Sometimes Giving up on Life Is All One Can Do
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7 months ago
I have been through too much in my life. I have always been bullied, stomped on, and used by others including my own family for financial gain. I was born with Autism Spectrum disorder and it would sometimes make me react in ways that are let's just say, not so appropriate and it requires explanations as to why the aggressors are acting their ways toward me for better understanding sometimes.
Being born with this disability others have seen me as gullible and weak including those who stand against me. Maybe they're right. Maybe as I see that is probably all I am. I am basically just the lower level of social status. I am the freak that everyone wants to avoid at recess or the one guy everyone uses in class for the answers to a test, the one forever-alone guy who can't keep a relationship no matter how hard he tries or how much effort he gives despite having this disability.
In this fandom, I thought I could find acceptance and happiness, a place to call home where I could've been loved for just being myself. I now see I was wrong all the way and the fandom is full of nothing but assholes who are here for their own personal entertainment.
I don't say this to garnish pitty or to harass anyone. This is how i have truly been feeling my entire 10 years in the fandom thus far. People wonder why the fandom looks bad online, the bullying towards autistic people is part of the issue. Everyone in the fandom is blind by the mere fantasy of it that they care less about others' feelings and focus sorely on their own fame, wealth and emotions.
At this point, I honestly feel there shouldn't be a furry fandom anymore. Not with the way things are and how they will end up in the future.
With everything going on i decided the time has come to just simply exist. I decided that after everything i have been through much less trying on my dreams at this point is just a mere fable. At this point being a dishwasher for the rest of my life seems the most promising. To be deeply real with you all I honestly would just rather be dead. Nothing i wanna do is ever gonna come to promise even if i were to try at this point. Let's face it, I'm not meant to be here. Someone else should have taken my place. I should not have existed. My life is completely meaningless! I have used cartoons to escape the pain long enough......It's time for final measures to be taken! goodbye and I wish everyone in the fandom the very best!
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Howdy!
Posted
7 months ago
So again it's been 2 years! A lot has happened! First I moved out of my mom's place and live in an apartment on my own and pay $2k/mo in rent! I am still working the same job mostly bc I'm trying to finish paying off things until my life as a writer and a radio broadcast owner take off for me! I currently own and operate
CARE-A-LOT Radio under my caresona
KAMITO BEAR and have been hard at work these past few years promoting, updating, and advertising these hobbies!
I am currently dealing with some drama-related issues with another furry dragon who for some reason has become quite toxic and unfriendly these past few years! All this over a disagreement we had and I stopped speaking about it after my videos got released on youtube putting my insight in on the problems! I apologized on my end, yes and I didn't expect him to forgive me nor do I want him to! He recently got banned from
Megaplex as I was informed by one of my followers and I will admit I had nothing to do with what happened nor do I even know anything in regards other than I want no part of the issues so I blocked him here on FA. He has also been sending "Scouts" (his followers and friends) after me through means of cyberstalking. Like I said the only reason I'm stepping away from it is that I got better things to do with my time than give some cry-baby drama queen my attention because he never got it from his mom or dad as a child and this going against a 27-year-old man from a 23-year-old.
Exactly my point!
I made the decision to deactivate my Twitter accounts and not do my videos on youtube anymore because of this obsessed furry stalker. I feel as of now I'm just gonna write my books and work on my station and just be myself! If you come across this journal my guy you have now been called on FA! you know who you are! You failed your radio station
FBN and I refuse to fail mine all because you wanna play the victim on Twitter and TikTok!
With all this off my chest, I'm glad to be back on FA! I missed you all my lovelies!
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Wow
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2 years ago
It has been 2 yrs but I'm back! Alot has happened. First I finished my time at alc and now have finished school. I went to my main school to get back in to commission but got sent away the first day to an adult ed. I got my GED now and am working on online bible college. I work as a dishwasher at a seafood grille and have been raised and promoted to a cook. We went through a hurricane and now the corona virus. I am still writing from time to time but have been very busy with other things. i also plan to get back into making music too like I did before. I should be able to get a lot done now that I'm laid off for the next 30 days.
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My Daily motion Channel
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3 years ago
Here Is My Channel! Please support me and sub to my channel!
https://www.dailymotion.com/rockythepup
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I am now published!
Posted
4 years ago
I sent my manuscript to a publishing agent and they accepted it! I am now a published furry Author! Thank you all who have been supporting me through out this hard time of my expulsion and it will be a priviledge to share this with you on my GFA page! You all have earned it for free! Enjoy!
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BEST NEWS EVER!!!!! 
Posted
5 years ago
I Just got in touch with the writer and creator of Kung Fu Dino Posse, Mr. Peter M. Lenkov about writing a novel on the show. He had got back to me on my twitter and announced to me that I have Permission to write a novel for his show! I am so EXCITED! I can't wait to get busy planning for that novel! I will be busy at it and make it into an excellent novel! I can't wait!
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Lokking for Cover Art for my next novels!
Posted
5 years ago
Hey guys it is your pal LaizyTail Here! I am looking for some cover Art for my Next Novel titled A Change for Tomorrow. It is a novel I am working on my self. It is based on Ratchet and Clank but it is not a fan work it is a work of my own I am producing! It is still in the works as of now and would like some cover art for the entire series that it holds titled the Veldin Saga. This series is a trilogy just like NeoShifters and I hope to have both of those done at the same time for you all to enjoy them! Please let me know if you are interested in volunteering to do some cover art with my books and as an exclusive your name will be listed as the illustrator of my novels. Thank you for reading this long journal and have a Pawsome Day!
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FurAffinity ID badge Creation open
Posted
5 years ago
I am planning on doing a free ID badge for you guys to celebrate my welcome to FA! Please share to anyone that is interested in these Digital ID Badges! All you have to do is send me a picture of your Fursona and the listed info!
Name (fursona)
FA Incriments/contact (optional)
DOB (Fursona)
User Title on your page
I can add Barcodes on them if you want them just let me know in the comments or via PM. Thank you and I hope you enjoy your ID Badges!
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Working on more Books!
Posted
5 years ago
Hello Guys! LaizyTail Here with an announcement! Just like in my Bio I will only be submitting my Books here for everyone to read and enjoy! I am Currently working on other books that will be on my Booksie account! I am working on a list of titles and series of books.
- The Veldin Saga
- Angel Dragon High School Series
- Team Canine Series
I am still working on the Neo Shifters Trilogy as we speak! I am working on finishing book 2 over Spring Break when I have the extra time. I don't have homework at my current school so I can also work on them then as well! Everything well at this school and yes I do miss my home school I just want to be mentally and emotionally ready when I return and I figured that all of the writing that I do would help with the terrible high School life that I had and may have to live. I didn't really like high school very much nor Middle school. Let's just hope that it all cools down and I will make writing a habit for myself as a hobby.
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