Whenever I write up a post denigrating her hedonistic behaviors, Nikki gives me a Lol sticker. That could be interpreted a few different ways; is it laughing because someone else cared enough to say something? Is it to spite someone of a different view, with different values? Perhaps something specific in the chosen words made her laugh.
My read on it, however, is that it is laughter spawned of self-deprecation. "Yeah, I know I'm living a sordid and empty life. Isn't that pathetic? Haha!" Though she makes my skin crawl, I can't help but feel sad about that - despite my better judgment.
I would be wasting my time were I to, at length, wax compassionate about the state of any of the people involved here, but I feel compelled to at least remind Nikki that it is never too late to say "I'm tired of being like this" and take measures to start living a better life, divorced from the squalor and decay, and the endless chasing of cheap pleasures that devalue and demoralize the soul. And I don't mean in the ways which she has asserted in past statements, that only a fool would believe anyway. It's never too late to decide you want to live an upright life. I offer this reminder to Nikki - treacherous, bug-eating, dump-dwelling, retard enabler and hedonist that she chooses to be - because she is the only one that seems to have any sense of self-awareness in this mess, which puts her at a distinct advantage over her peers.
@Sekhmet666 Stop romanticizing your dysfunction and see it for what it is. Drop the ego and look at the sum and total of your decisions. Then do something about it, not for anyone else, but for yourself.
This is the extent of the time I'm willing wager towards this end, done so mainly because I don't think I've made one civil post addressed to her - not that she's owed one.
