I think Jade had a degree and seemed pretty smart beyond dating Amber; at least smart enough to want to stay off the internet more publicly. She was also smart enough to leave once realizing Amber really didn’t want to lose the weight, and it wasn’t because she didn’t have enough support in her life. Still baffling she stayed as long as she did, but I tuned out for most of that era because BORING.
Krystle is legit retarded.
Destiny is just a lesbian fuckboy.
Beck us just an idiot with low self esteem and depression.
The phone flings dont count.
Jade is a lesbian fuckboy with a fetish for big mobile struggling gorls with ddlg/bdsm elements if ambers telling some truth.
And emily is a lesbian fuckboy with the other side of where jade is on the fat gorl fetish spectrum and is a death feeder.
Ambers type of partner she seems to prefer is a stupid lesbian fuckboy with weird niche fetishes that make amber feel the most special in the whole world and dumb enough to stay with her and be manipulated and abused.
The best all around partner was jade.
Best manipulated partner was beck.
My bet is that Emily is a lot different than most of Amber’s previous supplies; she has a job (allegedly), she has a child, and she has a fetish. I wonder if there were photos of her dead partner there, signs of her talking to other lesbians, who knows what, but I think it enraged Amber that she couldn’t isolate and captivate Emily all for herself to do her bidding. The feeder/feedee thing is a totally different dynamic than the previous relationships she’s had and it caught her off guard.
100% amber didnt want their dynamic to be solely transactional. She couldn't stand being emilys second fat forever princess as it was, sharing emily with people amber views as beneath her is never gonna fly.
A feeder/feedee relationship seems to me, from the outside, that it’s about gaining control over a person and fetishising being needed and the person being immobile; feeding a person to the point of disability and death. Amber tried her same old manipulative shit to gain control and it didn’t work because that’s not how that dynamic works and she got enraged and went off the deep end with the heavier manipulation tactics that worked previously.
I don’t know, I’m just spitballing as I don’t have any real exposure to that dynamic. Maybe Emily’s real kink is also making fat women be enamored and desperate for how she makes them feel, and then cutting them off if they either don’t eat enough or go crazy.
From what I understand this is pretty correct but different things can vary for different people since its kink. Emily gives me fake dom impressions so im pretty sure not being concerned about them while getting off to the idea of her girls being desperate and helpless is pretty par for the course.
Amber has always been that weird normie who bumps into kink when she thinks its gonna get her something. Gotta get those quirky gorl social points. Shes fucked up the dynamic she had with jade and im betting she was enjoying the idea not the practice of the sub pillow princess lesbian ddlg thing she had going on because that takes actual work and amber thinks its just her sitting on her ass and getting everything she wants while coloring in her coloring book.
Emily being a feeder, Im assuming amber liked the idea of being with a "feeder" because its the word feed and she probably thought it was only someone who feeds you. Like she was gonna have emily feeding her snacks and waving a giant feathered fan like some Egyptian Pharoah type shit and they would be perfect for eachother and everything would be ok and they would live happily ever after.
Not amber being the on site sex piggy in a basement in some bum fuck part of the world that is neither California or bora bora. Amber thinks she deserves more than that.
I also think there is a bit of desperation and narc injury going on with her as she gets towards middle age and people are maturing and she’s not. With Emily, she now has her eyes opened to the fact that she’s not special. There are plenty of other deathfats willing to date a woman and get attention in America.
Amber really seeing the swaths of fat rolls at emilys disposal was earth shattering to her and since she doesnt have anyone to attack thats (imho) why shes started freaking out on her aunt and doing all this. Her narc injury is so bad shes destroying other shit like a toddler having a melt down in order to regulate.
