Anorexics, especially Eugenia Cooney, genuinely fascinate me. The way their mind works, where it allows them to ignore intense starvation-level hunger signals. I believe there was a study done that showed they have the same hunger hormones, ghrelin and leptin, that non-anorexics do; elevated because of their starving state. But they just ignore them:
Source:
https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0899900711001559
It fascinates me because I am the polar opposite. I'm one of those people that, starving during the
Holodomor in Soviet Ukraine, would have kidnapped and eaten children (this actually happened). When calorie-restricted, my brain shuts down any ability to feel pleasure except for food. It's very good at it. No video games, movies, sex, or anything pleasurable inspires me. It's a targeted depression. I fucking hate my body for that even though objectively it's a great survival mechanism.
I am assuming that Eugenia feels pleasure despite her body being in such a dire state. She seems to play games (badly) and really enjoy attention and comments on her body-checking. I really wonder what drives her and what the hell her goal is. What does she eat every day and how?
Seriously, what is the end-game here? She doesn't seem to be suicidal, just deeply deluded. Or maybe she does want to die. Maybe she wants to see how low the number on the scale can get and doesn't even think about the fact that she will die at a certain point during that goal.
People with Anorexia Nervosa have such an interesting brain, that also has to be wired towards that kind of destructive coping mechanism for it to be possible. Anorexics and Bulimics are known to come from different types of disordered family dynamics too.
Also what the fuck is up with her mom? What is her thought process? She's fat as fuck with a disabled blimp of a son and a daughter on the way to the grave. From all accounts she's an alcoholic. What the hell is her end-game? Encouraging the death of her daughter so she only has one mentally-disabled kid to deal with?
And where the hell is Eugenia's father? Does he not give a fuck about his fat fuck wife and his severely fucked up kids, which she seems to be enabling, or is he off with prostitutes all day? They clearly have money. What does he do? I mean tbh, if I had a morbidly obese, non-functioning autist for a son and an emaciated anorexic daughter, along with a gigantic alcoholic wife, I'd probably want to escape my failure as a father too.
Lastly: I'm very curious what causes men to have a fetish for starving women. I stumbled across a porn site that was full of incredibly thin, clearly starving Eastern European women showing off their bones. Is it them wanting a "small and fragile" woman to make them feel more manly and powerful?
Sidenote: Her brother looks like a morbidly obese James Rallison (TheOdd1sOut) from Youtube.
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