To go back a little bit with one comment made on Farewell, FamiKamen Rider, our grunts wear sneakers because Justin's grunts were wearing sneakers. This is a photo from his production. I'd have not made that choice, but he did, so so did we.
On the editing and camera blur, oh yeah, you bet we wish it was better. I also wish I wasn't the single solitary person doing the job of half of a production. There were easily more qualified people than me who should have either done this movie instead or helped me out, but I didn't have any of that. Instead, I was a co-writer, co-director, producer, actor, cinematographer, editor, etc. You wouldn't believe the massive amount of cat-herding it took just to get something off the ground that was nice enough to make for Justin. Before the movie was really in production, there was large talk by others close to him of what everybody could possibly do to memorialize him, which ranged from so-so to having nothing to do with Justin at all whatsoever. So then we wrote up a treatment and showed it to a small handful of people who seemed shocked that what we were trying to do was actually trying to use what Justin was already working with and actually seemed to memorialize him. And people wanted to help, but they didn't want to help THAT much. I wish other people had been there during our script writing process. There's a lot I would have liked to have had time to go over and cut out or retool. My husband and I wrote a three act script draft and begged a small handful of people who seemingly wanted us to do this to read it and get back to us on making adjustments. And then time went by, and nobody got back to us. So we were like, "Well, if we wait any longer, we're not gonna make that MAGFest 2015 deadline," so we had to get started. Only AFTER that did ONE person respond saying, "It's a good start, but it's not getting done anytime in the next two years." And I was just sort of livid, like, "Well, we already started without you, so...?"
After that, there were some awesome people who seemed to understand how important this was, but not a lot. Matt Burkett, for example, was a total BOSS. We could NOT afford to bring anybody into San Antonio from out of town. Matt, who was our suit actor for both Fami and SuFami, did the special effects, and much better fight editing than I did, flew his own ass out to San Antonio from Arizona on his own dime and put himself up in his own hotel. We haven't been able to repay his kindness, but I hope we can, because that was just outright stellar. Allison Pregler (Obscurus Lupa) got her cameo back to me immediately after I asked for it. But past that... sheesh, I just wanted to cry at every turn, because nobody freaking got it. I had actors who hadn't read the script at all before they were put on camera, cameos where people couldn't read the simple instructions on how to do what I needed, and other cameos that waited until literally under 48 hours before the movie was supposed to debut at MAGFest, and I'm nearly ripping my hair out because they said they were going to come see the movie, and I'm wondering how they're expecting to do that when their part in the movie hasn't been submitted to me.
And in the end, when everybody sat down and saw what the movie really was, it was like people were just shocked, like, "Oh, you WEREN'T trying to do some dumb 20 minute thing that had nothing to do with Justin?" I mean, maybe if people actually helped us, our movie would have been different. Maybe it would have been better.
Or maybe it would have still been crap. Or maybe I'm full of crap because maybe if I gave the whole job to any of you, maybe all of you would have done better with even less. I confess, I'm NOT a camera person. I make my living sitting in front of a stationary camera. I'm NOT a movie editor. I wish Matt had been able to edit the whole movie for me. He has a far better eye for cinema. But he was already doing so much with the special effects, and in fact he almost couldn't finish them because he ended up being terrifyingly ill in the hospital during our editing process (thankfully he's fine now). I'm saying, I'm aware that this job likely should have not been given to me, and I absolutely wish I had more qualified people helping me. I wish people had cared more when I was begging them to care and pay attention. This is why I say I never want to go through this again. You can't make anybody care unless you're giving them money, not even when the project is supposed to be something good and meaningful.