Well-meaning cis girlfriends trying to give beauty advice infuriates me
submitted 1 year ago by
miss3star [DIY HRT, a bit of laser, no surgeries]
TW: dysphoric talk
I agree with their advice in principle, but none of them are applicable to me. In fact, I'm dying to just barely get to the level where those pieces of advice would start to be relevant to me.
When someone gives advice like pick a nice hair color or dress for your body type, it just makes me angry and frustrated. It's so patronizing to hear someone talk about that stuff when it starts with the assumption that your basic, inner structure is okay and it's just your outside that needs some polishing.
That's true for cis girls. But that's not true for me. The main thing that bothers me about my appearance and that makes me ugly is not my hairstyle or unwillingness to wear makeup. The problem is my masculine bone structure.
I have masculinized bones in my forehead, my temples, my brow bones, my nose, my cheeks, my mouth, my jaw, my chin, my adam's apple, EVERYWHERE. And until my bones are fixed, NO amount of polishing will make me look okay. In fact, the more feminine polish I put on a masculine face, the more I will look like a drag queen.
I don't want that. I don't want to pluck my eyebrows. I don't want to wear makeup. I don't want to do nice things with my hair. I don't want to paint my nails. I don't want to wear feminine clothing. Not because I wouldn't love to do those things. But because I don't want to deal with the inevitable pain of discovering that that nice dress, nice hairstyle, nice makeup, nice accessories just DON'T. LOOK. RIGHT. ON ME and just serves to highlight how masculine and out of place I look in them.
I keep up my smile and paitently hear my well-meaning cis girlfriends out when they try to give advice and when they're gone, I just cry myself to sleep because they think that stuff is readily applicable to me the way it was for them. I hate it. I love my friends but I hate the feelings their advice bring to me.