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[and I must scream]

At least Pooners have found their equivalent to the wall-to-wall trashing girlgasm.

lmao exactly what I thought lol. I am still waiting to experience that earth shattering full body orgasm they keep talking about.

 

[Magic Pickle]

The cost(o) of binding: a TiF develops slipping rib syndrome and costochondritis - both very painful, debilitating conditions - but still insists that she would literally prefer these conditions to skipping a binder. For those unaware, costochondritis alone is often described by its sufferers as being impaled, gored, ripped open, and worse! And she's so fucking crazy, she prefers that to having her breasts out! Masochism, thy name is transgenderism.
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became disabled from binding​

i don’t even know where to begin, i just really wish there were technology that allowed for binders to bind without rib damage. i seriously hope no one in my situation has the same outcome.
i live in a red state and have socially transitioned at age 13, then (illegally) got on t when i was 17. i have always been stealth, even though i didn’t pass whatsoever just because of how my body was built up until recently. i would bind all day at school (7 hours), then at work, (2-5 hours on weekdays, 9+ hours on weekends), then anytime i left my house. then my family suddenly became responsible for two young foster children, so then i began binding any time i left my bedroom. my chest was too big for transtape, despite the many gaslighting attempts from random online strangers who insisted that tape works for everyone. i use it now, but i’m still allergic to the adhesive.
i hiked mountains in a binder. i played sports for two years in a binder. i would often go on trips with the sports team or with programs funded by the tribe to look at colleges. i attended cultural ceremonies that last up to 24 hours in a binder. i never felt pain, i never felt any trouble breathing. this all went away after i went on a trip that required 19 hours of travel back home, in which i had the worst physical reaction i had ever had in my life. i was bedridden for a week, it ached to even take a breath in or move. my girlfriend at the time came to visit and i put the fucking binder on for a few hours regardless of the torture it was.
i firmly believe this wouldn’t have happened if my estranged mother consented to starting hrt at age 16, and i don’t know why she didn’t since she’s a deadbeat anyways, but it took a year to find a telehealth clinic that my dad and i could lie to. my breasts eventually shrunk enough to where i can use transtape, but if it weren’t for a local grant that paid for gender affirming items for trans youth, i would be shit out of luck since it’s so expensive.
after over a year of chronic and agonizing chest pain, i went to the hospital yesterday because i genuinely couldn’t get a breath in. the doctor lifted up my shirt and hooked her hand under my bottom left ribs, the ones that give me the most trouble. i knew they were going to click in and out, i didn’t realize there wasn’t a way to fix them besides physical therapy or surgery. i now have slipping rib syndrome and costochondritis, and when i asked the er doctor who i should go to since primary care didn’t have the capacity to help me, she left to ask around and came back to tell me she didn’t know. the town i live in is landlocked without many healthcare options available.
this is not to say i’m not at fault for this. this was entirely my fault, and while the dysphoria i have is so strong i would have literally preferred this to having my chest out in public, i wish i would have listened to every single warning i continued to recieve. if you’re in a similar position to mine, please find an alternative that doesn’t compress your ribs as much. this is truly miserable. pain medication doesn’t touch it. marijuana doesn’t touch it. ice doesn’t touch it. there is nothing more jarring than the severe cramp or the feeling of your ribs sliding around if you move or breathe wrong. find the safest binder you possibly can. take five minute breaks in a bathroom stall if you must. stretch, cough, take care of yourself.

Though her body fights valiantly against her to keep her from poisoning it with testosterone, a FTM with medication-resistant depression continues to wage war against it even though she cannot help but feel actual relief when she discontinues her steroid treatment.
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I’m worried I won’t be able to stay on t​

I’m 34 & have medication resistant depression for context. I’ve been on t since January. It’s been a very, very slow transition process for me. I am getting euphoria from what few changes have happened. However, my mental health has tanked. My depression is worse than it’s been in many years.
During my first puberty, my mental health was terrible. I’m worried this second puberty will be just as bad, if not worse due to life stressors. I feel like I’m sinking, and the only time I get relief is when I stop the t for a period of time. I hate it. I want to at least be able to present as a guy, but I’m struggling to even maintain a sense of life. I work, and I can’t afford to lose my job. I feel so freaking lost and defeated. I know it should be temporary, but I don’t know if I can survive the temporary sinking feeling.

The hills are alive with the sound of troonsic: a tranny gets his feefees hurty-worty when his aunt tells him that a necessary rite of passage for girls is to watch The Sound of Music. New gender binary dropped, Kiwis - where do you land? If you only ever saw it A) drunk or high off your ass, B) against your will or C) chunks of it but not the whole film in its entirety, please collect your they/them pronoun badge at the door, thank you.
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I'm not a woman because I didn't see The Sound of Music growing up.​

That's what my aunt told me last night. She was telling me about how she watched it with her daughter and I said I hadn't seen it and don't really know what it's about.
She told me that it's time I watch the girl movies that I didn't see growing up, now that I'm a woman. I was going to take it in stride. I explained that I was largely raised by my single father, who isn't interested in it, and if he didn't show it to me, I wouldn't have seen it, even if I had been a cis girl, but she doubled down on it, saying I don't know my dad, he would've done anything for me, because he's been a good uncle to her aforementioned daughter, and that I'd have had a totally different childhood if I was a girl.
I told her I didn't want to hear about it, and she said that I need to reconcile my childhood. I told her good night and left.
Of course what she means by that, is that I need to tell my story as that of a boy who became a woman. Anything else is wrong and bad for me. She's said this a couple of times before.
She's supportive most of the time, she just has strong opinions about how trans people are and should be.
Coming from a pleasant vacation with my other side of the family, where everyone treated me as a woman, it was a harsh reminder of how cis people see and treat trans people.

A despicable little liar gets her just desserts when the supposed "love of her life" leaves her in the wake of a web of relentless deception. Truly one of the most decadent of troon 'n' poon Ls - like a foie gras of failure!
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Girlfriend and my DEAD Name​

I know I'm the asshole.
I hadn't been in a relationship for years. I met a girl online and felt this pull to her. After a few months of our long distance relationship, she questioned my gender. I told her that I'm a man and she insisted that I was lying.
I'm not on T or gotten surgeries yet. Well, I feel like I did a "half truth" lie by telling her I'm a man? I AM a man. But I wasn't born a man. She'd freaked out a lot about it. In the beginning even saying, "if youre a girl, i'll kill myself" so I even gaslit her. I told her that she's just scared to be happy and trying to sabotage our relationship. We will say she's conservative, so to speak
After some time, she would hint to me that she would cross her boundaries for me. That she'd love me no matter what. It sounded like a trap to me. Eventually, she freaked out again and I told her that I'm trans. Somehow, she accepted me, but I wasn't sure if she could really accept me, you know?
In the same conversation, she asked the next dreadful question. My name. I went with another half truth. I've had 5 names. My birth name, my last name changed when my mom got married when I was young. Then I chose a name for myself before I transitioned. My original first name, I always hated. It felt disgusting to me. I told her my name pre-transition. She asked if it was my name on my ID. I lied and said "yes". My ID name is my original name.
Because of the "lie" about my gender identity, we have had trust issues. Today, I told her my real dead names. She left me. I'm looking for perspective. I think this girl is the love of my life

A lost little lady is sent further into the land of confusion when her twin sister confronts her about the possibility of transition; disturbingly - a lede I find a little too well-buried - she mentions that her explicit fantasies about being a man during sex are not only compelling, but so compelling as to be necessary to inform her own family about. What the fuck is with troonacy and incestuous tendencies?
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My sibling told me that she can't live with me anymore if I go on T. What now?​

I've been pretty private about my gender questioning with her, as she is deeply uncomfortable with the idea of her sister being trans. I suppose I get it; I had no signs of transness, let alone queerness, as a child. I made an appointment to get a prescription of T, after years of contemplation. I ended up cancelling everything. The guilt was eating me alive, so I couldn't go through with it. I'm not a good liar; my sister knows me too well, and knew that I didn't go to the doctor for just a check-up. She confronted me, we talked, and she laid out everything. She said that if I take T, she can no longer live with me. I was accused of being someone I'm not, being unrecognizable, unlike my real self. According to her, I've got it all wrong.I didn't know what to do other than to defend myself, and explain to her what's led me to the point of wanting to try T. The sexual fantasies I've had, the lingering thoughts. My previous posts go into more detail. She still was unconvinced. She says it's my OCD making me obsessively think about this (I've considered this possibility, but don't fully agree). To her, euphoria does not indicate transness; only severe dysphoria does. Even my constant fantasy of being a man during intimacy means nothing about my gender, she says. She's more of a believer that women can get mixed up into thinking they're men due to insecurity, trauma, mental illness, etc.I've felt utterly shattered and crazy since that conversation. While I put the pieces back together, I keep thinking that I'll end up a woman at the end of this, not a man. I feel like a detransitioner who must be wrong, like I can't trust my own brain. I've even felt like a woman here and there, as if I'm "going back to normal." But I'm miserable. I don't feel "healed," but I'm wondering if these 3 years of deep questioning and experimenting have led me astray. Perhaps I'm mixed up in a fantasy that isn't real.I told one of my close transmasc friends that I don't know how to move forward. He said that my way forward is to take T, and deal with the consequences with my family. I wanted to cry hearing that, because I feel like such a fraud, yet there are several people in my life- including me- that were pretty convinced I am trans. Now it's as if I'm waiting for my transness to go away, if it even existed at all. I don't know how to go on from here; my sister knows me, I want to believe that she's right about everything. I want to believe that I'm just a masculine woman who needs to deal with womanhood. Which way should I go from here?(Disclaimer: I can't hate her at the end of all this. Any advice in that direction won't be helpful. She's my twin; I love her, I know she loves me and wants what is best for me, despite how it may seem. I'd love to know how others have dealt with a situation like mine.)

Dressing room diva: a troon finds the saleslady at his local M&S is not quite the handmaiden he had hoped for, going as far as to involve a security guard in just to be on the safe side. OP seethes and malds, promising to himself he'll have the hefty huevos necessary to call such derelict TERF cunt bitches to task for their cisfoid genocidal transmisogyny.
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“You know those are women’s clothes right?”​

Today I decided was a good day to push myself to get some more femme clothes. I do enjoy fitting new different things, just never having known how cute and hot I look in some clothes.
I live in a place that is hit or miss on if people are just chill, or seem to have a vendetta against me, or at least that’s what it feels like.
I grab a cute top and some jeans to try. Been having lots of trouble finding right fit of jeans. I was at M&S. The lady working at the fitting room section decides it’s a good idea to tell me, “you know those are women’s clothes, right?”, I just get stun-locked, not sure how to feel about that. But I just ignored that comment and said I wanted to try these clothes.
As I tried the clothes, I felt like that seems like quite an unnecessary thing to mention. Like it seems like quite a condescending thing to say, like bitch, are saying I am dumb or something? like I was fuming at that point. This is why going why clothes shopping can be such a fkn mountain to climb sometimes.
Despite that frustrating moment I pressed on. I was quite tired already, but I felt determined to find a right fit of slim/skinny jeans for myself.
I went back out to grab some more jeans, and I see in the corner of my eye, some security guard guy talking to that lady, they were both looking at me and the guard was pointing at me and yapping some shit, I am pretty certain they were talking shit. Like it was very apparent. I stared back at them, like bitch, I can see you, fkn idiots.
The second batch of jeans I went in with, I was met with the same lady. She“sirred” me in the language of where I lived. I just went into the room, and like tried not to absolutely lose it. Just what about me trying these women’s clothes and having a sports bra and a jacket on makes you think I want to be referred to as sir.
It’s really hard to think that that wasn’t intentional. Like, you didn’t have to go fkn address me that way. Shitty fkn experience. Ugh. Well, on the bright side, I did manage to find a pair of jeans that fit good enough, and now I got a brand new pair of my first women’s jeans :3. There was also a sweeter lady that helped me at the fitting section.
Shits rough, but might consider being more ready to correct people when they do that next time, I really don’t like taking it lying down. But that shits hard.
Well that was how my past hour has been, thanks for reading.

Reality check: after making an off-hand comment that she's glad to go under the radar as a person of pronoun persuasion, a pooner's boyfriend lets her know in no uncertain terms that not only is she very clockable, but that he's got quite a refined trannydar. With the reveal of such an ugly truth, OP now begins to spiral.
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BF said something and I’m not sure how to feel.​

Last night my bf and I were hanging out and I don’t even know how it came up, but i mentioned that im glad that i read as Cis because im nervous about our current political climate. He literally started laughing at me and told me everyone knows im trans. This is patently false, for starters, and secondly, painful. I take great comfort in my “passing privilege”. I have had numerous people both trans and cis express genuine shock upon finding out I’m trans. I’ve been gatekept from trans spaces because people thought I was cis. But now I’m questioning everything. I’m also questioning like, why he’s with me, how he sees me, etc. He continued to argue with me that even if he didn’t know I was trans he would be able to tell, then continued to say that he can always tell a trans person from a cis person. I told him that implies that there’s something that looks the same about all trans people which doesn’t make any sense. Am I in the wrong to be insulted and hurt by this?

Lastly, an update from our prince of darkness, Veinscrawler, whose saga has been well covered (to the best of my ability) in the SRS thread. What else could possibly go wrong for him, you say? Well, now he's got gonorrhea, which is on top of the genital herpes he already suffers from.
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Gee Butterfly! How come your life lets you get *two* STDs?​

[–]Veinscrawler[S] 1 point 6 days ago
Gonorrhea now, possibly from one of two recent assaults, but I don't know how long I've had it, so it may have already progressed into something worse.

 

[YouTube Autist]

@Magic Pickle You're ruining my life with your posts.

 

[a kiwifarms user]

And the "I can't wait for my period!" is the cherry on top. They dont even try to hide the fetish. Not a single female has ever said that, ever in history. /MATI

You clearly don't remember or didn't experience tween girls excited to be "grown up". They even made one of those menstruation psas or whatever based on that.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XnzfRqkRxU

 

[YouTube Autist]

The lady working at the fitting room section decides it’s a good idea to tell me, “you know those are women’s clothes, right?”,

It gladdens my heart to know that there are still people out there like this -- who aren't pro-trans, who aren't even ideologically anti-trans, but who simply respond to it with, "Wait, why would a guy wear women's clothes?"

The whole post is pretty funny. It's written with such venomous resentment, and it tries to frame the incident as if the narrator almost got into a confrontation, but (barely) managed to restrain himself. The reality is that he responded passively. Someone violated this boundary he's desperately tried to erect, and his response was, simply, to do nothing.

Last night my bf and I were hanging out and I don’t even know how it came up, but i mentioned that im glad that i read as Cis because im nervous about our current political climate. He literally started laughing at me and told me everyone knows im trans. This is patently false, for starters, and secondly, painful. I take great comfort in my “passing privilege”. I have had numerous people both trans and cis express genuine shock upon finding out I’m trans. I’ve been gatekept from trans spaces because people thought I was cis. But now I’m questioning everything. I’m also questioning like, why he’s with me, how he sees me, etc. He continued to argue with me that even if he didn’t know I was trans he would be able to tell, then continued to say that he can always tell a trans person from a cis person. I told him that implies that there’s something that looks the same about all trans people which doesn’t make any sense. Am I in the wrong to be insulted and hurt by this?

Move over, Humbert Humbert and Holden Caulfield, I have a new favorite unreliable narrator.

 

[Chemex]

I live stealth and my studies and career depend on it. Another person also depends on me financially. My whole life and future could be destroyed if someone sees me, counts 1+1=2 and starts talking to other people.

Pray tell, how can a job and studies depend on being a pooner? Is this one of those DEI admission cases or what? Or does she mean she will shed manly dood tears, cry, bitch about, and then resign from her job and drop out from uni, just because she no longer "passes", even though we all know people just don't bother saying it as they don't want to get into trouble?

Touching grass is no longer enough, some people need to be straight up put out to pasture: a very horny, definitely not pornsick addicted FTM fixates on all the things her genitals can't do compared to a man's. OP definitely obsesses far too strongly on penises, because I cannot imagine anyone giving a fuck about - and I quote this from OP here - "being able to experience leaking sticky precum," "eating different things to change the flavor of [my] cum," and "shooting loads and being able to show [my boyfriend] how hard he made [me] cum." In a world with disease, famine, poverty and war, this is the shit you fucking care about?

Freaking disgusting. I pity the gay guy that has this woman as his partner.

i hiked mountains in a binder. i played sports for two years in a binder. i would often go on trips with the sports team or with programs funded by the tribe to look at colleges. i attended cultural ceremonies that last up to 24 hours in a binder.

Hey, have you considered, uh, being a simple tomboy instead of harming yourself like this?

I’m 34 & have medication resistant depression for context. I’ve been on t since January. It’s been a very, very slow transition process for me. I am getting euphoria from what few changes have happened. However, my mental health has tanked. My depression is worse than it’s been in many years.

No, little pooner, changing gender isn't a magic fix that will erase your depression. People talk about making huge changes in life to fix depression, but this isn't the answer.

 

[Syikeblade]

A tranny has a date with a cute guy



Seems it goes well until the usual happens:

Spoiler: Spoiler

So… this really sucked.
I met this guy at the bookstore a few days ago. He was cute, funny, and like… actually seemed into me?? Which doesn’t happen a lot. I’m 4’11 and really feminine, and people are always surprised when they find out I’m trans, so sometimes it feels like I’m living in this weird in-between space where people don’t know what to do with me.
Anyway, he came up to me while I was looking at some dumb romance novel and asked me if I liked the author. We started talking, he made me laugh, and eventually we ended up sitting at the little café in the back for like an hour. He asked for my number before we left, and I was like “wow okay this might actually be something.”
We texted a bit, and then a couple nights later he asked if I wanted to hang out again — just chill, nothing wild. I said yeah.
Things were going great. We watched a movie, cuddled a bit, and then started kissing. It was really sweet, nothing too fast, and for a second I was just… happy. Like, genuinely happy. Like maybe this was finally one of those normal, cute hookup stories my friends get to have.
Then we started getting a little more into it. I hadn’t told him I was trans yet — not because I was trying to hide it, but because I honestly didn’t know if this would go anywhere. I wanted to tell him in my own time, but… that time never came.
Because he felt it.
He was touching me, and then he just stopped. Like froze. I could literally see the shift in his face. And he pulled back and was like, “I didn’t know.”
I just sat there, totally exposed, wrapped the blanket around myself and said, “I was going to tell you.” And he just said, “I’m sorry. I can’t,” like super quietly, like it was supposed to make it less awful.
He got up, got dressed really fast, and basically just… left. No yelling, no drama, just a complete switch. Like he looked at me differently all of a sudden.
I walked home. I didn’t even cry right away, I think I was too numb. I just felt stupid. I really thought I looked good. I thought maybe this time, I’d be enough.
It’s always the same. I pass until I don’t. I’m “pretty” until I’m “tricking” someone. Then it’s awkward silence, rejection, ghosting. Guys like me when they think I’m cis, and then when they find out I’m not, it’s like they never saw me the same to begin with.
I know not everyone’s gonna be okay with it. But I guess I just wanted one night where I felt wanted for who I am, not what’s between my legs.
I'm tired, honestly. This made me feel gross about my body in a way I haven’t in a long time. Like I’m some kind of surprise they didn’t sign up for.
Anyway. I don’t even know why I’m writing this. Just needed to get it out ig

One of the commenters seems upset that people dare get upset at gay men trying to trick people and have to disclose their trans

Spoiler: Some of the comments

gorgeously_mytruself 2 points 6 hours ago
Aww, I am so sorry this happened love, and I really get it. There is no universally agreed upon time to disclose, and safety and situational factors change when this time is frequently. I was recently in your boat, and it really sucks! Some guy tried to pick me up at the VA ( it’s always at the VA), and asked for my number.
It is crazy how someone can inject themselves into our lives, primarily because THEY want and desire something from us, but now it is our “moral obligation” to jeopardize our safety ( mental and physical), and disclose information literally about a body part described as a private area or privates. Uuuuugggggg!!!!Apparently their wants void our privacy and peace. I really do get it love!
You mentioned wanting to be wanted and appreciated for being you, and not because you are a fetishized unique flavor of intimacy most have not tasted… but the best way to get this is to disclose as early as it is safe to do so. I am not going to waste my time or anyone else’s, especially if they are approaching me and injecting themselves into my life, when in all reality, they likely don’t really want me or are not compatible.
I disclose on my dating apps and social media to save time, provide transparency, and increase my likelihood of finding someone that can see me in totality and still love all of me, good and bad( not physically). I also refuse to allow someone to touch, kiss, or dance on me if they do not know. All of these types of contact are considered intimate to an extent, and provide a great safety risk.
Statistically, trans woman are hate crimed significantly, and most who are hurt or killed are the victims of someone that they dated, slept with, or were intimate with. Insecure men are much more likely to take things personally and feel violated and turn violent if they feel deceived, so I refuse to allow them any intimacy unless I have vetted them and informed them. If that is not safe to do, then I just err on the side of caution even if it makes me look stuck up or uninterested.
I am not judging you, but I am also very concerned for your safety; especially since it sounds like you went to his place or yours. You have to protect yourself better love, that could have ended in so many horrible ways, and it is absolutely not worth the risk.
You are a beautiful woman full of personality and love to share, please do not let impatience, loneliness or longing put you in harm’s way! We will find our prince someday!
-with love!
!!!!!!


[–]LotusChild1 2 points 10 hours ago
you're beautiful . try not to obsess and stay safe.


[–]jimbobalimbo 6 points 11 hours ago
Sorry to hear this. Unfortunately most men are not open to dating and intimacy with trans people. For the sake of these situations I think it’s always the best option to disclose up front. I would say before meeting up in person. In this case Im thankful his reaction was calm and measured as there is always a risk that the person can react aggressively if they feel they have been mislead.

Honestly I feel bad for the guy in this situation, can't imagine dating someone only to find out their trans.

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[Billy Hargrove]

Honestly I feel bad for the guy in this situation, can't imagine dating someone only to find out their trans.

Pics the troon posted:

 

[Myelinated]

Fuck, you would think someone being less than five feet would weed out the stealth troonery. That poor guy is chopped at his height though… makes sense why he would switch sides.

 

[AfghanBlue]

Poonersad
After arguing with the surgeons for the decision- based on the low key sus justification of not wanting an "adult sized penis"-to have a teenyweeny;


this lil poon is regretting it,


now that it's even smaller, can't get hard, has no feeling, smells of wee, and society hates it.

These bitches change their minds, about the most serious of shit, so fucking swiftly man. Lol. Lunacy. Poonacy.

 

[No Thank You v 2.0]

Touching grass is no longer enough, some people need to be straight up put out to pasture: a very horny, definitely not pornsick addicted FTM fixates on all the things her genitals can't do compared to a man's. OP definitely obsesses far too strongly on penises, because I cannot imagine anyone giving a fuck about - and I quote this from OP here - "being able to experience leaking sticky precum," "eating different things to change the flavor of [my] cum," and "shooting loads and being able to show [my boyfriend] how hard he made [me] cum." In a world with disease, famine, poverty and war, this is the shit you fucking care about?

I’ve seen this a couple of times now, pooners wanting to “shoot cum.” I had never heard of yaoi before the farms, so the idea of some kind of autoandrophilia didn’t make immediate sense to me. I figured pooners were either abuse victims or self-hating lesbians or both. Historically, fetishism is low in females, but it appears to be rising, and I see it now with the desire to view their own ejaculate. I believe this comes from pornography, and I’m sure many of you will be inclined to agree, but let me explain why.

Spoiler: Pornography sperg

There are some film theorists out there who have taken it upon themselves to examine pornography as a film genre just like any other, and they do so without any examination of the organized crime behind so much of it, whether or not it is inherently dangerous to women and children, contributing to STI outbreaks, or destroying the interactions between men and women. They leave those questions for the sociologists and to some degree I think that’s fine, there are some very good reasons to study the history of pornography (and how it has contributed to the development of film and video in the first place), and there was an era where there were actually feature-length narrative films with actual storylines that weren’t really any worse than the average movie, they just occasionally broke out into a sex act, much like a musical.

I am not trying to legitimize pornography, I believe it should be outlawed, but I have learned a lot from studying its history. The major problem with pornography today is that it’s everywhere. It’s online and anyone can access it at any time at a moment’s notice, and furthermore, anyone can produce it. Any shitty boyfriend can coerce his girlfriend or just take video of her in her sleep or hide a camera and upload it to a tube site. If the only pornography in the world was a feature-length musical-style film you had to see in a public theater, the world would likely be a different place with regard to trans shit. I still wouldn’t support it, because among other things, it would still contribute to fetishism.

To return to the point, the specific film theorist in question is Linda Williams, and the theory up for discussion comes from her book, Hard Core: Power, Pleasure, and the "Frenzy of the Visible". It’s a fascinating book, and to boil down the thesis, pornography is about what’s visible, and the interior of the female sex organ is not visible, nor is the female orgasm (she wrote this before “squirting” became a common in popular culture and pornography, and porn tube sites, of course). The primary viewer of pornography is male, so it’s all meant to appeal to them, and they want to see it, and when it comes to the female organ and orgasm, they can’t. They can, however, see the whole entire dick and the semen that comes out of it as a definite sign of maximum pleasure: orgasm. Because there needs to be some kind of conclusion to the sex act and satisfaction for the men who desire to see the women in the pornography, the focus becomes the male orgasm, but only as a replacement for the female orgasm. Because the female “gem” is the invisible god being worshiped, the primal male brain needs to put his energy and focus and expectations onto an impotent fetish object: the “money shot.” Linda Williams digs deep into the anthropological study of “fetish” objects in primitive cultures and its application here. This book really has helped shaped my framework of understanding what’s happening in larger culture today.

I recently read the first few chapters of Douglas Murray’s Madness of Crowds and I can’t recall the citation or the exact quote, but he mentions that gay men have a different relationship to one another than men do to women because men already know all about what’s “inside” the other man, to paraphrase. It was a library book so I can’t look it up but it reminded me a lot of the fetishization of the so-called money shot. I wish I could provide a clearer example, but it all makes a lot of sense to me.

So now you have women who have been exposed to male-gaze-infused pornography since they were in middle school, sometimes even younger, and they have learned to prioritize and fetishize the male orgasm instead of being interested in their own. I’m sure there are other factors to pooning and other avenues to the same basic fetish, but whenever I see one of these sad little girls talk about wanting to be The One Who Cums, I get the feeling they’re identifying with an anonymous male porn actor’s POV more than their own, and they’re putting all their energy and focus and expectations onto an impotent fetish object, transition.

That’s all I had to say, I appreciate your time.

Forgive me if I am late or gay.

 

[AfghanBlue]

I want a british slapstick sitcom where a pooner is desperately trying to keep her partner from realizing she's trans by all sorts of Mr. Bean style hijinks.

Exact specifications, coming right up~

 

[Pickman's Modeling Agency]

Exact specifications, coming right up~
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ti8HuG-de7I

Being raped by an insane lesbian in denial is horrifying and I am very sorry for the victims. I had to say that before saying this: those girls are thicker than pig shit. That is some Clark Kent/Superman shit.

 

[Paper Machete]

I believe this comes from pornography, and I’m sure many of you will be inclined to agree, but let me explain why.

That's all interesting and not entirely wrong, however, I'd argue that making the female porn star overact orgasm also plays into things making the "orgasm more visible". The visual and audio must be exaggerated when it's all that's being represented, to make up for not being a real experience. It's why most people prefer watching movies that have very attractive casts among other things.

But also, you misunderstand a lot of pooners. Most of them do not start out with (or even move on to) watching live action porn. They read fanfiction, written erotica, and manga/doushinji (sp?) that features male/male interactions. It's why so many of them are obsessed with "gayness" rather than wanting to get with another woman and play act a man. You see this a lot with AGP transbians and I think it's in large part because they get attached to and want to be able to attain their ultimate sexual fantasy. And if that's two girls or two guys and you're aware trans is a thing, well...

The biggest issue with porn's ill effects would be the obvious thing that people masturbate to it and basically classic condition themselves. This can be done with any sexual fantasy that traps someone in any media format it takes. Autoandrophilia is understudied and more difficult to spot because a AGP hon flouncing around in a thrift prom dress is just a lot easier to point to than some awkward woman in cargo pants and a snapback.

Just because women don't have the male sex drive doesn't mean they can't be perverse and sexually warped, as these things are psychological in nature and not tied (just) to biological and hormonal urges.

 

[CTR Operative]

But also, you misunderstand a lot of pooners. Most of them do not start out with (or even move on to) watching live action porn. They read fanfiction, written erotica, and manga/doushinji (sp?) that features male/male interactions. It's why so many of them are obsessed with "gayness" rather than wanting to get with another woman and play act a man.

100% this. Fascinating thing to me is that there were entire generations of women that were into this shit, going back to the 70s when your grandma was writing Kirk/Spock tentacle-dick stories and snail-mailing them around the country, but nobody wanted to be a man until the tumblr generation started scolding fujos for fetishizing gay men. Instead of either:

1. Reevaluating their lives, swearing off yaoi and slash, and living a normal life, or:
2. Telling the SJWs scolding them to fuck off, surely there are more important battlefields for gay rights than Ao3, these poor stupid girls chose:
3. convincing themselves that it's ok, because they're totally gay men themselves, that's why they felt drawn to a genre of erotica originated by women, for women, often where both writer and audience have never known the touch of an actual man.

I kind of feel bad for pooners to a degree, they basically got themselves wokescolded into delusions.

 

[Mellow Malevolent]

That's all interesting and not entirely wrong, however, I'd argue that making the female porn star overact orgasm also plays into things making the "orgasm more visible". The visual and audio must be exaggerated when it's all that's being represented, to make up for not being a real experience. It's why most people prefer watching movies that have very attractive casts among other things.

But also, you misunderstand a lot of pooners. Most of them do not start out with (or even move on to) watching live action porn. They read fanfiction, written erotica, and manga/doushinji (sp?) that features male/male interactions. It's why so many of them are obsessed with "gayness" rather than wanting to get with another woman and play act a man. You see this a lot with AGP transbians and I think it's in large part because they get attached to and want to be able to attain their ultimate sexual fantasy. And if that's two girls or two guys and you're aware trans is a thing, well...

The biggest issue with porn's ill effects would be the obvious thing that people masturbate to it and basically classic condition themselves. This can be done with any sexual fantasy that traps someone in any media format it takes. Autoandrophilia is understudied and more difficult to spot because a AGP hon flouncing around in a thrift prom dress is just a lot easier to point to than some awkward woman in cargo pants and a snapback.

Just because women don't have the male sex drive doesn't mean they can't be perverse and sexually warped, as these things are psychological in nature and not tied (just) to biological and hormonal urges.

This is just musing on this, but I feel like sometimes we view the symbolic elements of human cognition as sitting overtop and separate of more basal desires, which makes the story of human thought more complex and metaphysical than it really is.

Male brain or female brain, the difference is the tendencies and affordances that physiology and brain chemistry place on reward pathways, but the basic neural circuitry (nucleus accumbens, ventral striatum, amygdala, hypothalamus, and so on) is the same. On some level these desires, whether impulses or intrusive thoughts, are a product of dopamine spikes and Hebbian learning, because the is the actual physical form of all desire. Even if the initial stimulus is imagined and has more emotional weight than direct visual arousal, the repeated act of thinking about these relationships and connecting it to sexual arousal (which man or woman is one of the strongest reinforcement signals the brain can produce) will still wire itself into the same pathways. The symbolic cue becomes physiologically stimulating, and the physiological arousal strengthens the desire signal associated to the symbol. Many of the tranny pedos documented here do seem to fixate on the idea of innocence as the central idea, and then it moves into direct fetishization of the symbols and trapping of girlhood. It doesn't have start with dick getting hard (or the female equivalent) to end in that place.

 

[stupid frog]

Did Kevin Gibes lose weight?

I know this is a joke.
He's on Ozempic, iirc. But he's still fat.

 

[Apustajan apustaja]

where do you land?

Well I totally get this. When you are a boy, you wonder how the fuck the girls are in to this dumb shit where people randomly start singing cringe songs for ten minutes, but to become a real man you have to pay real serious adult money to go see a stage production with your elderly mother, and sit there and just take it, and pretend to like it. Because she is your mother and it means a lot to her.

 

[Izdaja Slika]

@Magic Pickle is like UberEats for tranny content, but we don't even have to pay for it to be delivered.

i have always been stealth, even though i didn’t pass whatsoever

Somebody (sorry I can't give you credit as I don't remember who) on KF said 'stealth' to troons means 'I don't tell people I'm trans' instead of what ordinary non-insane people would think it means, which is 'Nobody knows I'm trans'.

i firmly believe this wouldn’t have happened if my estranged mother consented to starting hrt at age 16

Question for female KFarmers: did your breasts continue to get bigger after the age of 16? I find it hard to believe considering puberty for girls has been getting earlier and earlier for decades.

That's what my aunt told me last night. She was telling me about how she watched it with her daughter and I said I hadn't seen it and don't really know what it's about.
She told me that it's time I watch the girl movies that I didn't see growing up, now that I'm a woman.

The Sound of Music sperging ahead:
TSOM is not a 'girl' movie, unless you think only women went to see the highest grossing film in America of the 1960s decade. A film that stayed in cinemas for four years, became 20th Century Fox's highest grossing film of all time (until The Exorcist in 1973), and is still in the top 10 grossing films of all time when adjusted for inflation.

Because of the "lie" about my gender identity, we have had trust issues.

It wasn't a "lie". It was a lie. You, and every tranny everywhere knows that when non-insane people are asking whether you are a man or a woman, they mean, in tranny-speak, 'what was your assigned gender at birth'.

Today, I told her my real dead names. She left me. I'm looking for perspective. I think this girl is the love of my life

Can pond scum really be capable of 'loving' someone? Because you are pond scum.

I grab a cute top and some jeans to try. Been having lots of trouble finding right fit of jeans.

We interrupt this program to bring you urgent news. A man has trouble finding women's jeans to fit him.

Just what about me trying these women’s clothes and having a sports bra and a jacket on makes you think I want to be referred to as sir.

It's the fact that you're obviously a man that makes people instinctively call you 'sir', sir.

I told him that implies that there’s something that looks the same about all trans people which doesn’t make any sense.

The fucking deliberate dumbshit thickness of these trannies.

The thing that 'looks the same' about all trannies is that they look like they're trying to imitate the sex that they are not.

 

[Sinner's Sandwich]

Question for female KFarmers: did your breasts continue to get bigger after the age of 16?

They got so big they turned into 2 seperate beings. Now I can't sleep at night because they are snoring so loudly and they are constantly asking for money.