💥 Trainwreck Virgo Rouge / Jamie Morse / Marissa Morris/Elienne/Marchant/Elene Nadieja / Rachzel Grezbian - Narcissistic Failed Musician, Pseudointellectual, Pseudo-Health Nut, Family Hater, and Ghostfucker

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From one of her 2007 ilxor ponderings:
I have never slept with a man....cause no one love me...

and I wouldn't want to sleep with a man who is unloving...not romantic and not very deep..

which is most men.

I have high moral standards...and don't enjoy being in the arms of men who are selfish.....

which is most...and not tender or kind...in the real sensse...

no morals...

I have been tempted to sleep with uncaring men who love no one but themselves...but they could see that I am not their type...I am not evil....and I am not selfish and uncaring...
and not cold...
so it was no go...

And:
I tried to force myself to have sex...and couldn't do it...beccause I tried to be romantic with this guy and he ended speaking to me like I was trash and a prostitute....

he ended up giving me a black eye.

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I haven't given up on an updated OP, btw. When Null decides what direction he wants to take re: wiki/OP material, I'll get back on the job.
 
From one of her 2007 ilxor ponderings:


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I haven't given up on an updated OP, btw. When Null decides what direction he wants to take re: wiki/OP material, I'll get back on the job.

Oh hello again. Yeah we had a bit of a conversation going in that group chat too were we (or wabbits mostly honestly) compiled a lot of stuff for the new OP. You've still got the materials right? And with Null talking about the wiki again, I hope it will get finished someday cus there's a lot ot stuff out there but hard to get if you're just new to the thread.
 
Oh hello again. Yeah we had a bit of a conversation going in that group chat too were we (or wabbits mostly honestly) compiled a lot of stuff for the new OP. You've still got the materials right? And with Null talking about the wiki again, I hope it will get finished someday cus there's a lot ot stuff out there but hard to get if you're just new to the thread.

I lost a lot of formatted and heavily linked narrative when Null deleted everyone's inactive DMs after the hack. But I have backups - they just need some cleanup. The assembled pix, caps, and timeline are also safe, so an OP's close to done, though "close" may mean a lot of work across the course of a month.

Even before the post-hack wipe-out of DMs, the draft OP was getting deleted or replaced with older drafts during system maintenance or some damn thing, and I want some assurance that won't recur. Re-re-re-re-doing work got to be ridiculous. But granted, servers were getting tossed into boxes and shipped around the country during that time, so - yeah. Onward.
 
I lost a lot of formatted and heavily linked narrative when Null deleted everyone's inactive DMs after the hack. But I have backups - they just need some cleanup. The assembled pix, caps, and timeline are also safe, so an OP's close to done, though "close" may mean a lot of work across the course of a month.

Even before the post-hack wipe-out of DMs, the draft OP was getting deleted or replaced with older drafts during system maintenance or some damn thing, and I want some assurance that won't recur. Re-re-re-re-doing work got to be ridiculous. But granted, servers were getting tossed into boxes and shipped around the country during that time, so - yeah. Onward.
I have archives of all of her current videos if that's any help.
 
I lost a lot of formatted and heavily linked narrative when Null deleted everyone's inactive DMs after the hack. But I have backups - they just need some cleanup. The assembled pix, caps, and timeline are also safe, so an OP's close to done, though "close" may mean a lot of work across the course of a month.

Even before the post-hack wipe-out of DMs, the draft OP was getting deleted or replaced with older drafts during system maintenance or some damn thing, and I want some assurance that won't recur. Re-re-re-re-doing work got to be ridiculous. But granted, servers were getting tossed into boxes and shipped around the country during that time, so - yeah. Onward.

At one point, I installed a wiki on my local computer so I could write and format a Marissa entry in a safe space. But I lost the will to live when I confronted the enormity of the job. I found my notes recently; they're all but unintelligible.

I did make some cosmetic edits to some articles in the old wiki. There was good stuff there, but it was itching for some strong editing.
 
But I lost the will to live ...

Yeah - I went through two death spirals myself apart from the technical problems that elevated my drinking from wine to vodka for a while. The enormity of her online history did me in at one point and the sadness of her life when she was trying to perform in NYC jazz clubs did me in at another. Retreating into the isolation typical of schizophrenia was actually an upgrade for her.

Can I take a look at your wiki draft? You're good at forming big picture narrative accurately from myriad detail.
 
That's huge. How are they organized?
I didn't organize them, I just went through her YouTube channel and downloaded everything over the last few days. There's 168 videos or something, mostly songs and her love obsession videos. I don't have them uploaded anywhere because I usually archive videos directly to KF and didn't get a chance to go through the whole thread yet to see if I would be shitting it up by dumping a load of videos in it.
 
Yeah - I went through two death spirals myself apart from the technical problems that elevated my drinking from wine to vodka for a while. The enormity of her online history did me in at one point and the sadness of her life when she was trying to perform in NYC jazz clubs did me in at another. Retreating into the isolation typical of schizophrenia was actually an upgrade for her.

Can I take a look at your wiki draft? You're good at forming big picture narrative accurately from myriad detail.

Computer died, I'm afraid. I rescued most of the hard drive, but I don't know if the draft made it.

Periodically, Marissa gives me the sads. I take no pleasure in making fun of broken people. Then I remember she's also haughty and spiteful and I feel all better about this thread.
 
I didn't organize them, I just went through her YouTube channel and downloaded everything over the last few days. There's 168 videos or something, mostly songs and her love obsession videos. I don't have them uploaded anywhere because I usually archive videos directly to KF and didn't get a chance to go through the whole thread yet to see if I would be shitting it up by dumping a load of videos in it.

Very good. There's a list of her vids on KF here: https://kiwifarms.net/archive/Virgo Rouge/ We probably need to confer with Null about how much of her stuff he's willing to host.

Others here also have libraries of her vids. Pulling out specific vids has been the tricky bit.

Random attachment: Crude timeline for her life. Needs cleaning up and updating, I know.

1/3/20 update:
The attached timeline's given a basic cleaning and has been brought up to date. It's overly detailed for inclusion in an OP or wiki but a fairly useful resource for picking through Marissa's past.
 

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Very good. There's a list of her vids on KF here: https://kiwifarms.net/archive/Virgo Rouge/ We probably need to confer with Null about how much of her stuff he's willing to host.

Others here also have libraries of her vids. Pulling out specific vids has been the tricky bit.

Random attachment: Crude timeline for her life. Needs cleaning up and updating, I know.
That list includes videos I don't have because she pulled them down or privated them. I'll be keeping an eye on her channel now to download new stuff anyway. I'm a fan of her dancing videos.
 
From one of her 2007 ilxor ponderings:
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I haven't given up on an updated OP, btw. When Null decides what direction he wants to take re: wiki/OP material, I'll get back on the job.
It sounds to me like she thinks that men are gross.

Not ok for a dude to try to force-fuck her while talking dirty to her and gave her a black eye. Maybe some women get off on that but no thanks.

But from the rest of what she is saying, it sounds like she doesn't understand men. She misunderstands their intentions, misreads them.

I actually don't think that there is much that is funny about this person. She sounds shy and lonely and confused.

Very good. There's a list of her vids on KF here: https://kiwifarms.net/archive/Virgo Rouge/ We probably need to confer with Null about how much of her stuff he's willing to host.

Others here also have libraries of her vids. Pulling out specific vids has been the tricky bit.

Random attachment: Crude timeline for her life. Needs cleaning up and updating, I know.

They ruined that girl.

Killing a bird, in a dryer? There is no hellfire hot enough ....

She was terrorized. I am crying for her, and the little bird. Fly little bird, fly free.🕊

When I read her bio/timeline, tears came streaming out of my eyes. She can't bond with anybody, look at what happened when she loved a dog and a little bird. She lives in a world of fantasy, illusion and music, and in her own mind, she is beautiful. Too beautiful. At least she won't destroy herself. Nobody can torture and kill the little bird and the little girl, again, if she comes up with reasons to push people away.

Please have mercy on this woman. She made a righteous choice in not perpetuating such evil. She is coping the best she can.
 
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Here is a text file I had sitting on my comp since late June after I spent a day or two doing some detailed searching for Marissa stuff. There are a bunch of links and probably a lot are already known, but pasting them here if anyone wants to check them out. I kind of lost interest in Marissa after she stopped ranting at the Farms and her family. I am pretty sure some of the links are stuff that was new, to me at least.

Also a Word doc I had on the go when we were initially trying to timeline the craziness of her. As @wabbits said though, she has a huge footprint and history so its a daunting task to do it all justice when it comes to redoing the OP.

Hopefully these are useful when time comes to start reworking the OP.

http://www.transbuddha.com/weblog/invitationtomarissa/ (Check waback)

Main thread started Dec. 29, 2016

Lot of older videos from beginning of thread are gone. May be some archived per post #1 at bottom.

MAIN THREAD

Justin Hayward Post #3

Rachel Flowers Post #10

Mar 16, 2016 video


KF SAGA

Apr 27/17 Post 11 Marissa send KF takedown notice

Marissa not a musician, Post #18 Screenshots of her comments.

June 19/17 Post 19 Null created new thread

1000 for a CD Post #25

Zetgeist 1st Post 27

Smutley’s 1st Post 30 deleted vids

Nazis/Jews Posts 31 to 39 deleted vids

Marissa Ivy League schools, jews Post 40 deleted vids

Egyptians deliver her food Post 42

Called cops on Zeitgeist Post 43

From Post 30 to 89 Numerous deleted vids throughout this late June 2017 period Smutley should have all of these and older stuff not sure if the dates of his files would match up with the dates of the posts, but either way, we should ask him to determine the scoop. We can deal with that after we get the initial outline squared away. I think that would be easier then going on PH and trying to figure it out. You agree?

1200 YT Subs Post 54

Deleted vid Brits, Jews smart, banned from KF etc Post 56

Deleted vid Farms, Anglos, gangstalk, Asians Post 60

Deleted vid Post 62

Smutley Post 65, 66, 73 lots of YT exchanges with him

Deleted vid Post 71, 72

Smutley Post 73 YT exchanges with him

Zeitgeist Post 74 Marissa emails

July 1/17 Smutley Post 77 her taking down Smutley YT channel

From Post 60 to 81 lots of stuff from Smutley, ZG, interactions, lots of deleted vids during this period that would have a lot of good soundbites and her flipping out, calling cops etc.

Jul 7, 2017 Post 82 Deleted vid Marissa crying, too much for poster’s feels

Post 84-89 YT Gallery closed

July 9/17 Smutley Posts 90-92

This one traces her email address used in takedown YT channel notice and finds comments left and Marissa interacting from July 4-5 2011. Corrupt music industry, occult, satanism, Kate Bush, her music tastes corkboard mention, flipout over comparison to KB, Joni Mitchell, rednecks, lives in NYC, lots of flip outs, good section of posts.

Null Post 93 Marissa spazzing out in other thread

Post 97 link to SF article on 1000 CD

Null Post 98 Marissa sockpuppets out to spergatory? Was it done?

Smutley Posts 102 Marissa Marchant freakvox@charter.net violet_fleur@earthlink.net 2004-2005, link to Oct 2004 post on Marissa on TransBuddha board, Norah Jones, Bela Fleck talking to her she thinks.

Post 103 link to Marissa pretending to be her BF from Aug 2003 on MusicPlayerNetwork board

Post 105 Deleted vid 'Marissa Elene Grzebieniak'

Posts 106-113 onward, more deleted vids, pretending people buy her stuff, prtending not to be her

Post 112 Smutley

Post 114 Many links to old stuff from web, Curtis Inst

Post 116 refs video from Dec 2016 about parents contacting, have to sell stuff, donate a penny

Post 117 Maerisza Sabrael link to Dec 2005 article, more links

Post 119 and 122 Dox, also shows 64 or 69 as bdate

Post 125 link to wrong Marissa bio showing 75 as birthyear?

Post 127 more links to wrong Marissa?, link to ilxor Dec 2003 thread

Post 128 Tommy Tooter x-over

Post 129 Smutley confirms backing up all vids

Post 132 Marissa’s liked YT vids

Post 136 Jon Leidecker on whywelisten.marckate.com/ July 3/17 podcast makes fun of Marissa

Post 140 IAmReality links to two of Marissa’s better songs from early 2000s deleted vids

Post 151 Smutley posts link to DailyMotion channel with EVERY video, now dead

Post 154 Rachzel Grezbian

July 20, 2017 Smutley Posts 157-158 Marissa making lots of crazy vids, numerous topics (the broken link theme continues unabated onward to 164, Brianna Wu, FBI contacted, hacked her comp

Post 165 /cow/ noticing Marissa

Post 169 Smutley trying to reinstate DailyMotion channel, suggest title change to real name, add address to it

Post 171 Robert McKim vid comments with Marissa, screenshot of Tommy Tooter comment to Marissa

Post 174 TT vid comments with Marissa

Post 178 Marissa Elene Nadieja

Post 181 More Robert McKim

Post 183 deleted vid, her health

July 24/17 Smutley Post 179 PornHub channel link 215 videos most recent from Oct/18, but the names are altered

Post 185 Smutley deleted vid she’s healthy, forgive pedos, no mental illnesses, hasn’t drank for 6 years, Smutley sent email to her warning about TT

Post 187 Link to broken vid Your Days of Criminal Activity online Are On A Life Support System!

Smutley Post 192, deleted vid attacking Smutley, pedo apologist added to thread title

Post 195 deleted vid, wrong genetics, wrong mutations

Post 199 Smutley post about 4 VR archives on YT, links to broken YT playlists

Aug 5/17 Post 200 short videos posted walking in fog whispering

Post 202 IAMReality post about Abnormal Smooth Pursuit eye movement

Aug 10/17 Post 203 deleted vid about amla oil/dry fasting, since it is out of the ordinary, would be good to find it so can use as point to date prior videos if they are in any kind of order of when they were recorded on PH or in Smutley’s current possession.

Aug 18/17 Post 204, Trump, Kim, nuclear war, fukushima, deleted vid

Oct 23/17 Smutley Post 206 Note gap 2 months with no activity, Marissa posting many vids, Reddit call her crazy racist, ramping up VR gallery again, dad almost phd, America given back to Indians, musician etc. great ramble this one would be, etc etc, huge post, many deleted vid links, a lot of different topics from crazy. Those will be great to have

Jan 21/18 MysteriousStranger Post 208 Note 3 month gap in activity, many deleted vid links, titled, white supremacist, school, shooter, move to Norway, not racist, flatearthers

Jan 21/18 Smutley Post 211 Smutley says still backing up, many links to recent videos with proper titles on PH, this post will help

Post 214, deleted vid, comments on vid about KF

Feb 1/18 Post 218 links to 5 deleted vids, titled, numerous comments on them by Marissa

Post 225, Hitler titled video reference, Marissa says “prick” deleted 25 min vid

Posts 226-230 some info about Marissa, deleted vid showing pics of Null, Rachel Flowers rant

Feb 5/18 Smutley Post 243 many links to recent videos with proper titles on PH, this post will help

Post 244 MS Post link to deleted vid You're NOT Allowed To Access My Music!! Due To Your Interest In Talentless Nobodies, GOOD RIDDANCE!!

Feb 5/18 Post from me this is when I first backed up to my burner YT channel. I abbreviated the title to just the first ltr of each word in the original title. I also went back on Jun 9/18 and edited the post to add the video directly to the post I made. I did this updating of my old posts to try and fix broken links from this point forward as much as I was able to. The vid in this post was a huge rant at KF.

Review Posts 1- 250

LINKS TO OLD STUFF/OTHERS

ALIASES

STALKED

FAKERY

KF INTERACTIONS


Feb 8/18 Post 276 YT vid phone convo with TT

Smutley

Post 251, links to recent videos with proper titles on PH

Post 256, doxing of Smutley, YT comments, numerous emails between Marissa and Smutley

Post 258, link long rant PH video titled Kiwi Farms Put Me All Over Porn Sites, Cos Of Them, You Can No Longer Hear my Music! Unless.....

Post 265, $1000 to hear her music again YT comment

Post 329, Another list of links with proper titles to recent vids now on PH, probably deals with many of the vids Marissa made after his last update post 258

Post 339, mentions YourUnclesDad being removed from YT, so may be source of videos as well, links to PN recent video and Sex with Smutley vid

Post 340, 3 vids calling out Smutley

TOPICS/OBSESSIONS

FAMILY


Feb 18/18-Post 357, Marissa mom died previous day

Post 359, YT comments from Marissa

Mar 2/18Post 372,mom obit, old pics

VIDEOS/YT

Post 264, deleted vid I Feel So Happy! I Have A New Life And New Music Channel That You Will Never Find! Who Cares!

Posts 274, 278, 279, numerous deleted vids with titles

Post 288, Marissa YT comment, getting help from FBI, fake porn etc. Her focus in her vids are all KF oriented still. Started using mixtape as a backup site and those links are dead, so may be some missing vids again around this period if Smutley didn’t back up.

Posts 292-295, Broken mixtape link Marissa called cops, YT comments about them attending her house

Feb 9/18-Post 301, New channel Vefreyja Ragnhilde

Post 312, deleted vid I Reported Them To The FBI This Morning, My Music Is Temporarily Down, I Need Your Help!

Posts from 313-328, broken mixtape links, a number of vids, one Marissa talks about ill relative, talks about KF

Post 330, broken mixtape link

Post 341, broken mixtape links, proper titles

Posts 342-356, more vids no links, vid showing screenshots of harassing emails, troll emails from TJChurch, CWC, TT

Post 377, deleted vid

MS Post 378 quickly deleted vids (were they archived?)

Posts 353, 388 deleted vids My posts, no archive and I didn’t save

Post 393 link to progarchives thread, needs looking into depper

MS Post 399 deleted vid, says backed up on HD

IAM Post 400 and Post 403 deleted vid, scared IAmR, comments about it, should find it.

Apr 9/18 Post 404 from me, this vid is mirrored on my YT channel, vid title Living OFF The Grid, MY GOAL, Want To Come Healthy Human Goal

IAmR Post 406 deleted vid Get To Know The REAL Me, Iconoclastic, Very High Self-Esteem, Confident – I don’t have it

Apr 13/08 MS Post 408 Attempted break in of Marissa’s car

Post 410 deleted vid –Post 414 has her comments from the video

Post 418 deleted vid – Freely banana girl

Post 420 deleted vid –Vid title I'm Throwing My Computer Out, Living Off the Grid, Survival Without Corporate Control

MS Post 422 Marissa deleted her channel

IAmR Post 424 lots of links about mental conditions

Post 425 from me, This is when I started regularly saving her vids and mirroring them on my channel. This post has many vids I would have posted in my previous 2 or 3 posts. I should have most if not all of her vids from this date forward. Post 414 has her comments from the video

MS Post 428 Link to ED page

IAmR Posts 429, 433, 446 PMs from Marissa, thinks he is Bethann

Post 441 from me, Backed up video, NEED TO ADD OTHER 5 titled: Marissa Elene Nadieja Intro Original Modern Artwork On Sale, Mysterious woman at train New Dorp New York City, Marissa Elene Nadieja Goes Shopping For Curtains, Marissa Elene Nadieja says Hello Learning to Make New Videos Be Patient I Have Good Reasons To Not Do Music Online, Delete All Channels, Corporate Take Over

Posts 442 to 460 numerous videos, UPDATE MY POSTS

Post 463 from me, I Am Deleting This Channel, And My Website, Soon You Will Only Hear Me On Porn Hub

Post 465 Major Corporations Paid Someone To Put Me On Porn HubDefamation, You Can Buy My Music

Post 465 from me, Backed up videos Corporations Pay To Harass, Defame Mom And Pop Businesses, I Don't Care If You Remove My Channel Report And Remove This And All The Fraud and Defamation on Porn Sites Or GOODBYE I Have No One That Appreciates My Music, Deleting This Channel @ My Website

Apr 25/18 MS Post 468 Marissa deleted her channel

Apr 26/18 MS Post 471 Computers, Smartphones Are For Losers And Weirdos, I Will Not Be Partaking In The Internet Anymore!

Post 473 You Will NEVER Have My Music On The Net, Due To Stealing, Defamation, No Appreciation

Smutley Post 475 Another long list of links with proper titles to recent vids now on PH, probably deals with many of the vids Marissa made after his last update post 339

Post 477 from me, NEED TO FIX LINKS

Post 479 Link to new channel, now deleted svefreyja greta ragnhild

Post 480 from the new channel, 2 vids from July 2017 Never to come back onlibe Ate my videos fair use

Post 483 Marissa using Basia Louderbach to comment on RF vids

Post 486 SGR channel down

Post 490 from me, the 2 old 2015 videos

Post 491 Link to new channel, now deleted Shobian Paddy

Post 493 from me, link to old demo recordings I put on Soundcloud, link to channel that is now Heythere Happiness

MS Post 494 Message! Go To Svefreyja Greta Ragnhild's Channel. She Will Communicate There

MS Post 496 Nachricht auf Deutsch zu den Deutschen Musik-liebhabern. Hallo, mein name ist Svefeyja Greta Ragnhild. bitt schau in meinen Kanal nach neuen Videos

"Virgo Rouge" "Marissa Elienne" "Marissa Marchant" "Maerisza Sabrael" “Marissa Elene Grzebieniak' “Maerisza Sabrael” “Rachzel Grezbian” “Marissa Elene Nadieja” “Vefreyja Ragnhilde” “Signey Ragnhilde” “Svefreyja Greta Ragnhild” “Basia Louderbach” “Shobian Paddy”
 
It sounds to me like she thinks that men are gross.

Not ok for a dude to try to force-fuck her while talking dirty to her and gave her a black eye. Maybe some women get off on that but no thanks.

But from the rest of what she is saying, it sounds like she doesn't understand men. She misunderstands their intentions, misreads them.

I actually don't think that there is much that is funny about this person. She sounds shy and lonely and confused.



They ruined that girl.

Killing a bird, in a dryer? There is no hellfire hot enough ....

She was terrorized. I am crying for her, and the little bird. Fly little bird, fly free.🕊

When I read her bio/timeline, tears came streaming out of my eyes. She can't bond with anybody, look at what happened when she loved a dog and a little bird. She lives in a world of fantasy, illusion and music, and in her own mind, she is beautiful. Too beautiful. At least she won't destroy herself. Nobody can torture and kill the little bird and the little girl, again, if she comes up with reasons to push people away.

Please have mercy on this woman. She made a righteous choice in not perpetuating such evil. She is coping the best she can.
Then don't read or post in the fucking thread. As a matter of fact stop posting period.
 
I miss Marissa's rants
Me too. I used to sperg out when I was bored and figure out the average per video she did her little things like bringing up Rachel flowers, zooming in on that Spanish Stevie Nick's woman's nipple, or my favorite, her smug teeth sucking. This Syd Barrett thing isn't nearly as amusing as the day to day " I love you Daddy! / I hate you Daddy!" Those were fun.
 
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