Yesterday I went spontaneously into a club with friends.
There was a guy who was friends with one of my friends. I talked with this guy while he gave me signals that he's interested in my. When he went away my best friend was like "sis he's gay" but turns out he likes women, he's got a girlfriend but he's poly. So we kept talking the night and dancing together. So on the dance floor the guy asked me if he could hug me, then we hugged and started to get touchy with each other and then making out.
At the next dance break I asked him if I noticed that I'm trans and he said yes (the last times I hit it off with someone they always didn't notice). So I'm told him my taboos so he couldn't ask me to top him or something like that. We spent the rest of the night dancing and making out.
He was so touchy and kinda dominant on the dance floor. He also said that he's kinky And even though I'm pretty vanilla I hoped at least he could dominate me lmao. We went to my place, cuddling the entire bus ride.
At my place he suddenly said that he's not into penetration but he could try. Wait what, why wouldn't he tell me that earlier? Because of my dysphoria pretty much the only thing I can do to feel pleasure is being penetrated. I still prepared myself and
when I came back I realized that he was a lot smaller than expected. I mean doesn't matter that much because size is not everything of course. But I noticed that he can hardly keep an erection. Was it because he wasn't into me or because he's just like that?
His body was completely shaved and he wasn't dominant at all. Like I had to take the lead because he wouldn't lead me which is kinda me. He was moaning the entire time which is fine but idk that's just not my thing. At least I made him enjoy himself lmao.
So I sucked him off and then tried to cowgirl but he wasn't stiff enough to hold. Then I spend like 20 to 30 minutes trying to get him to finish with my hand. He would always say how good it feels but never finished, my hands started to hurt lmao. I had to stop because my hand would hurt and then
I just brought some dildos he should use on me. That was nice but I still had to finish myself because he had a weird way of using them. Yeah after that it was over for me and I just wanted to sleep.
While he said it was very nice for him he also saw that it was disappointing for me. I mean I don't know I don't want to judge him or the stuff he does.
He's just clearly not compatible with me and my needs. I love dominant, masculine guys in bed and he just wasn't someone like that. Tbh it is a bit disappointing that he would tell me the stuff about penetration just before we started while I tried to communicate my boundaries as soon as possible. At least he didn't touch my no no zone.
I don't know if he may be a twink, Femboy,bottom or something like this and I don't have to know. It's kinda funny that this happened but meh it was better than the people who didn't respect my dysphoria