I tried to mark this NSFW I cant tell if it worked and now I'm scared it will be deleted. Mods, if possible, please help me mark it NSFW. Also TW, I use basic medical terms for my body for clarity's sake.
In December 2023 I had a one time hookup with a cis-guy from grindr. I had just been broken up with by my LT girlfriend,
I had never been with a guy before except gradeschool, I talked to a lot of guys there before meeting up with him.
We had unprotected PIV sex. I would never do that normally, but I did.
I have been on T since 2014, outwardly pass. This is only relevant for perception's sake.
Immediately afterwards, I had green discharge (think like phlegm when you're sick). I went to urgent care. They gave me an injection for gonorrhea and chlamydia (I think) as well as an antibiotic pill. The staff there couldn't have made it more obvious that they didn't want to deal with me.
The person providing care was cismale and said he wasn't comfortable doing a swab and to come back if symptoms continue.
I didn't go back.
I went through a lot of symptoms. I was convinced I had HIV. I waited just long enough for prep to not be effective after exposure.
I took the city bus to the health department downtown (I can't drive) at 7am and asked to have a full panel STD/STI test. They got me back almost immediately, the woman was very respectful, but didn't know how to properly address me - which I was and am okay with. She told me any STDs would have been cleared by the treatment from UC, and any bloodborne STIs wouldn't have had time to innoculate into my system for the antibodies needed to test positive to be present.
She ended up sending me home, telling me to come back.
I didnt go back.
After about 2 months, I set up an app with Planned Parenthood.
They swabbed my vagina, said it "definitely" tested positive for yeast, and recommended an over the counter cream. I asked if she could give me a full panel test, she said it would be too expensive and I would be better off going to a doctor's office.
I set up an app with my GP, who I was getting my T from at the time. She gave me a swab to do myself, and also did my first pap smear. Said it tested positive for yeast but that was it. I asked for a full panel test and she said my lack of insurance means it would be too expensive.
I tried to set up another app with planned parenthood but
they were full for 3 weeks ahead of time and I never looked again.
I have used the over the counter cream, Vagisil, on and off since the summer of 2024. Sometimes it helps for a few days, sometimes it makes it worse. It never makes it go away.
I don't know what to do. I was told grocery stores will sell full panel tests but not a single store near me has had them. I still don't have insurance. I set up an appointment with a gender treatment clinic (top of the line in OH) and the wait time was 6 months. I waited for my appointment day, confirmed it, everything - only for the morning of to get an email saying the closest location was full and my appointment had been moved somewhere 2 hours way. I don't drive, I couldn't go.
HEAVY TW (genital symptoms):
My vagina almost feels raw. When I lay down at night it becomes extremely noticeable and almost worse than the rest of the time.
It's almost like...the inside of it is crawling...kind of. I don't know how to explain it. I've noticed itching.
I rarely have discharge anymore, but when I do, it is always green and phlegm-like - never white and cottage cheesy which is how the internet describes yeast infection. Sometimes
the symptoms will spread from my vagina to my anus. In early 2024,
I could physically feel INTENSE pain in my hips, my ovaries, my uterus. It was excruciating. Then, after a few months, it stopped, and I haven't had that type of pain since.
I don't know what to do.
The medical field around me doesn't want to help me. I tried all the resources they give us on flyers and commercials, and none of them helped me. I've emotionally given up. I'm convinced this is either an extremely bad infection, or it will be bad enough to give me cervical/ovarian cancer. I don't know.
I need recommendations for treatment. I need someone to tell me there's someone out there in central Ohio who will help me even if I'm a trans man.
The looks on their faces could never compare to how revolting I already feel.
Please. Help me if you can. Thank you.
i saw a couple posts saying that they specifically browse the trans part of the site to decompress when they are sad and it kinda just reads as a repper digitally self harming to stop their tranny thoughts idk i kinda feel bad for a lot of them bc the entire site is quite literally designed to discuss hate... i cant imagine being an active user there i feel like a lot of them are insanely miserable
