After she changed meds last summer she started pressurimg me for sex. which i would have accomodated but she rarely showers or even asks for help to shower, and we hadnt had sex regularly for years because she was frequently too fatigued.
I found the sudden change paired with sweaty b.o. a bit much all at once. soon after that #metoo was trending and in the news and having been sexually harrassed in a workplace and sexually assaulted, it was just a really stressful topic and i wasn't feeling it.
Then it was december and my dad was in the hospital and died. So i wasnt great at keeping up with
@politiquestions interest in sex, and several months ago she started to link, in our conversations, her low self esteem and related suicidal ideations, with not getting sex. I dug deep to try fix the situation, and the ultimate result of that was i had a miscarriage last week. It was about 6-7 weeks along. I did not tell her while i was pregnant the 2nd time because every conversation we had lately turned into her yelling at me, but also because after the pregnancy test came out positive i asked her 'hypothetically' what she would do if i were to fall pregnant and didn't want an abortion. She said all three of us would end up dead. I tried to ask what that meant, she set a boundary not to talk about it