- Joined
- Jan 28, 2021
I've been there before man. Still kind of am now but things have been far better then a few years ago. I was doing the same thing day in and out with little social interaction. I just wanted to end the day on my computer playing vidja or watching Youtube. It never made me feel actually content and I know it's because I am just wasting away my life. But I always thought to myself, whats the point, I already wasted so much time already. And I was super fat lol, lmao even. Things got better when I just decided one day to use that Gym membership I had from a while back and actually start doing some weight training three times a week. This led into me eating healthier too and lost 80 pounds. You don't need to go to the gym especially if you already do it, but what helped me was to have a way to break up the week and give me something to overcome. That's what helped me change my mindset on things and lead me into a more fulfilling life. Because that mindset change allowed me to take up opportunities I otherwise would disregard and I wouldn't be wear I am now with out it. It took about a year to really get that ball rolling, but the journey never felt like a waste of time.I am stressed, misguided and disillusioned about the future and I don’t really enjoy the work I’m having to do until mid next year. I also live a pretty great life all things considered, though that mostly extends to material status (fresh water, delicious food, clean clothes, safe home, solid technology, etc). However where I exist now has me convinced that I would like to escape people as much as I possibly can and live a quiet isolated life with as much time to myself as possible. I don’t know how one does that though so I’m just kind of a ghost in my own life right now, which is becoming mentally grating, killing my focus and clarity about more immediate work.