Amber will never find a happy, long term partner and I think it boils down to one simple reason. Self obsession. Without being hyperbolic, Amber is the most self obsessed human I have ever seen, heard about, learned about or known.
- She wakes in the morning (or afternoon….God knows). She immediately checks all social media for references to herself. She watches other’s videos on herself. She may abuse one or other system to remove any criticism, of herself.
- Food. For herself
- She journals three times about herself. Once on the phone. Once copying the phone into the journal. Once reading it back at a later date.
- Oh, the many, many journals. She must be writing down every single little thought she’s ever had. She finds herself so interesting that these minute details must be forever immortalised on paper. Twice, in the Cloud. You know she’s saved it in the Cloud.
- She thinks about herself and plans what to film.
- She films, talking about herself.
- Food. For herself.
- Maybe she does an errand or an appointment, for herself. Getting lifts from whomever can be persuaded to drive her fat self.
- Food. For herself.
- She lies in bed (“I need to fix my sleeping schedule, guise!”) thinking about her own self until she falls asleep.
- If she ever inquires after another person, their feelings or their health…it’s because she’s worried they may not be able to assist her in the way she wants. Any thought she extends to another is in aid of manipulation and insurance of return. Transactional.
Every so often she’ll give away the HUGE extent of her self obsession with weird little comments that show just how much SHE occupies her own thoughts 100% of the time, like
My lips just feel really soft today.
My nose itches when I eat crab. I’m so special.
Her mind was occupied with lesbian porn whilst her girlfriend was picking out her mother’s gravestone.
The self indulgent way ‘her mentulz’ occupy every moment of her waking thoughts and actions. Sometimes people have to do things when they’re a bit sad, or feeling a bit lazy.
And those are just her more endearing qualities. I’ve left out the actual unpleasant features of this person.
Narcissist, who? Where?
No sane, semi-normal individual is going to be able to put up with all this for very long in a committed relationship. Narcissists can make themselves appear to be, and often actually are, quite charismatic. And there’s the love-bombing and the gifts. But long term, they end up alone with only their favourite person for company…..themselves.
It’s hilarious to me that Amber genuinely seems to think she’s an empathetic person. And that she’s kind. Amber, if you see this, you are the person who thinks you’re doing something nice for your viewers by opening their gifts TO YOU in your videos. Perhaps consider a giveaway? In 10 years, no giveaway. Most bigger YouTubers do do the odd giveaway. You, however, act like a child at Christmas, opening their presents to you on air. Grow up and think about someone else for a change.
