A troon is maddened when Asmongold takes a MTF YouTuber to task over the debate on pediatric transition. OP seems under the impression that if normal people knew merely a fraction of his suffering, that we might sympathize with his plight, but doesn't realize that many lost sympathy due to proximity to dark entities like him. The real funny part of this one, however, is one commenter stating "
The only reason these people are relevant is because the internet is global and many third worlders like their content. If it was only developed nations, they would fall off so quickly." Seems kinda racist, there, don't you think?
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Last time i made a vent post again it was about a different Ytuber i liked to watch, even though it was pretty obvious, that atleast as they person they were showing themselves as, that they were unhinged in a way.
This time i an talking about someone that is sadly one of the Biggest Streamers in the General Twitch and YT community, Asmongold.
There is a Trans Ytuber/VTuber that had issues with Asmongold in the past (NyaraYT) and earlier today she uploaded a video about another drama regarding the things asmongold is making people think she says and using her idea of protecting trans kids and helping to allow trans kids to get puberty blockers, to frame it as grooming and predator behavior. (Btw his reaction is 3minutes long, so he didnt even watch the video it seems, which wouldnt surprise me. Tbough it is from his clips channel)
Nyara made a 25 minute video today and Asmongold already reacted to it and as always the comments on his reaction video are filled with Bigotry and hate towards the Trans Community as well as queer people in general to a part. One comment framed it as
"the TQ ruins what LBG stood for." Like what the fuck do you mean.
I wish so much those people, that hate on us so much would for one day get to experience the hate and especially the huge amounts of Dysphoria some of us have to deal with on a daily basis. And then tell me again how they feel about those issues, their are enough trans kids on this earth that literally went to their parents crying as children because they learned they arent on the outside what they are on the inside.
Like boys/girls learning about puberty and finding out they dont want what people think should be normal for them, they dont want to go through puberty and grow up in the way that they were born.
When i see bigotry like this it always makes me angry and hate those kinds of people.
https://youtu.be/3Qgx2dY8Zvc?si=gJRZyLI4Kz8sOimWThis is the video from Nyara that was uploaded today, feel free to check her out and give it a listen.
I wanted to comment on Asmongolds video so bad and argue against those people, but i dont want to boost his video in any way shape or form, i stopped it as it started, downvoted and downvoted some of the,sadly way to many, bigoted comments.
Sry if you people are now upset to, but i would say its justified
. Being trans is already hard enough, we dont need more people shooting against us.
A TiF begrudgingly makes peace with the idea that the only ones who might want to have sex with her are bisexuals, given that gay men and straight women find her repulsive. What she's blissfully unaware of, however, is how many bisexuals - despite their reputation for low standards - also find the whole "ice cream with pepperoni and cheese" vibe of your average tranner's anatomy to be unpleasant.
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I am bisexual and all my past relationships have been with other (cis) bisexuals, men or women.
I have always felt safe with other bisexuals because I know most of them don't really care if their partner is trans. But
with cishet girls or cis gay men, it's a completely different story, I always expected the worst from cishet people, so I'm not even that surprised anymore when one of them is transphobic, but someone who is gay (or even lesbian)? What's happening in our community?
Every week I open social media and see someone saying the most transphobic thing I've ever seen, and when I look at their profile, it's a cis homossexual, I know that no one is obligated to find us attractive, but actively hating us for no reason is so crazy.
I know that this "LGB without the T" movement mostly happens online, and in real life few gay people actually support it, but it's still heartbreaking to see some cis gay man post something saying he got a trans boyfriend or anything like that, and then see dozens of transphobic gay men saying that he's actually a "straight man who is dating a fujoshi girl" or other horrible transphobic things (I also see lesbian terfs talking shit about our trans sisters who like women all the time, its so tiring)
We can't even feel safe in our own community anymore because we know that some cisgender homosexuals are literally aligning with right wing parties just to take away the rights of trans people and throw us under the bus. They call us "groomers" "pedos" etc, even though the conservatives they associate with were using the same arguments against them less than 10 years ago.
So, if a cis bi person likes me, or I like them, I know it can work out (even if they don't know I'm trans, which very few people do). But
if a cis mono person likes me or i like them but they don't know im ftm, I just tell myself that this isn't going to work and move on, I don't want anyone telling me to my face that they don't want me only because of my lower parts or that I may have deceived them or some shit like that. I know there are some lovely cis people out there, and that I have some internalized transphobia, but perhaps this "method" has saved me and will save me from rejections or hateful people in the future lol
ps:
As I finished writing this, I opened Twitter and the first tweet that appeared was from a guy with "homofascist" in his username referring to gay/bi trans men as 'straight females'. Being trans and on social media is truly only for the strong ones
Though he tries to ingratiate himself with other members of his crossdressing clade, a TiM is struggling to get chummy with the plankton in his bucket because he's realizing all trannies are mean and fucked-up autistic perverts. Thankfully his mental Metropolis is saved when Captain Copium comes flying in as he rationalizes that perhaps their misbehavior is due to "people going through tough times" and "gender envy." Whatever helps you sleep at night, hoss - though if you have a lot of tranny friends, I advise a lock on your door, and perhaps a salt ring for good measure.
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Heres a quick list of the events this year:
- One trans girls consistently trying to convince me that non binary afab people rule the world and are evil even after telling her I disagreed, and to quit it with that.
- Being called transmedicalist for saying people should be able to transition as early as they can and that the main obstacles arent "personal journeys but systematic limitations
- Being called a passoid. While not speaking english. In a room full of cis doods (an arcade).
- A trans girl approached me and asked to do a group work with me in one class in uni. I asked which name to use with the teacher, she told me her name and said her name, only for during a class correcting me and the teacher and saying her deadname without ever elaborating in private. Also never did nothing for the project.
- Multiple times being approached by poly people (happened again today with the same person) even when saying explicitly im not into poly relationships and a few tried to debate it to me (not this person).
- Being called chubby unprompted (happened today again) or having my stomach grabbed without my consent. In two cases I was explicit I felt insecure about my weight. (Not today)
- The person who called me transmedicalist calling me a loser for drinking beer in an lgbt bar in loud voice enough for me to hear to tables apart while music was playing. Thankfully this time one of the girls from the group left and came to talk with me.
- One date a trans girl went into hours about her hyperfocus hobbies, when I was able to talk she called my taste in games, animes and music boring. Afterwards tried to sugest to have sex and became annoyed when I said no.
- One trans girl trying to convince me to buy diy from her (emphasis on this) for 30 minutes and how not taking diy would make my transition fail and dying of cancer or something.xenophobia, culture shocks.
Some of the issues may come as petty, others may seem a bit more serious, but t
he common element is just trans girls being extremely unhinged around me this year (I been out since 2014). I admit since july
I have also become extremely on edge around other trans girls. I have tried to find what is causing this with friends and other trans women and the only reasons they have come are:
people are going through tough times, gender envy,
A fat crippled fujoshi is upset that she can't get her Brokeback Mountain moment and is instead cruelly recognized for being a gender-conforming straight girl whenever she wishes to don more feminine attire. She specifies just how much she wants the "heartbreak that is shown in cisgender gay media," desiring to "have [my] crime be loving someone." "I watch what little queer media I have, and all I can think is, it's not fair," she weeps pitifully. "I'd rather be able to hide with someone I loved and someone who loved me as a boy than hide alone and scared because I want to recognize myself." I'm sure the gay Russians thrown off of roofs can understand how you feel, OP. Solidarity!
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i'm not really sure how to go about explaining this but
ever since i was little i knew deep down i was meant to be a boy and i knew something was wrong. i started coming to terms with the fact i was trans around 13 or 14 but i don't think i ever really accepted that im always gonna be this way.
for a while now the biggest trigger ive ever had for gender dysphoria is knowing that im a gay guy and wanting so desperately for that to be my only step. i wanted the joy of that and the pain yet i can never be just that, a gay guy. im always gonna be a Trans gay guy and hold two secrets instead of one. the thing is,
im very queer and i know that about myself. i enjoy doing drag and being queer and not conforming to gender roles or clothing roles but within all that at my core i am a queer guy. and its hard accepting that im not gonna wake up as if i had been born male one day and i so desperately want the kind of connection,
including the heartbreak that is shown in cisgender gay media. i want to have another boy in this with me and my "crime" to be loving someone but instead im left feeling confused and lost that i wasnt given the right body and people will always define me as Trans. i do not dislike being trans. i find so much joy in my queerness but i wish so much that i didnt have the extra steps. and the people around me don't understand. i barely have any friends and my family doesnt know im Trans and would not understand it or even try to understand that im gay too.
i wanted to have to hide skirts and wear them as protest not be encouraged to wear them as conformity. and i wish so badly i could be someone's boyfriend. i watch what little queer media i have and all i can think is, its not fair. i don't want the pain and harassment and hate that comes with being queer and gay but id rather be able to hide with someone i loved and someone who loved me, as a boy; than hide alone and scared all because i want to recognize myself.
im not sure if this makes sense but if anyone knows somewhat i mean or can relate i just need help finding how im supposed to cope with the fact
ill never get the kinda relationship cis gay men get as teenagers and young adults and know what it feels like to grow up a boy and just that, not a trans boy, just a boy. it sucks and
being disabled and overweight only makes coping harder and the hope i might find someone even less likely sometimes. i just need someone's advice or anything anyone can say to tell me it gets better eventually or how i can cope with the fact its never gonna be different.
El problema con las hermanas: a Spanish-speaking dood is upset that her 6-year-old sister was once deluded into believing she was a boy, but now firmly understands her to be a girl; this is hurting OP's feelings because "she used to be the only one who treated me like a boy in my house." Personally, I love when kids say the darndest things, so I hope she continues bullying OP relentlessly with her aggressive understanding of reality.
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Well, I have a 6-year-old sister, and
lately she’s been making a lot of comments that have made me feel really sad.
In my family,
it was always forbidden for me to talk about this topic in front of my sister, because they said they didn’t want her to have too much information since she’s very young. Of course,
I don’t agree with that way of thinking, but I still stayed quiet to avoid unnecessary arguments.
Even so,
since my little sister started talking, she has always referred to me as “brother” and as “a boy.” I speak Spanish, so what she used to say when she was younger was that I was “el nene” (the boy), but
my parents quickly turned it into a silly nickname and started calling me “la nene.”
Still,
my sister would often make comments saying that I’m a boy, and luckily my parents would just scold me in private (the funny thing is that I never said anything to her, she’s just very perceptive). But in the past few months, things have changed.
I had a boyfriend some time ago, and at first my sister was mad at me because she said I should have a girlfriend. Then, a few days ago,
she started saying that I’m a girl because you can notice my chest (it’s summer and I had to wear a bikini at home because of the heat).
I discreetly told her that I’m not a girl, but she just started arguing with me and insisting that I am one—obviously with the innocence of a small child. The problem is that
these comments are constant and she says them in front of other people, like my grandparents, so I end up in a lot of uncomfortable situations.
Honestly, I don’t know how to explain this to her without getting myself into trouble, but
these comments really hurt me, especially because she used to be the only one who treated me like a boy in my house.
A God-fearing gooner uses faith, trust and pixie dust to justify trooning out (even referencing an event in which a Holocaust survivor forgiving a Nazi that had worked at the camp he had been tortured at), but though he risks paralysis from how far he's reaching for straws, his wife remains unimpressed. She immediately calls him an abomination and proceeds to out him to her mother and sister, which he considers unfair, but he refuses to divorce her and leave due to a lucrative job he works that he intends to use to fund his transformation. All we can do from here on out is send representatives carrying sacks of doorknobs to inform OP's wife of
Pickle's Law.
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TW: self-harm
My (35mtf) egg cracked a few weeks ago. My cis wife (37f) has not been taking it well. We are both pretty strongly religious.
I even went to the Southern Baptist Theological Seminary. Unlike most others, my faith in Jesus has made me rather liberal.
After a week of a serious existential crisis, I came to the conclusion most of you already see coming. I looked on my life and realized how it has always been there in the background for as long as I can remember, I only realized it now.
Like many religious trans people, I looked into conversion therapy, hoping there was a way to cure gender dysphoria. But it doesn't work. I believe in the power of the Holy Spirit to resolve every manner of sin and trauma.
There is even one extreme example of a Holocaust survivor meeting the officer of his encampment in a the same church decades later and forgiving him. And despite that power, there are no known cases of conversion therapy or CBT doing anything more than repression, depression, anxiety, and guilt? My only conclusion is that
trans-ness must be a medical problem with a medical solution. And in my research,
I found studies showing secondary biological factors in transfems like certain genetic mutations and alterations in brain structure. Rather than a rejection of "God's created order," I see transitioning for me as bringing it into alignment.
Then I came out to my wife first. I think coming out to one's spouse first is the right thing to do, and she could clearly see I was distraught that whole week, so something was up. Of course, her first guess was cheating.
Since I told her a couple weeks ago, the abom------n word has come up four times. She has several times repeated "Jesus never met with the gay, lesbian, or trans. He even met with prostitutes and Roman soldiers, but never trans."
She asks why I would choose to be "a trans." She has also tossed around the terms "sissy" and "a gay."
Most disturbingly, she said she would rather commit s-----e than go through another divorce. She begged me to end her instead of either one of us filing for divorce. She also outed me to my mother-in-law and sister-in-law, who live with us. We slept head-to-feet last night, which is what she does when she's angry with me.
She was crying all last evening, and it's not manipulative, it's genuine tears. I'm at a loss of how to approach her. We are still in her home (third world) country, I still work for a Christian employer, and I just started a master's degree at a conservative Christian university. I won't take any steps toward transition for the next 18 months. And
despite knowing all that, she is saying this.
Oh, and
when I went to a local gender therapist (advertised as such) before coming out, her conclusion was "I don't think you're trans, I think you're having marital problems." So yeah, that's the state of acceptance here.
Help? Support?
Don't say to quit my job and move countries. I'm making more than I ever did in the US, and I even have time to do my degree at work. And this is a professional degree that very reliably makes six figures. I'll need it to fund a transition. And quit and move at the right time.
After setting her life on fire in pursuit of her yaoi dreams, a gayden is left in lonesome agony this holiday season, her future darkening as she struggles to imagine happiness within it. "I want to find a guy who loves me and cherishes me some day and settle down, start a family," she writes; such a self-inflicted fate you suffer then, my dear, because the kind of men eager to make an honest woman out of you probably aren't going to be pleased by the ass-carpet-hyena-clit setup you've got going on beneath your britches.
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Do things get better? I am in a lot of pain right now that I don't know how to handle it. None of my coping skills work. I am dealing with so much grief and loss its unbearable.
Just lost my support system for the 100th time. This is the 1st time I am spending the holidays without family (parents disowned me). And I want to hug someone and cry. Things seem awful all around, in my personal life and the whole world.
Everytime I dare look at the news something awful has happened.
The pain is so intense it's been making me physically sick that I wonder what I'm sticking around for and have considered taking myself to the hospital from how dysfunctional I am becoming. I have barely been able to eat,
I nearly fainted from crying alone. I have barely been able to sleep, and when I do I dream things are okay, I reconcile with people and everything is back to normal.... then I wake up and realize everything is not fine and wish I could have stayed asleep.
Even in my transition, I am feeling so impatient. Been almost a year on T and my voice hasn't dropped at all, I don't have the physique I want despite hitting the gym. And I feel so unattractive and like no guy will ever want to marry me one day.
Like,
I could go to a bar and hook up with someone. But I want more. I want emotional intimacy. But most men I come across (mostly much older men which is a deal breaker for me due to trauma) only want sex.
I want to find a guy who loves me and cherishes me some day and settle down, start a family. Get my dream job, adopt a dog. Maybe get a house or a nice home. Have an amazing circle of friends who support each other, like a found family. But I am loosing hope.
I need words of consolation or guidance from other older folks please. Please tell me your story and how things got better after you hit rock bottom and you thought they never would. When did they get better for you?
Please tell me how you held onto hope or dealt with the worst days. I need to know things CAN get better.
