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00:00 - :30 - wheezing, clicking of her mouse, so much wheezing
00:35 - "guys I am so nervous.... STRESS SIGH ....lemme see how many viewers I'm going to have"
already go fuck yourself ladyalt lmao
00:40 - 1:05 - more stress sighing, clicking, slamming her keyboard good lord
1:08 - "I'mma tryin' my best not to make it a show"
she already asked how many viewers she had
1:20 - here come the crocodile tears "everybody is against me and I've hurt a lot of people through the years....."
1:41 - "If I cry on camera I'm not doing this for views"
1:50 - "I'm so sorry for hurting every fucking person in my life....." here comes more tears and prayer pose
2:05 - "I keep gettin' hate....because I hurt people in the past. I can't HELP hurting people sometimes and all I can do is improve"
100% of the time, yes she could've helped it, and no she hasn't improved
2:41 - "I am sorry....I am sorry please accept my apology....please??"
she keeps saying this but I dont think she knows what it means
3:03 - "I don't want to hurt people anymore!! I really don't!! I'm tired of hurting people!!!! I promised never to physically hurt people after....."
uh huh, what a surprise she didn't finish that thought
3:36 - "I'M having a mental breakdown"
interesting how this apology is already 90% about her
4:02 - "I am so sorry, I am SO sorry. I fucking GET IT"
4:20 - "The reason I disabled the likes/dislikes is because I don't want to see the dislikes amount....I'm tired of people disliking and me looking at the dislikes because they don't need to see how many people disliked it....its not ego issues its MUH insecurity. you wouldn't understand if you're a sensitive type of person"
but not sensitive enough to make an honest change/not hurt minors, okay
5:15 - "Thank GOD Im not working right now or I would've gotten FIRED"
5:36 - "I'm so sorry for hurting all of you. I'm VERY sorry...I'm sorry okay??" more crocodile tears, note she keeps looking at the computer most likely to see how many viewers/chat comments shes getting. btw, its none. she keeps PEEKING past her fingers/hands after she keeps saying these apologies, lmao, like a little kid to see if people are buying it yet
5:56 - "To all the people I've abused through the years, in case you were sayin' (?), theres a huge list....." more crocodile tears, peeking to see 1 supporter lumbering in, she starts talking to them
6:28 - 6:50 - "some of you don't know about my past...I don't want you to know my past, but you'll find out eventually..AND...you'll find out the bad side of me and the side people tried to paint me as. but I am NOT the type of person....SIGH"
6:50 - "I used to be abusive, a very...sexual deviant let's just say"
but I thought she WASN'T before, very fancy way of leaving out the pedo apologies and tendencies though
7:05 - now she is talking about jacques and uses air quotation marks for "abused" when mentioning she did, SHE GUESSES, and then mentions how she never takes peoples advice
if this wasn't clear before, go fuck yourself ladyalt
7:29 - "And I am SO sorry about that" she finishes. she just implied though that she didn't abuse people, lmao
7:35 - "I'M VERY SORRY ABOUT THAT I AM" she wails, no seriously, actually wails
7:45 - "You can tell by my eyes...." sounding more like chris chan every day, sick reference
7:54 - "I'm sorry I abused everyboday....ITS ALL IN THE PAST. it's all in the past...I just want it to be left..."
nigga she just got with ruben less than a week ago for the third time
8:00 - 8:36 - more pitiful whale wailing its hard to listen to without my eyes going into the back of my skull
8:40 - "They never give me a fucking CHANCE. nobody give me a CHANCE because I fucked up so many times....STRESS SIGH/WHEEZING"
yeah like that time I came and personally talked to you 1 v 1 and respected and honored our conversation not being shared to kiwi farms but instead you wailed about how pathetic your life was and how you ate paint chips. the only question you had for me was "do I really look forty?" lmaooooooo
9:00 - 9:40 - shes apologizing for crying on camera but she just wants to show that she is real, she is giving more apologies and saying she is gonna do better, yeah its not like she's had six years or so to do it
9:48 - "muh whole life I've been surrounded by pedophiles....and I'm doing my damnest to stay away from them"
she says as she went back to ruben for a THIRD TIME barely more than a week ago
9:55 - she is now listing all the pedos she has been around and how she is not staying around them, another tard comes in and starts to coddle her, notice how the tears start slowing down now
10:35 - KIWIFARM SHOUTOUT WHOOO
10:49 - once again, she thinks we think she is a pedo only for the intrusive thoughts. I know she can't read but can one of the lackies that stalk her thread for her show
her the nice list I made? damn. someone in her chat literally says "I don't know whats happening"
11:02 - "I GOT BULLIED FOR IT. IN FEBRUARY AND IT STILL HURTS ME"
outing a pedo I guess is bullying, so I suppose she also bullied Larry, George, and ruben when they got outed too huh?
11:25 -"I'M NOT TRYING TO GUILT TRIP YOU GUYS. I'M JUST SAYING DA TRUTH and dey don't want to give me a break. I got mental issues"
girl who the fuck doesn't have mental issues in this day and age, doesn't mean we're showing our vagina holes or buttholes to pedophiles and excusing their actions as they abuse kids
11:30 - 12:10 - more sniveling, crying, looking to her 2 supporters in chat to help her out, theyre giving her solid advice that most likely she will ignore
12:12 - "some of this shit keeps coming back in muh mind and keeps repeating itself in real life....over and over again"
here's an idea, unplug your internet router
12:38 - 13:15 more whale calling apologies, claiming she is trying to do better, her supporters are now grouping on the idea of "kiwifarm so bad" GG supporting a pedo you guys. says kiwi farmers are SO manipulative and twisting her words and painting her as a bad person. hm, no I think she does 100% of the work for us, like now she is
13:39 - now she is laughing and most of the crocodile tears are gone about her getting a job and starting work on the 17th. man even shane dawson could keep the pity act longer in his apology video
13:55 - "I'm SORRY I don't know WHO I've hurt I'm sorry. I'm real fucking sorry I am"
if I get into this I'm going to get some hat ratings lmaooooo
14:15 - now her supports are going "you know what kiwifarms are always going to tear you down!" and she is going with that. yeah like that time muerte tried giving you advice and you wouldn't listen so he came here and even STILL tried to support and give you advice and help you out/give you benefit of the doubt despite you introducing a groomer into his life, right?? Fuck KF!
14:22 "and when they're giving advice, so called """advice""" they should give it directly at me, not at the kiwifarms"
ohohohohoo I swear to god if she keeps going like this. Conviently forgot that I came to HER BEFORE all this shit came to light, YEARS ago, GG on you alt. also let's forget about all the other handful of users that confessed to trying to talk to you before coming here, on their behalf: fuck you alt
14:50 - "they (KF) just wanna ruin my life" she says as she grabs the vape pen, how's quitting going? does KF put the vape pen to your lips too?
15:13 - " I have a feeling they're gonna try and get me fired *BIG VAPE HIT*" why would we when you quit on your own?
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5:42 - "I know I need to social distance myself from social media. I did distance myself a little last night" lmao
15:50 - 17:05 - she rambles while vaping heavily about how she did projects, like her niece's gift, to get her mind off of it. And you know what? GOOD. literally keep doing that and already so many of her problems are gone, but she'll forget this as she usually does
17:08 - 17:53 - now she's rambling about jacques, are we really surprised that she is in her "apology" all the while vaping more and more
17:57 - paris appearance, someone help that poor dog
18:12 - she is now showing her pokemon card anal beads, to her enablers that are easily distracting her from her VERY VERY VERY SINCERE APOLOGY GUYS. once again showing that her fictional gobbo interests > reality.
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8:38 - she plugs her etsy. in her apology video. guys help I'm barely over halfway someone give me a drink
18:54 - now she's whining that she doesn't get any sales for the crafts shes done. gee wonder why.
18:59 - 19:59 - she is talking about her mother and how she wants a key chain for her semi truck keys, wish she could focus on people like this as she does her green husbands. her enablers think she is "so adorable and thoughtful!!! uwu" gross
20:11 - she just remembered this is an apology video oh lord, she is saying to those who are just joining in that they can fast forward to the beginning. oh wow
20:40 - "It did not feel like it was legit in the youtube video, I tried the best I could....."
so guys this time be REALLY convinced that she is for reals this time, don't forget to buy from her etsy!!!!
21:00 - more boo hoos that people won't accept her apology. you know how I would personally? if she'd unplug her internet router
21:05 - "it really upset ME
real BAD "
its all about aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalt!!
21:13- "but lemme show you what made me REAL happy this week
"
please don't
21:15 - "on the day muh dad died"
I beg you
please
21:28 "you're gonna be real surprised
"
I want off lady alt's wild ride
21:44 - she has brought the grimmsnarl toliet plushie and I want to die, she is holding it, dry eyed, staring wide eyed into the camera, is this what hell looks like? her enablers are like "omg how cuuuuuute" help me please I need a drink
22:04 - "I need him right now thank you so much for the compliments" hrrrkkkkk. she also throws the plushie maker AGAIN under the bus saying the jaw is wonky. I feel bad for the plushie maker more than I ever will for alt
22:22 - "people were like 'are you going to do something naughty with him?'
I said no no no I'm not doing that"
forget the drink get me a trash bucket
22:42 - "ugh... he (leastus) would squeeze me to death with his strong hands....."
I really wish he would, her enablers keep saying "omg I bet he would <3"
23:20 - "I'm sorry I'm acting like a child right now but I guess its muh autistic ways"
23:48 - " I know people are going to make fun of me for it but I NEED this right now"
24:00 - 25:20 - she is rambling about how when she first got the plushie, getting enabled by users saying that its completely okay and that 'fuck what other people think uwu'. I think she mentioned that she loves him more than Jay, hahahahaha. she keeps hugging the damn plush so close to herself the entire time
25:22 - "I'm shaking right now because I'm in so much pain mentally....."
I'm sure the minors you've hurt too feel the same way, every day.
25:53 - 26:58 she's giving her life story now, starting at when she got on the internet on age 18 and how her reputation was so fucked from the beginning. interesting how an apology is about her, once again. thought the past didn't matter? interesting that it applies when its most convenient for her.
26:59 - "now I feel more confident with myself and muh body..."
because normal confident people cry into the camera on twitch
27:23 - someone in the stream asked if she has seen her counselor lately, alt says: "yes I have...but the thing is mm, we don't....talk enough I don't think? I want to do it weekly so bad...my therapist, case worker, whatever you wanna call her....I just seen her recently we don't talk about 'EVERYTHING'. " oh ALSO how convenient!!! who saw that coming?
then the stream ends, there's more parts but kiwis? I am not strong enough
