Title sounds wild I know but hear me out
So, I've heard that ejaculation causes/requires the pelvic floor to push out. I've also heard that's how it works for AFABs to "squirt" which is also likely related to the mechanism that means some trans guys can (sort of do something similar to..?) ejaculating after bottom surgery
But that's not how it works for me, the pelvic floor contractions are a squeezing in feeling. My body is very bad at self lubricating in general (not just sexually, dry mouth and dry eyes and dry sinuses ftw, but yeah, sexually too) so I'm not sure it's gonna be producing anything at all, but it's hard to tell when I think the muscle contractions aren't right for it
. My only hint that maybe my body could produce the fluid if only it knew how to expel it is that if I pee shortly after orgasming, but only for like a second and then I stop, what comes out looks a hell of a lot like semen and nothing like urine
For what it's worth
my pelvic floor hates pushing in general. Constipation ftw too. I've got a lot of issues lol
One of the biggest reasons I haven't committed to bottom surgery is that a huge source of dysphoria for me is being unable to ejaculate and bottom surgery feels a little pointless if it doesn't help that. But if I can figure out how to get my orgasm muscle contractions to behave like they're ejaculating,
maybe I could at least get a little dribble of a semen-like substance or something, which I've heard of other trans guys doing
So yeah, first of all, is any of this coherent (it's after 7 AM for me and I've gotten 0 sleep lol)? Second of all, has anyone actually managed to train their orgasm the way I'm describing?
I know there's advice for women to "squirt" out there which might be similar but reading that sort of stuff makes me extremely dysphoric, plus it all seems to focus on penetration which I'm not physically capable of
(Potentially relevant detail is
I may or may not be intersex, I really need to get a doctor to take me seriously to figure out if I am or if I just have very weird but normal variation, tldr
my urethra and bonus hole didn't 100% get the memo that they're supposed to be separate so the bonus hole is obstructed by the very beefy urethra, and also there's some evidence I may have a male-typical prostate and lack skene's glands- aka another reason typical AFAB squirting advice seems sorta unhelpful idk- but I need proper imaging to be sure on that, and I have/had a bunch of hormonal weirdness)
Transition info:
Been on T for nearly 8 years, total hysterectomy + bilateral oophorectomy with cervix removal acquired 2 years ago, top surgery a little over 1 year ago, no bottom surgery (yet?)
Sorry if this post is unhinged I'm really super sleep deprived, but this has been haunting me for ages and I gotta know if anyone's got advice. Also please let me know if my theories are just riddled with misinformed BS cos you never know with this sorta stuff ngl (but only if you're confident you haven't missed it yourself lol)