Heart level currently at 100% because for the two essay's I wrote I received all points, which my grade desperately needed.
 
Feeling a little better because I got a job interview scheduled for next week. The job is related to the shale industry which is said to be in the early stages of a boom period in my area. So here's hoping.

Even though it's only been a few months (during the Fall) since I last worked, my trying to find a job has been the source of much (:_( and |:( in my life. So even just an interview at this point is a very big deal for me.
 
^ yup i'm right there with you. That temp job I just finished? that was the first job I've had in 2 years.

I went to visit someone who I consider my mentor and he pretty much said he didn't have time for me today. I'm still really mad at myself for going all the way over there. I feel stupid.
 
Today I chose to walk home after getting off the bus from college. Had a rather good walk/run. Some music really did help.
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Other than that, I enjoyed a tasty carne asada burrito for lunch and I had a cramp in my left leg a few minutes after waking up from a nap. Guess I should of stretched after getting off the buss.
 
So today my sister tried to kill herself. I just walked into her house and found her. I the police and had her committed to a mental hospital and it was the most horrible ugly place filled with terrifying people and I'm just sitting here crying my eyes out, sobbing, because my beautiful fucked up sister is in there and I'm the one who put her there.
 
littlebiscuits said:
So today my sister tried to kill herself. I just walked into her house and found her. I the police and had her committed to a mental hospital and it was the most horrible ugly place filled with terrifying people and I'm just sitting here crying my eyes out, sobbing, because my beautiful fucked up sister is in there and I'm the one who put her there.
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It's much more better than her trying to harm herself again.
On the much brighter side, she will get treatment for her issues.
 
The alternative was to let her succumb to her own devices, but chances are that she wanted you to intervene. You not only did the most practical moral right, you did something she probably personally wanted.

I can't say things will be alright, but I'm pretty sure you've made them better than they would have been on their own.
 
I just feel so bad for her. She's so messed up and she was screaming in the most horrible way, she was strapped to a bed in a straight jacket, just screaming. I will never be able to forget that.

Edit: I don't even know anymore. Worst day ever. The policemen were nice though, they made her laugh a bit.

Edit: She's going to hate me forever. im so sad.
 
littlebiscuits said:
I just feel so bad for her. She's so messed up and she was screaming in the most horrible way, she was strapped to a bed in a straight jacket, just screaming. I will never be able to forget that.

Edit: I don't even know anymore. Worst day ever. The policemen were nice though, they made her laugh a bit.
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I really don't know what to say other then sorry. :heart-empty: Here's hoping she gets better.
 
I came into this thread with the intention of venting about my college woes, and here's littlebiscuits with something that makes my issues look absurdly trivial. I'm so sorry to hear that. That's a situation that nobody should be in, and my heart goes out to you and her.

Anyway, I'm applying for transfer to four year schools, and reading over my transcripts just reminds me of how fucking dismal my academic career used to be. Five straight semesters of me refusing to accept reality. I'm just hoping they look at last semester (a 3.2 term GPA) and maybe give me a chance despite my 2.19 cumulative GPA and the fact that I've spent five years out of high school just spinning my wheels. *SIGH*
 
Seahorses said:
littlebiscuits said:
Edit: She's going to hate me forever. im so sad.
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When she recovers she will see you had her best interests in mind.
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This. Right now, she's mentally in a very bad place. But if she comes to her senses and starts to get better, she'll be able to see things from your point of view and realize that what you did was the best thing to keep her alive.
 
Springblossom said:
I came into this thread with the intention of venting about my college woes, and here's littlebiscuits with something that makes my issues look absurdly trivial. I'm so sorry to hear that. That's a situation that nobody should be in, and my heart goes out to you and her.

Anyway, I'm applying for transfer to four year schools, and reading over my transcripts just reminds me of how fucking dismal my academic career used to be. Five straight semesters of me refusing to accept reality. I'm just hoping they look at last semester (a 3.2 term GPA) and maybe give me a chance despite my 2.19 cumulative GPA and the fact that I've spent five years out of high school just spinning my wheels. *SIGH*
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I'm going to attempt to give you drunken advice, I'm literally browsing the CWCKI with a bottle of wine while crying, but.....


don't even worry about grades, your going to be okay. I fucked around in high school and had terrible grades, but my college essay was so funny and weird (I wrote about a time when I farted in barns and noble) that a bunch of schools accepted me and most of them wrote back with letters specifically saying, "wow you're a huge dumbass. Want to go to Berkley?"

My sister taught me that you can't compare one person's problems to another. You just have to deal with what ever life gives you.
 
On a lighter note. Here's a retarded video that made me giggle like a five year old.
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littlebiscuits said:
I'm going to attempt to give you drunken advice, I'm literally browsing the CWCKI with a bottle of wine while crying, but.....
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I thought that was how we all did it?
 
Carlson said:
littlebiscuits said:
I'm going to attempt to give you drunken advice, I'm literally browsing the CWCKI with a bottle of wine while crying, but.....
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I thought that was how we all did it?
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