Jesus H Christ, one of the replies
"7-ish years post op; MtF. Am 29 now.
If you asked me a few years ago, I'd say: exactly the same.
Submission and orgasm went hand in hand for me, before and after SRS.
But at this point, having had sex "as a man", and "as a woman"; having been kept as a collared slave, having been tortured, having done torturing, having done both with men, women, and queers, with groups, etc- its like...
I dont really know any more.
I last had penetrative sex December of 2018. I was wearing a strap on, it was with a non-binary individual who was a submissive. They were by all accounts adorable and sexy.
But I just like... didn't like it. It felt forced, out of habit. I didnt orgasm, I can't know if they did; though they did attempt to initiate further intimate nights so maybe it was good for one of us.
After getting out of the little kink cult keeping me as a collared kajira, I was into the bimbofication thing for a while, and pretty free use. I played at parties a lot, and was an enormous scene slut. That was 2016 to 2018-ish. Orgasmed a lot, always easily when getting into subspace. Then a Daddy Dom had an ENORMOUS consent violation with me, breaking my shoulder. I stopped bottoming after that.
It shattered more than just a clavicle, the illusion of what is submission broke within me. But it was about time for that to occur. Some lessons the price is blood, like switching sexes. Other lessons the price gets paying in bone, like switching roles.
I masturbated throughout 2019, always to kink fantasies; but was almost exclusively Topping in terms of play, as my experience levels were unarguably more vast than most.
2020 just hasn't been a sexy year.
Nothing holds any allure to me any longer.
Men who act Dominant are a goddamn *joke* to me.
Women who are submissive annoy me to no end.
Most people just have such a tiny little limited perspective into sex and roles that connection with myself is difficult; and orgasm sans the capacity to feel eclipsed or connected to another is a hollow race to run.
I've not masturbated much this year, maybe a dozen times in total, high end estimate. Mostly, I just like Topping for rope suspensions and Sadism. But even then, binary bottoms annoy me. I think Sadism is the last bastion I find my refuge in, as grateful masochists are rare. And I appreciate that. But even then, Sadistic glee is not sexual for me. It's just an aspect of who I am and the way I express affection. It's an outlet for my anger at the ridiculous assumptions society makes about sex and gender. Rope as well- but mostly through teaching other Dominant women and playing with buddies non-sexually. Rope suspensions are the art of dipping someone into the River Styx. How can I not love it still?
Getting back to the core of the question- back in the day, I could orgasm fairly easily post-op. Vibrators, pulsators, Hitachi wands, hands, dicks, dildos- all were good and viable. *So long as it was mixed up with submission.*
But now I am just too old and jaded to care to cum.
tl;dr Had too much sex as man, woman, sub, Dom, etc- and now I dont give a fuck."
