- Joined
- May 5, 2020
I wouldn't say he's confident. If he was, he wouldn't bother addressing shit at all. He even mentioned in his rant that we've taken note of him being silent, and I mean dead silent, about certain things, showing that he reads this place enough to remember that. Except he fucked up and glossed over the fact that Champions isn't one of those things he refuses to address. Never has been. He has bitched about getting caught more times than he has whined about Returnal. Even made the mistake of giving us more evidence by saying that he had to explain microtransactions to Nancy, which there's only one reason why he would have to.
What he doesn't address is him doing things out of spite over Leanna. What he doesn't talk about are his obvious problems with his teeth. What he doesn't mention about his hair is that he's dying it. What he doesn't discuss is why his webcam is garbage. What he doesn't go into are memories of doing things with the cousin he apparently grew up with. THOSE are the things Phil is actually tight-lipped about, and it's those things that bother him, even more than Champions being public knowledge.
And at this point, I'm not sure Phil is upset about that so much as he is feeling the pressure of the inquiries and the persistence of our discussion of it here, especially with the LINE account tying him to his Champions account. Why else even bring it up? It was to try to debunk it by playing dumb and acting like what we say doesn't add up, by completely miss-stating what we say. He knows he's caught, but he has to delve into it anyway because he fears what will happen if he doesn't at least attempt to make himself look innocent by trying to make us look incompetent.
He shows this in every game, really, it just happens to be more pronounced with roguelikes because in that genre, the effect is deliberate, and in others, it's happening only because it's Phil playing them.
His problem has always been that he doesn't desire knowledge, he desires a dopamine hit. He doesn't feel good unless he has cleared a level/beaten a boss, especially the more time he sinks into doing so. Plenty of other gamers are like this, yes, but most of them aren't so tantrum prone over it, and even when they are, they're still generally way more competent than Phil, so it doesn't surface nearly as often.
This is why he has managed to stay a scrub at fighting games despite playing them most of his life. He plays to win, like a try-hard does, except he doesn't value the training necessary to be the winner he wants to be. He doesn't learn, he doesn't adapt, he doesn't lab things out, because he doesn't want any of that. He wants to just win, and if it means beating up on noobs, then so be it. The dopamine hit is more important than the image he gives himself by picking on neandarthals. Then he loses to a real player, and handles it poorly because his ego doesn't care that he hasn't worked hard enough to be legit. He lost, and therefore the whole world is bullshit.
