Hey everyone sorry for the silence I have just been trying to heal and it’s been rough. Not only have I been dealing with the pain I have also been experiencing cardiac depression and it’s been really difficult. I can’t do any of the things I was used to doing and I also still can’t go back to work yet which is driving me crazy. I came home on a wound vac and I have take an Uber to the hospital every two days to change out the wound vac sponge and tubes which is super painful. I still have a hole in my chest but the top and bottom are sewn up it’s just the center that has a hole now. I know this isn’t going to be forever but the depression is real and it’s so hard to get through the days sometimes especially watching others live life normally and I’m limited to even walking too far for too long and I’m having to sleep in a recliner and miss my bed so much. I can’t even lift anything heavier than a gallon of milk still. I just want to get back to normal life, it’s autumn now which is my favorite season that’s when I like to go hiking and have bonfires and just be outside but it’s not possible and it just really sucks. Plus Halloween and Christmas isn’t fun really without my mom anymore. I’m doing better physically with each passing day but it’s such a slow process and my mental health isn’t great. I appreciate everyone’s kindness, help, thoughts, prayers and good vibes it’s really helped me during this dark time. It’s been one

year for me and basically everyone else on planet earth but it also had its few good moments. It seems like when it rains it pours. I appreciate all of you and your support and kindness. Not sure when life will go back to normal, I’m on the wound vac another two weeks and still unsure when I’ll be cleared to go back to work and fmla only covers two more weeks for job protection but I’ve not received any pay or temp disability and work has been texting a lot asking when I’m coming back and I don’t have an answer from the doctor yet so I’m stressed about that so wish me luck with my job. Once again I want to thank everyone for everything, you guys are amazing and wonderful and I wish only beautiful good things for you all and all the love in the universe even to the people who don’t like or support me, this world has enough hatred and sadness, I refuse to add to that. Love one another and take care of each other. Thank you all so much I truly appreciate everything. Go out and enjoy autumn time for me and go to pumpkin patches and to haunted houses or ghost tours, and enjoy life and don’t take your job for granted especially if you love what you do because I know I do. I love you all

Also as for the mass on my lung I haven’t been to the specialist yet because where my infection put me back in the hospital it pushed not only that appointment back but I also was scheduled for a PET scan to check for more cancer and had to cancel that and I’m waiting to heal up more before getting that done too.