Timothy Nathan Shortnacy / Devi Ever / Amber Coal / Grace Lynn / Pixelgoth / LittleMouseVR - Scammer and flip-flopper who can't commit to a career and drove Chloe Sagal to suicide.

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Devi Ever said:
My Console kickstarter was YEARS ago so there is zero connection between that and Femfreq.

The money I donated to Femfreq was about $700, half of payment for a game development project I was hired for. It was money I wasn't expecting at all and at the time I decided to donate to Femfreq because I was feeling guilty for being the one who published this : https://archive.is/VHTEo

It's been lost to time, but people forget I was the one who made the original connection between FemFreq and Mcintosh.

It's a long story about how I lost my shit the past year, but during the phase where I was feeling very guilty in regards to SJW stuff for whatever crazy reason it felt right to donate to FemFreq.

The funny thing is, when I was dealing with some financial problems, Katherine Cross had contacted me and said that Anita was willing to give the money back to me if I needed it. At the time I said no... but a few months down the line when I did need some help, Anita or Katherine wouldn't respond to me after Randi Harper threw me under the bus.

That entire clique is fucking insane, and I was insane for ever getting involved in any way shape or form.
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That's what I thought the timing was. It still seems like that money should have gone to refunds but it's all in the past I guess.
 
Dork Of Ages said:
Yeah, I am sure that's exactly it.

Anyway, at least you sound much more reasonable than Rani/Chloe/Brianna could ever be. What future games are you thinking of doing?
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It was though. I mean hell, there is literally the video of me and Jason doing it as it happened and I've seen plenty of people who have watched that and recognize we were having a go at Notch.

Seriously though, you guys consider that a lolcow moment, but for me it's like the troll gift that keeps on giving. It will never stop being funny to me that people take it so seriously. I mean I literally said "he owes me money for slaughtering my sides".

The fact anyone takes that seriously... I mean look, I didn't have much hope for humanity to begin with, but this is one of those moments where I just have to let lulz jesus take the wheel and let it happen. It's glorious.

Already answered the gamedev question here : https://kiwifarms.net/threads/devi-ever-ao-coal-grace-lynn-pixelgoth-here-ama.12128/#post-936954

Yellow Yam Scam said:
That's what I thought the timing was. It still seems like that money should have gone to refunds but it's all in the past I guess.
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I agree with you 110%. I've made incredibly shit personal and financial decisions the past year.

Like, I guess I haven't set it in this thread, but I say it all the time talking about the past year of my life : I lost my mind. I hit rock bottom.

The past year was the worst year of my life and I really let myself go off the deep end. :/

Eponine said:
If you're interested in roguelike design btw, @Devi Ever, do give Brogue a look. It's both simplistic and incredibly atmospheric, and probably has the best looking dungeon generation of any roguelike.
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THANK YOU!

I've been asking people about this kinda shit for weeks now but no one seemed to really know of anything that was along the lines of a simplistic Rogue experience. I'll check it out right now!
 
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Devi Ever said:
Dude. Fuck wetflame. She used to post in my personal forums AGES ago and I've already entertained her autism for way too long in my life to ever engage her again on anything.
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This is why I wish wetflame would come back. He/she/it has basically attained Phil levels of social pariah and it's perfect.
 
@Devi Ever, after following the batshit insanity of Brianna Wu for so long, my first impulse would be to assume the worst, but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt anyway for two reasons:

One, unlike Wu, you aren't screaming about HARASSMENT in response to hard questions, and you are actually acting reasonably mature, hope you stick around and who knows, maybe we can both walk away from this having understood more about each other.

Also, welcome to the farms!
 
Cynical said:
@Devi Ever, after following the batshit insanity of Brianna Wu for so long, my first impulse would be to assume the worst, but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt anyway for two reasons:

One, unlike Wu, you aren't screaming about HARASSMENT in response to hard questions, and you are actually acting reasonably mature, hope you stick around and who knows, maybe we can both walk away from this having understood more about each other.

Also, welcome to the farms!
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I've had personal dealings with Wu. Believe me, I'm not the same kind of crazy.

My descent into madness the past year is really simple to explain really. I definitely have some kind of chemical imbalance going on... something involving ADHD or Anxiety, and if I'm not exercising regularly, eating well, and taking care of my shit, I'll spiral out of control emotionally and impulsively get involved with bullshit and drama.

There was some point after having left gamergate, when I was a part of the SJW circles and starting to see cracks in their whole facade... there was a point I started cutting myself on a regular basis building up the courage to slit my wrists. That all sounds fairly par for the course of a "crazy tranny" but I hadn't traditionally been one to self harm or lose my shit the way I did the past year.

It's actually been incredibly fascinating to see how people have picked apart a lot of unrelated things in my life (like my failed kickstarter) as being a part of some bigger narrative of who I am, when it seems so many people ignored the decade before that when I built an incredibly successful pedal business from the ground up... seriously, I started with nothing, not even a bank loan, and the year before I sold my business I was grossing $250k a year.

I'm the total opposite of Brianna Wu, and the only reason I really lost the plot, besides not taking care of myself, was trusting the social justice community and for whatever insane reason, thinking leaning on my "transness" as some kind of disability worthy of sympathy, was a good idea.

I've worked incredibly hard for everything I have. I mean hell, I paid for all my surgeries in cash and the worst that ever happened before my failed kickstarter (which was AFTER all my surgeries), was that I got behind on paying the IRS, which a lot of small business go through.

I'm really a perfect cautionary tale on the virtues of fighting for yourself and working hard to get through a transition vs. leaning on the charity of others.

It wasn't till I started leaning on charity that my life went to shit.
 
@Devi Ever welcome to the farms!

I was initially skeptical when i saw you posting, but as i have remarked before it's always a nice surprise when someone comes here and speaks to us calmly and politely rather than screaming that we're gamergaters/sjws/mras/feminists/nazis/racetraitors/cyberbullies/the management of a small tourist railroad.

When all is said and done all the kf denizens realky are is a group of nosey people who enjoy internet e drama.

With that in mind maybe you could provide a wee introduction explaining who you are/what you do for those of us who don't know of you.

Beyond that you made an arse of yourself 'trolling' notch and produce games that do not look appealing or particularly lucrative I'm afraid most of us don't have a clue who you are.
 
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Do you feel bad about how you went from being treated reasonably respectfully and with courtesy to being reviled in a few hours? Or do you just get off on the attention regardless of its skew?
 
Le Bateleur said:
@Devi Ever would you have taken money from Notch if he offered it to you?

What's your opinion on this quote from Bill Drummond of The KLF?
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Of course not, and there is no way he was going to give me money, lol.

The artists I respect most are the ones who had to fight for their work.

c-no said:
Only if the Wu's were somehow too much and very hard.
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"wu... very hard"

*shudders*
 
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Devi Ever said:
I've had personal dealings with Wu. Believe me, I'm not the same kind of crazy.

My descent into madness the past year is really simple to explain really. I definitely have some kind of chemical imbalance going on... something involving ADHD or Anxiety, and if I'm not exercising regularly, eating well, and taking care of my shit, I'll spiral out of control emotionally and impulsively get involved with bullshit and drama.

There was some point after having left gamergate, when I was a part of the SJW circles and starting to see cracks in their whole facade... there was a point I started cutting myself on a regular basis building up the courage to slit my wrists. That all sounds fairly par for the course of a "crazy tranny" but I hadn't traditionally been one to self harm or lose my shit the way I did the past year.

It's actually been incredibly fascinating to see how people have picked apart a lot of unrelated things in my life (like my failed kickstarter) as being a part of some bigger narrative of who I am, when it seems so many people ignored the decade before that when I built an incredibly successful pedal business from the ground up... seriously, I started with nothing, not even a bank loan, and the year before I sold my business I was grossing $250k a year.

I'm the total opposite of Brianna Wu, and the only reason I really lost the plot, besides not taking care of myself, was trusting the social justice community and for whatever insane reason, thinking leaning on my "transness" as some kind of disability worthy of sympathy, was a good idea.

I've worked incredibly hard for everything I have. I mean hell, I paid for all my surgeries in cash and the worst that ever happened before my failed kickstarter (which was AFTER all my surgeries), was that I got behind on paying the IRS, which a lot of small business go through.

I'm really a perfect cautionary tale on the virtues of fighting for yourself and working hard to get through a transition vs. leaning on the charity of others.

It wasn't till I started leaning on charity that my life went to shit.
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I see, sounds like you made a return to sanity and went through a fair amount of hell to get there, my prayers that things continue to go well, and I'm glad you've decided to share your experience with us.

Also, glad you've seen the SJW community for what they are, I'm sorry you had to learn their hypocrisy in such a painful way, but I'm glad the scales have fallen from your eyes, and most of all, I just want to wish better days continue to be ahead for you.
 
Vitriol said:
When all is said and done all the kf denizens realky are is a group of nosey people who enjoy internet e drama.

With that in mind maybe you could provide a wee introduction explaining who you are/what you do for those of us who don't know of you.

Beyond that you made an arse of yourself 'trolling' notch and produce games that do not look appealing or particularly lucrative I'm afeaid most of us don't have a clue who you are.
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I've followed many lolcow threads and forums from time to time and yeah, it's pretty obvious it's just really all about gossip and drama... a past time as old as newsgroups.

As for who I am. Around 2003 I started a guitar pedal company called Effector 13. I designed and hand built effects that were noisy / unruly and was a part of the 2nd wave of "boutique" guitar pedal manufactures.

Over the next 10 years I worked hard to build my brand, eventually changing the name to Devi Ever : FX and have had the honor of providing fuzz and noise devices to everyone from Depeche Mode to Nine Inch Nails.

You can actually see one of my pedals, the Improbability Drive in the album Ghosts :

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In late 2013 I sold my business to another company and then spent most of 2014 losing my fucking mind in the indie gaming scene, forest gumping my way through a shit ton of bullshit and drama, and now here I am getting back into making guitar pedals but still pursuing my passion of game development.

Arrosoir said:
Do you feel bad about how you went from being treated reasonably respectfully and with courtesy to being reviled in a few hours? Or do you just get off on the attention regardless of its skew?
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I'm confused as to the context of this question?

I absolutely have had an issue in the past where I would antagonize people for the rush of whatever that is.

There's plenty of things I have done in the past that were for the thrill of the moment, of getting a rise out of people, but that's like junk food... a temporary high that doesn't really fix the greater problems I had been dealing with.

Like I mentioned earlier, I have not been well the past year, and I mean, even before that I definitely had long term problems with attention seeking behavior online... antagonizing people to get a rise and then enjoying whatever little buzz comes along with that.

I used to kinda justify my behavior by only targeting people I thought deserved to be fucked with, but holy shit, after my year being around SJW trolls, I realize how destructive and awful that kind of thing is.

Cynical said:
I see, sounds like you made a return to sanity and went through a fair amount of hell to get there, my prayers that things continue to go well, and I'm glad you've decided to share your experience with us.

Also, glad you've seen the SJW community for what they are, I'm sorry you had to learn their hypocrisy in such a painful way, but I'm glad the scales have fallen from your eyes, and most of all, I just want to wish better days continue to be ahead for you.
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Thanks friend. Places like Kiwi Farms, or any other lolcow forum / sites are weird, because on one hand, ya'll's obsession seems kinda on par with it's own brand of mental illness that should probably be looked after, but on the other hand, there are definitely some people you target who need help themselves, and does pointing that out really benefit anyone?

I feel like that quote from the Jacob's Ladder is really fitting here.

Louis: Eckhart saw Hell too. He said: The only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won't let go of life, your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away. But they're not punishing you, he said. They're freeing your soul. So, if you're frightened of dying and... and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth.​

Oh, and you can hear my fuzz the Bit : Legend of Fuzz on the rhythm guitar here (the first guitar sound) :

 
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Devi Ever said:
I'm confused as to the context of this question?

I absolutely have had an issue in the past where I would antagonize people for the rush of whatever that is.

There's plenty of things I have done in the past that were for the thrill of the moment, of getting a rise out of people, but that's like junk food... a temporary high that doesn't really fix the greater problems I had been dealing with.

Like I mentioned earlier, I have not been well the past year, and I mean, even before that I definitely had long term problems with attention seeking behavior online... antagonizing people to get a rise and then enjoying whatever little buzz comes along with that.

I used to kinda justify my behavior by only targeting people I thought deserved to be fucked with, but holy shit, after my year being around SJW trolls, I realize how destructive and awful that kind of thing is.
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You showed up to provide information on a poster this board follows for entertainment and in order to obtain further information a poster asked you to create a thread in which you could share information on your experiences with embarrassing similarly minded people for entertainment. But most of this thread seems to be you going "haha gotcha, trolled!" and talking about guitar pedals? It's super cool that you made lots of money on pedals and NIN was a pretty good band at one point but unless you plan on wearing diapers, making sonic OC's or doing something incredibly autistic and entertaining I'm not sure what this thread is for.

e: I just watched Jacob's Ladder. Good movie.
 
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