She was standing in the doorway of my room and I was trying to get out of my room to get some space because she wouldn't leave me alone. She was yelling at me, screaming at me. I asked her to move like 50 times, she wouldn't do it, so I tried to move past her. She pushed back and lost her balance and fell on top of me. I do have a dog bed in my room, that wasn't where we were standing. I have my laundry pile. Normally it's in a basket, but sometimes the basket is downstairs by the laundry so it's just some clothes next to my dresser. But she didn't trip over anything. She straight up lost her balance when she was pushing me to keep me into the room. I was like, my adrenaline was rushing at that point. I was freaking out. Then I got up and was like freaking out. She came over and she was trying to say, first she said she was so sorry and I said I needed to leave. She grabbed my arm and she was like, "No you're not!!!" and squeezed the shit out of my arm with her nails. Right before she squeezed the shit out of me, she had pushed me to the ground, I got up, and I was like sobbing because it's a huge trigger for me with what happened with Megan. It's like being contained and not being able to freely leave. I told her, "You know that that is such a huge trigger for me. How could you do that?" and that's when she made the comment that she can see why Megan did what she did because she can see how I pushed her to the edge just like what I was doing with her.
Literally in the middle of the night, I have woken up and asked her to turn down her brightness on her laptop and turn off the sound because I had to work the next day. She took her phone flashlight and shined it in my face. I was pissed. I was like "What are you doing? I have to get up to work!" and it all escalated from there. Because I was upset about it, it made her upset. The whole, "How can you treat me like this?" When she was upset and I didn't want to calm her down, I'm like, "You're upset when I was upset, I'm not going to sit here and calm you down. Just leave me alone, please." That's how it always went down.
Sorry if I was all over the place with the timeline, but obviously you get the gist of it. For her to say that I triggered Megan into doing that like I trigger her [Amber] into doing that, using that against me, and then I was like, "How fucking could you?? You need to fucking leave like permanently." And that's when she grabbed my arm and squeezed the fuck out of it.
Eventually after that, I left out the back door because she followed me downstairs. I was getting my shoes on, she sat in front of the front door, I went out the back door, I closed it, she was right behind me. She claims I left the door open or whatever, that was one of her many stories of the Rarity situation. The whole night was just awful. And I had to go work. I didn't sleep the entire night, then I had to go to work for a 12 hour shift. And I came home and the cat was missing. So I spent all night looking for the cat. She didn't do anything to help with the cat, she didn't even go outside with me for the initial search. I searched the house, she didn't even do that. She sat on the couch.
When she says how awful I was to her, it was always when she would do things like get mad at me for going outside and smoking. She'd ask to come with and I'd say, "No, I want some alone time." She did not like that. Or she would say, "You've been out there for 17 minutes now, what are you doing?" I would get upset about it and that would make her upset. I'm like, "You need to give me space." and she just wouldn't. I was like, "I can't handle this anymore, Amberlynn, I'm going to go crazy. I'm exhausted, I'm burnt out. I need time for myself when I'm working a shift where I'm so busy I don't even get to have a break more than 3 minutes to pee." When I'd get upset about that, she'd get upset and expect me to calm her down. It was always that I didn't care about her feelings, I was stonewalling her, I was cold, insensitive, I didn't care about her, I didn't love her, I'm the worst girlfriend, how could I treat her like this? That was like a daily thing to the point that it was getting to be like multiple times a day she would get mad at me. Then it was getting to the point where she had no periods of time when she wasn't mad at me. It just got worse and worse and worse and worse. So I hope that answers your question. Let me know if you have any other questions.
