I'm now curious on what type of edgy politics you buy into. Neo-Nazi? National Bolshevik? The xxxcutmyselfxxx party? I must know.
As an aside, if you actually took anti-depressants, you'd probably know it isn't that hard to not take them. As mentioned, I know someone who takes mind altering meds for a certain brain disorder; they often almost forget to take them, only doing so when looking at the clock.
So let me get this straight. You don't want to take one drug because its addictive, but you're doing another addictive drug? That's what I'm hearing from this statement.