Doesn't explain the fashion choices, of all the things about her they're one of the less gross aspects, but the most baffling. Why come out as a genderfluid transmasc whatever only to continue to style yourself the same way as before
Laziness and comfort ig.
She's always been a big fat fuck and just needs cast off mumu type clothing. Far and away Saps laziness is always her primary trait. Ma frig gives her old teeshirt, she wears.
The furry art dislike is interesting because I realised that despite her making "art" it's just slogans on paper and she has no aesthetic sense or preference that she seems to tend towards at all.
But yea, with furries she could at least have some community for her lame sex interests. A s the sheer amount of furries means once she has burned through friendships by being a cunt, there will be a steady supply more until she can learn how to not.
I think she's just so used to immediately incorporating everything so hard into imaginary friend land that it doesn't feel lonely..
Like for example
That meme(?) video (haven't seen it) she said showed a woman farting and another laughing so hard she pissed herself - that obviously made her feel some type of way ( she is clearly peepeepoopoosexual but it seems to be the only thing she actually feels shame over) - and in that video, part of the thing that she obviously enjoyed was the "shared dynamic" of it.
Instead of having any moment to feel lonely and think I wish I had someone to do gross pathetic fetish shit with (because that's what her mind turns that into), and then starting the road to make that happen - making an effort to meet people, etc-
She instantaneously incorporates it into her cosy make belive world.
So she can't wait to tell someone that Loki has been "embarrassing" her by laughing at her farts, as part of him "perving" on her.
She has gone so far beyond just making her own reality to feel better about being unwanted-and she wants to be next level wanted, reading earlier in the thread there was the early fiction about how she met Michael Jackson and get ah ledgers ghosts and they were calling her a goddess and angel and Brigg shining star.
She has absolutely no humility about herself that even a normal person would have, let alone one much lower.
Her mind just automatically forms everything into the shape that is pleasing for her hyperspecifc most ego boosting shape.
It would take genuine, really hard structured proper psychiatric work with someone a lot more qualified than her sit and listen old lady therapist to get her out of this habit. Like a really hardcore DBT/CBT intensive regime, like going to a place every day to do it for a week then every other day. Perhaps preceded by a very heavy session of talk therapy with a proper therapist, aided by fucking Thorazine or something.
Like an addict, she has done a number on her own nuero processing. The brain is highly plastic tho, and this would only take about 3 weeks to be reset.
But god, it might kill her. Sobering up, basically. Seeing the ugly state of herself. Mentally I mean.
She would probably have to be a born again Christian to get some kind of mercy and meaning and forgiveness after a real reconning with her reality.
Her tendency towards grooming and cult mentality, power seeking over vulnerable people, would need to be seriously looked at too.
The person who spoke to her would have to be really, trully informed of who she is,in order to actually help her.
Maybe if she ends up in criminal trouble via the Internet, then that would be part of the information given to any psych person who sees her.
That's about the only way anyone's ever gonna give enough of a fuck to do any of this though.
