bbin
kiwifarms.net
- Joined
- Oct 17, 2020
Ran across this series of clips on Youtube from a recent stream. Her chat seems a bit more confrontational these days at least.
Follow along with the video below to see how to install our site as a web app on your home screen.
Note: This feature may not be available in some browsers.
What's strange is her earlier videos didn't give off that vibe at all. It's like the older she gets, the younger she acts.Eugenia wants to stay home with mommy and remain a eternal little girl playing in her bedroom.
Being an adult is quite rewarding and liberating if you can manage hitting all those "growing up" milestones.
But instead they choose to be an emaciated prisoner in their childhood home (the literal origination of your suffering). And for what?
Now obviously this isn’t the case with all ED women, but Peter Pan Syndrome is common enough in the ED population.
Eugenia could have easily become independent and self-supporting even before 18 thanks to her YT channel but that was the last thing she wanted. Eugenia wants to stay home with mommy and remain a eternal little girl playing in her bedroom.
What's strange is her earlier videos didn't give off that vibe at all. It's like the older she gets, the younger she acts.
Honestly, I think she was just a different sort of immature in her old videos- like a preteen trying to come off as an edgy college girl. Which makes sense, given how sheltered her life with her narc mom was and being homeschool to boot. I think she was craving being independent, away from her home environment and being admired/accepted by her peers.
Now she’s on the other side: an adult woman trying to come off as a preteen, still with the goal of being admired/ accepted, but where has her urge to be independent gone to? She really regressed on that. She’s scared of having to face a different, unknown pattern of living as an adult, because this current situation is all she’s ever known. It’s almost like she has Stockholm syndrome with her eating disorder, home environment and family dynamics. She must be a deeply anxious, avoidant person. Her ingrained behaviors, failure to thrive, emotional stunting and low self-esteem all reflect that.
Anyways, I feel the long term change is that she’s no longer seeking any form of independence, more so than a change in (im)maturity. That’s the backslide in my opinion. At least before she had a small social circle, was attending events, seemed to go out a bit more, had more than bodychecking as an interest, was thinking about acting, etc. Granted it was rather minimal but at least it was there. Small boundaries and spaces where her situation was disturbed from the status quo were essential to her mental health and she’s eroded all of them away over the years for the sake of control.
She’s devolved into a complete shut-in and she’s at an all time high now on dependency, unhealthy coping methods, self-obsession and depression. She’s cut herself off completely from any potential disturbance, and that’s a pretty deep grave to dig yourself when you’re in Eugenia’s state of mind. How do you change when you’ve manufactured and manipulated your environment to be as bubble-like as possible? She really needs to be removed and placed in residency to make any headway.
This kind of response makes it even more clear that she doesn't need youtube or twitch to live because even if she doesn't belive that Jeffey is guilty she would try to be the "good one" for the views and all that stuffEC’s hot take on J* is full of projection & has twitter and her subreddit kicking up a storm. Wonder if we’ll have another round of YouTube drama videos on her response- but I guess to Eugenia, any attention is good attention?
https://youtube.com/watch?v=SnB5WriDlQQ
Here’s a backup of her UwU'ing: https://streamable.com/q5titx
Eugenia isn't looking for proof. Even if there was DNA evidence she wouldn’t care for proof. She wants to remain ignorant so she can enable Shane while using Jefree’s pallets with a free conscience. She wants to keep posting her thinspo and pretending she has close relationships with people who couldn't care less if she died. She wants to leech money out of gullible fans while ignoring the looming reality her illness has plunged her into. Anything in her world that is not overwhelmingly positive, anything that remotely resembles reality is considered bad juju. Proof doesn't matter. All that matters to her is what benefits her and only her.I mean, what proof does she want of sexual assault? I know that not believing victims is kind of a default for a lot of people but usually publicly facing people know better to let on that they don't believe victims when they come forward, especially if there are several.
This all just reminds me of the early 2000's 'it's not an illness it's a lifestyle, MOM". she really is stuck in that era, huh?
For a thorough understanding of Eugenia's mindset and the bubble she surrounds herself with, her twitter likes provide a lot of insight. The first comment is a reply to her own tweet defending herself for saying there was no proof that J* was a preadator who paid off people who came forward with allegations