Timothy Nathan Shortnacy / Devi Ever / Amber Coal / Grace Lynn / Pixelgoth / LittleMouseVR - Scammer and flip-flopper who can't commit to a career and drove Chloe Sagal to suicide.

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Devi Ever said:
Honestly, I think there's something a little "unwell" about anyone who spends a shit ton of time on a forum or social networking site, regardless of the thing you are obsessing over. This kind of shit is escapism, and I mean hell, the only reason I'm hear engaging ya'll is I needed a break from a lot of drama in my life recently and I figured this might be cathartic, especially since it seemed actual conversation was taking place here rather than just the emotional barking that happens on twitter or 8chan.

I don't mean to be a dick, but I've spent a great deal of the past decade fixated on forums, hemming and hawing over bullshit and it's always been escapism or distraction to a fault. at least in my own life... but I mean, I guess if this is what ya'll do to unwind, it's no worse or better than a video game. I guess it honestly just eeks me out a bit when it comes to others obsessing over those who everyone here seems to agree it not mentally well. It's like... the lowest hanging fruit, ya know?
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Kiwi Farms is pretty much made up of the second-lowest hanging fruit, so we don't have many options when it comes to comparing ourselves to others to feel better about how our lives turned out. You've given an amazingly accurate description of us, by the way, even if you're giving us a little too much benefit-of-the-doubt.
 
BrokenEntity said:
As you said, if you're rewarded for self-victimization, you'll never learn how to help yourself.

On the subject of Contruct 2, I've heard that it's a good engine. Taking a peek at it one time, I saw that what they said was pretty accurate. I only stick to GM:S because my past with coding is mostly related to C++. Of course, GM:S is a bit more monotonous with game development because while you've got the positives to using a C++ based coding engine, you end up with all of the negatives as well. Plus exporting to HTML5 to make webgames costs $200.00 dollars to get the exporter. So that sucks a bit.
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I'm incredibly excited to see where all these professional victims end up in 20 years. I mean, you have people like Anita, Brianna, Zoe, and Harper who have really gotten the game down pat, but then you have amateurs who are really just flailing in the wind like Gallant and a bunch of other indie devs who HAVE to shape up eventually, right? Same with a lot of trans folk who are in their early 20's, just starting transition, hoping for a hand out. I mean, I'm one of the longest transitioning people I know (have been working hard on my transition since the late 90's) and it took me this long to get where I am... where are the going to be when 10 years has gotten behind them and no one ever gave them that free ride they thought they deserved and age has caught up with them leaving them even more masculine than before?

That's a thing a lot of these babby trans folk don't understand. When they hit their 40's, their youth that keeps them fem / androgynous will fade and they're gonna look masculine again and probably be dealing with even more BS than they are dealing with now. :/ I mean, I know it's not their job to have to bow to culture being awful in regards to gender, but that's the world we live in and you have to live within those confines or you're gonna get screwed... it's not fair, but it is the reality.

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On to gamedev, f I knew more about programming, I'd probably just skip game making programs tbh. Then again, one of the incredible things about working with C2 is just how incredible easy it is to export to every platform, including the Wii U! Which, once again, is great if you don't mind the limitations of C2, but sometimes I see what people do with thousands of particles and raycasting and I get incredibly frustrated with how inefficient C2 gets handling too many things on screen... but then again C3 is supposed to be a big improvement, so I'm excited for that.

If you haven't given C2 a go, I'd highly recommend checking it out. Might be worth it just to have another tool in your kit.

autisticdragonkin said:
@Devi Ever is this your company https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Devi_ever_:_fx
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Yup. The edits on that page are hilarious.
 
Devi Ever said:
I'm incredibly excited to see where all these professional victims end up in 20 years. I mean, you have people like Anita, Brianna, Zoe, and Harper who have really gotten the game down pat, but then you have amateurs who are really just flailing in the wind like Gallant and a bunch of other indie devs who HAVE to shape up eventually, right? Same with a lot of trans folk who are in their early 20's, just starting transition, hoping for a hand out. I mean, I'm one of the longest transitioning people I know (have been working hard on my transition since the late 90's) and it took me this long to get where I am... where are the going to be when 10 years has gotten behind them and no one ever gave them that free ride they thought they deserved and age has caught up with them leaving them even more masculine than before?

That's a thing a lot of these babby trans folk don't understand. When they hit their 40's, their youth that keeps them fem / androgynous will fade and they're gonna look masculine again and probably be dealing with even more BS than they are dealing with now. :/ I mean, I know it's not their job to have to bow to culture being awful in regards to gender, but that's the world we live in and you have to live within those confines or you're gonna get screwed... it's not fair, but it is the reality.

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On to gamedev, f I knew more about programming, I'd probably just skip game making programs tbh. Then again, one of the incredible things about working with C2 is just how incredible easy it is to export to every platform, including the Wii U! Which, once again, is great if you don't mind the limitations of C2, but sometimes I see what people do with thousands of particles and raycasting and I get incredibly frustrated with how inefficient C2 gets handling too many things on screen... but then again C3 is supposed to be a big improvement, so I'm excited for that.

If you haven't given C2 a go, I'd highly recommend checking it out. Might be worth it just to have another tool in your kit.



Yup. The edits on that page are hilarious.
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Thanks for the tips on Construct 2, I'll have to look into that.

Also, while I'm not trans, thanks for those insights you shared, appreciate your realistic perspective on that subject.
 
Oh this thread is way better than i thought it would be. My liver thanks you all.
 
SatanicPanic!AtTheDisco said:
Folks have been asking me to join like a billion times. What was I gonna do, make dumb jokes in my own thread?

That would be awkward.
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I had a feeling if I started talking on Kiwi it would drag you out of the woodwork.

Kinda surprised it actually worked though, lol.

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... and yeah, you should go make dumb jokes in your own thread, lol. Better than sub tweeting via twitter with people who seem genuinely interested in your creative work. :tomgirl:
 
SatanicPanic!AtTheDisco said:
Whatever. God help me, I miss you sometimes, and we don't get along on social media.
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I like you best when you are actually doing creative things rather than getting involved in bullshit drama.

Get back to me when you've been consistently working on your music / art / game design and I'll consider your friendship IRL again... until then, no thanks. I already have enough of my own damage to take care of without that level of distraction. :/

I know that's harsh, but I respect you, so I think honesty is best.

You're an incredibly talent person and as with all talented folks whose work I admire, it's just too depressing for me to see all that energy get blown on useless shit.

LegoTugboat said:
What do you think of the pro-trans comic Assigned Male?
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The last trans-centric comic I ever read was Venus Envy and I loved that.

http://www.venusenvycomic.com/index.php?id=2
 
SatanicPanic!AtTheDisco said:
Whatever. God help me, I miss you sometimes
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Devi Ever said:
I like you best when you are actually doing creative things rather than getting involved in bullshit drama.

Get back to me when you've been consistently working on your music / art / game design and I'll consider your friendship IRL again... until then, no thanks. I already have enough of my own damage to take care of without that level of distraction. :/

I know that's harsh, but I respect you, so I think honesty is best.

You're an incredibly talent person and as with all talented folks whose work I admire, it's just too depressing for me to see all that energy get blown on useless shit.
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Would you two like some couples counselling I'm really good at it.
 
Devi Ever said:
Get back to me when you've been consistently working on your music / art / game design and I'll consider your friendship IRL again...
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Eh, I've released two games (1, 2), the latter of which was featured on Boing Boing's Oddworld, remastered an old live album full of never released material, and have been teasing a new live album as a transition from the first release and the upcoming one in the past month. I've never stopped "consistently working on your music/art/game design".

I mean, my art may be garbage, but nobody can deny I've been consistent at producing it.

Devi Ever said:
I'd suggest treating the first few years of game development as you might if you were beginning to learn to become an illustrator. Sketching is a HUGE part of becoming a better artist, and I think things like game jams, and projects that you start but never follow through with are the gamedev's version of a sketch book.
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I've been doing a gamedev since April this year, not even six months, and literally doing this. Just sayin. Hell, I even participated in one of your game jams, being one of like two participants.

But hey, thanks for the petulance.
 
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Dynastia said:
Would you two like some couples counselling I'm really good at it.
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Rani and I were acquaintances at best in the goth / freak scene back in the early 2000's in Austin, TX and while I admired her early noise work / aesthetic, the idea that there's really anything more to our "friendship" is laughable and a sad part of the "all trannies know each other" aspect of the perception of the trans community at large.

Our interaction here is pretty much par for the course with any time I run into her online which is why I avoid her and have no real interest in being friends with her IRL or engaging with her here at Kiwi.

If there was an ignore feature here at Kiwi, I would be using it liberally with her, but ya'll sperg all you want with her.

I'm sure it'll be dreadfully entertaining for many of you.

[ Edit : Oh shit there IS an ignore feature! Oh sweet joy of joy! ]
 
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