A Grand Guntmas to all. I hope Santalah gave you all the raped crosses and on camera water-bottle showers you've earned in this festive posting year.
This post is a tad different because I've been busy and lost the context for a pile of quotes I had queued up to respond to but I think this format should be fine.
Withdrawl: Don't worry, I'm not drug sperging.
But I do think a lot of people are taking Chantal too seriously and at face value when she talks about her "withdrawal symptoms".
She has a lot of health problems and it's very likely she is experiencing a lot of physical issues that the weed caused/helped her ignore/made worse but more than that she is looking for a way to extend her lazy apartment sealing.
She needs to hustle right now, and she made A LOT of promises to he beezers that got her back home about content, but she's stupid, lazy and more than that she's sulking that Daddy YouTube said he wouldn't pay for her to slop nasty beige mush into her deformed gob anymore.
All this crap about being in recovery is just another way to put off any effort for one more day. To start it all in the new year when she'll totally be motivated and get that six pack. We know she'll never wake up motivated though and every day she puts it off is another pound on her bent skeleton making it even more painful, boring and annoying to start.
There's the added fear she has to that effort-content will make her money as well, and that's no good.
If it brings in the coin then people will point to it next time she begs and she'll have to put effort in
again.
People will start having expectations. You can't say "no I'm incapable of that' if people have you on film doing it a week ago.
What she's hoping is to prove that she can still cash in on doing nothing/eating and continue to ride that wave.
That's why she's whining to us that other streamers do it and make bank so she should be able to too! It's only fair!! *
She occasionally admits that she's scared to "get better" and I fully believe this. It's not because people will stop watching though, it's because, as I said above, more will be expected of her and she just does not want that.
Eating, being high and getting paid to half-assidly interact with her chat is her happy place. It's hard for most of us to imagine but it's true.
Her fat, while both restricting and killing her, is her armour against the world. It's her justifications not just to us, but
to herself.
Shes amazing and great and could totally work a real job if she were in shape, but she's not so oh well. She could absolutely get a hot boyfriend without paying if she were a skinny queen but until then she'll rent.
It's easier to say the fat is the problem then have to admit she is just too spoiled, stupid, lazy and mean to have jobs, partners or a happy life. Her ego would never let her admit that, even if it means creating artifical barriers through fat or lies.
Salah: I've seen a few comments that seem confused as to why shes clinging to this idea of him even though it was all fake, and while I truly believe most of it stems from the idea she (and Boogie, and Russell Greer and a lot of incel-esque cows) has about just needing them to let her in the door and then they'll fall in love with her amazing personailty (whichever persona she's wearing for that man at least), I think this all hit harder for another reason too.
She clung to Nadar because she is terrified of how a new man will react to her grotesque form and non-existent hygiene** BUT she always had that safety net of being able to buy a new man if he ever did permanently shut the door.
I believe a lot of this spiral is her seeing that the one thing she had that guaranteed some desperate man would at least pretend she was "worthy" isn't going to fly anymore.
When she bought Salah she
thought she could offer citizenship. She really believed that. Now she knows she can't
The money was also never supposed to run out, that's why it never needed to be saved up. Now she can't offer that either. She wasted her time and money on Salah because she also didn't realize he couldn't offer
her citizenship in no-income-tax Kuwait (which is something I will always bring up because it is always hilarious to me. They're both so frigging stupid) and he failed to fall in love with her charming personality.
She knows she won't (and doesn't want to) work on her looks or nasty personality so she really just now has NO routes to a new "husband". It's for this reason that I believe she'll cling harder (and crash harder) on a real, actual emotional level (rather than a childish obsession and because it's just "easier" like with Nadar) over Salah.
(Mobile fagging and my autocorrect is out of control. Trying to correct all the changes as I go but I may miss some, my apologies)
(Still catching up on the Christmas streams, just writing a bit of this here and there in my holiday downtime.)
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* For the poor readers popping in: This is her train of thought, not mine. Do not DM me to let me know that those streamers are charismatic and life isn't fair.
I am aware some retards just get free rides.
** I also believe this is one of the reasons she is purposely gross on camera; she knows she's physically filthy but by putting it all out there publicly she's hoping her "love interest" will see it beforehand and go onto a relationship already aware she is disgusting and not comment or expect her to change.
She tries so hard to normalize some of her most disturbing hygiene issues because honestly I think she is embarrassed by them, but if she shows us / them then at least it's already out there so no one can "shame" her for it.
An interesting comment she made when she was losing her mind in Canada about Salah was that he knew what she was like "before" so it was stupid of him to get mad at her for it or try to change her, but I highly doubt he watched all (if any) of her videos.
He's a low IQ romance scammer so there is no reason he would deep dive into her habits or channel. He knew she was fat, desperate and offering money / Canada.
She also said she wanted to essentially be trained to be a muslim housewife (with the goal of making Nadar jealous but still) so he probably thought he would just have to tell her to stop farting or drooling sauces down her face and she would.
As we know though she was too stupid and stubborn to be house-trained, even when it was her express desire to do so.
she could outdo the romance scammer into actually loving her back
Just a quick note on this because it didn't really fit into my Salah speel above: she wanted him to fall for
her and love
her but not for a moment did she ever love him.
She loved the idea of him, and when they were just talking online I think she built a bit of feeling for him more akin to excitement or anticipation but something VERY early on in their meeting killed any strong feelings she had for him and it was quite obvious.
I don't know what it was though, was it the reality of his living space in Kuwait? seeing him in person? maybe handing over the cash and realizing all the extra fluff about soul mates was just to get her (and the 9k) there? But that genuine excitement she'd get talking to or about Nadar, or that other guy really early on (Nick?) was gone the moment this went IRL.
It's strange because he did play his role on camera and does look at least better than Nadar (low bar) but either something was happening off screen that no amount of Burger deliveries or on screen "my loves" could fix and/or she did genuinely love (in her own way) something about Nadar that even Nadar himself couldn't squash.
I struggle with that idea because he was just so awful and I thought it was just her love of money and drama that saw her swooning over even his worst traits. Thinking more on it though, given how dulled her senses are in every way even being able to feel that much hate for someone is probably exciting for her.
She always bitches about how easily she's bored and how she hates learning new things, doing new things and meeting new people and to alleviate that boredom she will either eat or rage.
I think are the only two things that elicite ANY kind of elevated emotional response from her. And when you can't feel anything naturally, some people cling to the only things that do let them feel, even if its negative.
I wonder now if thats why she "loved" Nadar so much. Peetz is boring, the cats are just props and her family offers no conflict or push back. When she was "good" with Nadar she actually felt good, much like those manic moments we see when she moves to a new place, and when it was bad it was still
something.
My best guess is Salah, knowing his pay was coming either way, just bored her too quickly. He wouldn't "love" her in private like Nadar pretended to, or even play house because that isn't part of the deal, but he also wouldn't fight because why would he?
He seems passive by nature any way, but why argue or stand there while some over bloated river corpse screamed at you in a language you barely understand when you can lock her in her apartment and go on a real date on her dime?
It wasn't until they were forced to share a space in Thailand that he really had to put up with her, and I think thats why it exploded in Syria too.
But I'm way off my original point which was just that she never loved Salah, and honestly for most their time together probably didn't even know him.
BUT
He WAS supposed to fall for her.
Which given just everything about her is...
wild.
edit: there is no need for me to say this but my favourite Guntmas present that Chantal gave us is pulling her turtleneck shirts up to her bottom lip again.
Its so retarded and I live for it.
