"I will not touch you at Anime North."
And so, I trusted him.
I think about this message a lot.
I expressed my concern to my mod Vanguard, who booked a 2-bed suite for my safety so I would have a bed for myself in case I felt uncomfortable again. We all hung out in this room for the majority of the weekend. Since Mangs missed his flight on Thursday, I stayed there. I slept in my room with Mangs Friday night, and everything went fine; we had fun, even. I remember us singing Heritors of Arcadia and sharing the progress of my PME. We slept a safe distance from each other on opposite sides of the king-sized bed.
Saturday morning, I was changing into my Nino cosplay while Mangs was in the bathroom. Mangs came in while I was changing without knocking or anything when he knew I was changing. He didn't see anything explicit, though. This could have been an accident and changing into an armored cosplay takes quite a bit of time, so I gave Mangs the benefit of the doubt.
Saturday night, I ended up falling asleep drunk in Vanguard's room again. Chaz asked Mangs to just let me sleep, but he woke me up anyway to take me back to his room. Concerned by his behavior, Chaz, Lucky Crit and Vanguard pulled me aside to talk to me in private while Mangs waited outside the room for me. I didn't have to go with Mangs, but I did. I felt guilty about refusing him. So, I went back with him, trusting that he would stick to his word and not touch me.
Sunday morning, I woke up being violated. I felt his dick pressed against my body. He was kissing my hair, rubbing my back and groaning. I remember this vividly.
Paralyzed in shock, I laid there in confusion. I pretended to wake up normally and took a shower. The rest of the con, I acted as if nothing happened.
Receipts of Mangs' various conflicting accounts of this event ranging from a sex dream, to a “misread”, to being half asleep, to just wanting to cuddle with a girl he’s attracted to.
https://i.imgur.com/lNNDfV8.png (Sex dream about someone else.)
https://i.imgur.com/kJVd6PW.png (Minimizing the event to touching my arm)
https://i.imgur.com/6vjmtnU.jpg (Half-asleep, and the “lesson” he has learned from all this)
https://i.imgur.com/mE86EkS.jpg (Not remembering the events and shifting partial blame onto me.)
https://i.imgur.com/r9NnNqE.jpg (Misreading me sleeping as an opportunity to cuddle. A “lapse of judgment” implies consciousness.)
It's difficult to understand what Mangs’ intentions were. He never seemed entirely honest from his side of things.