I have more time than the average bear right now and the Nick debacle is the "thing" that my autist brain is latching onto. But even so, it would take more time than even I want to give to catch up on here, watch the full 3 hours of Aaron's stream, plus Kiki's insipid stuff, Melton's videos, KC's, tweets, replies... being fully apprised of everything Nick-related would be a full time job + overtime. There wouldn't be enough time in the day for family, relationships, healthy food, good hobbies, etc. Not a chance. It has been a conscientious effort to pull myself away from all of this and touch grass because this is more interesting than a binge of Game of Thrones. But I am nonetheless embarrassed by how much time this has consumed of my own life.
So I'm looking at Nick--who IS tweeting AND appearing with superchats in all of these streams plus doing so much more (like keeping tabs on Aaron's online activity)--wondering about the degree of depraved obsession required to keep on top of everything. He's such a control freak that he is under the assumption that knowing what everyone is saying about him at all times and refuting any damaging narrative is what will win the day. He thinks he'll just outsmart everyone. Get everyone to see his side. He probably has this personality type even without drugs, but it reminds me of what he told Aaron: "you know your stress level is here? Coke makes your ability to handle it up to here." Unfortunately he hasn't yet realized coke has that opposite Midas effect of everything he's touching turning to shit.
He didn't have to lose everything, even after his arrest. He could have kept quiet, took a great plea deal, avoided jail, worked to salvage his marriage, parted with April on peaceful terms, made major amends with his kids, relied on his quality friendships to get him through this (esp in LawTube who could guide him better than most), kept his license... now, I'd be floored if a single one of these things happen. He's torched all of the bridges. That's why I'm going to label this a textbook tragedy--he is unable to overcome the antagonist of the story. He keeps thinking it's everything around him instead of himself. Every minute he spends online fighting everything "out there" is indicative that he's lost the plot. Life is long. He might get the lesson eventually. It will just apparently take a jail cell to finally make him confront his worst enemy: himself.