What I find fascinating is how she wobbles back and forth between "actually I think it's all quite flattering and funny" and "these evil bullies make fun of the mentally ill" -- often in the same post. It's like she's OK with it and not OK with it at the same time.
I believe she is truly Borderline - perhaps some flavor histrionic.
Borderlines are incredibly sensitive to rejection & have unstable identities. Often they have little to no self esteem.
I think this thread is getting to her. Criticism burns into borderlines brain. They often dwell and spiral. They almost never have proper coping skills unless they’ve gone through extensive therapy and have a decent amount of self awareness.
The emotional pain a borderline goes through from rejection/criticism/abandonment can feel like the brain is on fire - as the brain literally has a flurry of activity in the emotional areas but lacks self control and calm down skills. It is something I truly feel for - it’s a painful and devastating affliction to have. (PL: I have worked with mentally ill criminals in institutional settings. Patterns are often very similar.)
I won’t pretend to know what her situation is like with her parents - but it would benefit her to ask them for help.
Kindness - cut the “sex work” out. You already struggle with boundaries. Don’t exploit yourself online. Find a normal job stocking shelves or something until you can find a job utilizing your prior experience.
Stop pretending that you can’t speak English. Get on Medicaid. Go talk to a real doctor & therapist. You need therapy at least 2x a week - if not more. Medicaid should help cover that. If you’re struggling getting on Medicaid, ask your mom for help or call Medicaid help line. Therapy is not for your headmates, your inner talking birds, dogs, dragons… It’s for you. Yes, you the singular woman.
Lastly- your “girlfriend” is not helping you by enabling your “sex work” or your “plurality.” Bonnie is actively harming you by doing this.
Will you take any of this advice? Most definitely not. There isn’t enough awareness and you actually are sick - just not in the way you think. So, if you’re not going to learn from this thread then there’s no benefit for you in reading it. There’s only benefit for us.
