How to experience female orgasm without transitioning?
CONTEXT:
So... appearently, my life is a ruin.
I was born male, in Hungary, where transgender people isn't treated too well. To say it right, the government banned every legal action, so even if I go under SRS, I can't have a female name (the are no unisex names), or "Female" in my ID.
So, with all my sorrowfulness and hoplessness, I have accepted my fate. That I was born male, and I have to live that way. I also don't wanna face all the people who hate us, 'cause there are lots of these people in Hungary, even if it's a small country...
Most probably I'll never have a boyfriend, because I would want him to treat me like a woman, and I want to be a girlfriend, not a fetish. But okay, I'll get through it somehow.
Soo, with these, I won't be able to ever get hormones, as they would be noticable in my appearance (I'm already edging between social gender roles as I have long hair, and az overally feminine appearance). And because of me not being able to get hormones, I am only able to experience the male orgasm. But I want to experience the female one so baaad...
I masturbate with dildos, but I can't reach orgasm anally, I have to use my penis to reach the top.
So my question is: How could I experience the female orgasm without taking hormones, going under surgeries, so basically without transitioning, as a male born person?
Thank You in advance!
Have a better day than which I have!
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Comment:
i need a sex machine for anal and a vibrator on my long clit , ultimately i think a prostate orgasam is the closest an Amab can get without transitioning, estrogen changes a lot physically and mentally