Severe_Register4369 [score hidden] 23 hours ago
I'm not straight, I am Pan, but I do like topping a lot and being dominant, but way to often when I try to I get pressured into bottoming and it really fucks with me.
I have found that kink communities are a lot better, specifically kink people who have been in the community for an extended period of the time and actually understand what real dominance is.
I rarely get to explore being dominant or a top because of all the pressure from every partner I try to have to bottom, even when they agree to let me top it still has this vibe their doing me a favor. I really, really, really struggle with women for some reason.
Cis women are damn near impossible for me to pick up, or when I do they get uncomfortable with my anatomy and quickly bail, or start asking if I'm a lesbian or something.
Its really frustrating trying to top as a pre surgery trans guy cause it just feels like everyone's doesn't really see you as a top or a dom.
apolloinjustice- 25 and pre-T [score hidden] 22 hours ago
im neither straight nor a strict top (bi switch/vers if it matters) but i know exactly where youre coming from. it sucks. full disclosure, i havent put myself out there in the dating scene for several reasons, dysphoria being one, so im not familiar with that rejection. but the need to be seen and desired sexually as a man, as masculine and dominant, that is deeply familiar.
im beyond happy for trans men that dont need or want to feel/behave that way and i hope they have happy fulfilling lives. but i hate that the expectation for trans men is to soften and sand down our masculinity because other people dont know how to handle it or feel uncomfortable because of it (to be clear, not blaming these other trans men for this kind of treatment, this behavior towards us is rooted in transphobia and misogyny, not because there are trans men that dont feel/want to be masculine).
theres also the flip side of that, where because we werent born with a penis we arent "allowed" or havent "earned" the right to be and behave masculinely. i dont get it! i am a man, why cant i be treated as one!
i dont have any advice, but i wish i did. i think i just rehashed your post on accident (sorry lol) but i hope it helps to know youre not alone

i just have to hope that ill eventually find people who see and love and desire me for the man i am, and i guess in order to find them i need to continue living as exactly that. a lot easier said than done.
cubiles [score hidden] 22 hours ago
I am so happy that someone posted about this!! YES. A thousand percent yes… it’s painful sometimes being in certain spaces because I feel like I don’t fit. I relate to everything you mentioned, particularly the sex part… my wife enjoys it
but that moment of “oh, hold on while I strap up” really kills the mood sometimes and it just eats me up inside how I’ll never be able to penetrate her and have that connection with her. It sucks but no one can relate to me in local support groups so I just stopped going.
[–]atrociousoddity [score hidden] 20 hours ago
I’m totally with you here. Especially the strap part. My wife doesn’t bat an eye at it or mind but I feel so much shame, embarrassment, insecurity, etc that I start shutting down. Same with the support groups too, couldn’t fit in with them. Too straight, too close to being cis, too masculine, whatever it is I’m not queer enough for them because I’m “just trans”.
[–]cubiles [score hidden] 14 hours ago
Yep, had that same experience too and was judged when I voiced liking some aspects of the “traditional” male/female roles in relationships. But that is “toxic masculinity”… is it toxic if my wife also likes how our relationship is structured ? It’s ridiculous.
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8/21/21 [score hidden] 21 hours ago
i don't call myself a straight man anymore, but i am male-presenting, a dom top, and attracted exclusively to women and femmes.
i get the desire to want to "fuck like a man" and how bottom dysphoria gets in the way. i've had many, many unreciprocated crushes on straight women and felt deeply insecure about knowing that i'd probably have a better chance with them if i was cis.
my girlfriend is the perfect feminine compliment to my masculinity and being with her has done wonders for my dysphoria honestly. i feel so much more confident and more masculine, socially and sexually.
in part, you are responsible for working on your own self-esteem and you shouldn't rely exclusively on anyone else's validation. but having a partner who makes you feel sexy for how strong and masculine you are is really a game changer. i hope you get to experience that soon, if you haven't already.
anyway, if there are any spaces specifically for trans men/transmascs in your area, i find those to be better than general "queer" spaces. i go to a meetup for trans men every month and it's been great. we get men of varying sexualities and presentations and no one is judged or excluded.