Aster feels like a 13 year old's Mary Sue OC
Aster has committed to losing her apartment.
Aster complains about trigger tag culture. Surprisingly, the thinks that people are responsible for avoiding their own triggers, and she thinks it's OK for recovered anorexics to post pre-recovery photos. (This is because of her own experiences posting her pictures and getting offended when people add trigger warning tags to them.)
(I've also yet to see a picture where she looked considerably thing.)
She posts a video of her fucked-up neck.
She goes through four pairs of postpartum briefs because her period is so heavy.
Aster decides to go to the ER.
Her hemoglobin is ok.
Aster gets stared at by a possibly-racist lady in the waiting room.
She wants to tell her that it's rude to stare.
But the lady leaves before she gets a chance.
Aster talks about how cool and edgy her new alter is.
Aster "pitches a fit" and they give her progesterone. She lets us know that her bed at home "looks like a crime scene."
She leaves the hospital. She looks at her pee and notices that it looks like pink lemonade.
She wants to go back in but is embarrassed to because of how she acted.
She decides to go back in.
She thinks she's going to be admitted.
They send her home at some point, but we don't get any details.
Aster's kidneys have been hurting when she gets fluids.
Aster gets more tramadol. She's grateful, and it works for her, even though she's genetically resistant to it.
Aster makes more picc line covers out of socks.
Home health visits, and they tell Aster that she might need to get her PICC replaced. Aster thinks this happened because of racism.
She goes to the ER.
How could she be doing this for attention? (Please ignore the entirely optional cervical collar.)
The picc got partially pulled out because it wasn't secured properly. When it went back in, it settled into the wrong vein.
Asters gets home and takes some more tramadol.
Aster goes back to the hospital. It doesn't go well.
Aster's new alter "made a stink at the ER" and then listened to a pierce the veil song on repeat on the way home.
On the 7th, the decides to stay out of the ER for a whole week.
Someone tells Aster to get a job
On the 8th, Aster thinks she has a kidney infection.
She thinks she's probably going to go to the ER tomorrow. But she's mostly quiet for a while, so we don't know if she actually does.
Aster really thinks she has endometriosis.
And narcolepsy.
Alyx is going to be out of town for 5 days, so Aster will need to leech off her Tumblr followers instead.
She goes to get an esophageal manometry and pH impedance monitoring done.
She does a good job at it.
She has a catheter bag holder that she really likes.
Aster is finally going to get evicted from her apartment soon. She says she ghosted them.
Aster messages her PCP asking about nadolol and implying she wants steroids.
The doctor tells her that she can do a culture, but she won't be in charge of managing the care. She suggests going to Oregon Health and Science University, and offers to call the Emergency Department and put in a word for Aster.
Aster rejects this.
The doctor goes through the motions of displaying empathy for her patient. She also orders nadolol and tramadol for Aster and asks again if Aster would like her to call ahead.
Aster thanks her doctor and begs for pity a little bit more.
She posts on TikTok about how her PCP is unwilling to even ORDER the urinalysis or culture. (This is false.)
Aster asks for money for Tramadol, as her insurance requires prior authorization.
Aster isn't drinking enough non-water hydration beverages because her bladder hurts.
Aster thinks that if she gets stabbed in the bladder, the doctors would HAVE to give her a urostomy.
Aster goes to target and witnesses racism targeted an (assumed) autistic black man.
Aster starts thinking about other racist events. She mentions that a few weeks before, a white charge nurse acted like she thought Aster was going to attack her.
Aster goes back to the ER and blames her PCP, who "didn't make her go," for it.
POV: You're in for a rough shift.
They immediately discharge her.
Aster messages her PCP, who she said she was going to leave. She yells at her for not ordering the urinalysis. (It didn't get ordered because Aster didn't make it clear that she still wanted it and that she would go to inpatient. Instead, she complained to her doctor about how much she doesn't want to be seen inpatient.)
Aster wakes up covered in period blood again.
Aster begs for money.
She then eats and cleans all the blood off her.
Aster decides to go back to the ER during the night shift.
...but changes her mind.
Aster summarizes her health troubles. Basically, she's concerned that she might have endocarditis from an infection.
Aster goes to the dentist.
Nothing is wrong, except that it confirms that Aster does indeed have more than one disorder called "the suicide disease."
and she gets a bunch of air bubbles in her picc tubing.
She asks for some money for caps.
She is still ghosting her apartment complex. Her friend has successfully moved her stuff to storage.
Aster considers going to the ER again.
She goes
It seems like she doesn't get admitted.
Aster goes to a restaurant and sits at a random table while she waits to order. She gets told that the table is for dine-in customers, and she gets mad.
Aster doesn't have the self-control to not pluck her beloved facial hairs.
The next day, she's pretty sure she's septic.
And she thinks her picc needs to be imaged.
But she can't stand the idea of being gaslit again.
She calls home health, and they say that "it's a good idea" to get her picc imaged.
She goes in. Her thermometers read 101.3-ish, theirs reads 99.7. (But Aster's thermometers are rectal, so that might be complicating the situation.)
Her picc hasn't migrated.
Aster shares a concern list with her doctors. This makes them take her seriously.
Aster writes an angsty greentext while she waits around for results.
It's not endocarditis. They find regurgitation, but it's mild.
Aster makes a friend at the hospital.
And does splits for some reason.
Aster doesn't get her steroids and gets sent home.
Aster needs gas money for Arizona within 6 days, or else she'll have to fly, since Alyx will be back in school.
She also asks for $44 bath wipes so she can avoid taking a shower.
A day later, she still hasn't gotten the wipes. She really needs them, as she's covered in blood from her two month long period.
Aster goes to a GI appointment. It doesn't go well. She doesn't give details.
Aster's donation post attracts a harsh critic.
(it's the same dono post from above)
They point out that she left her cat with someone that she claims is neglectful, and that Aster will have to e-beg to pay for all of the cat's food in the future. They get most of the other details wrong, though.
Aster responds.
They say that Aster cannot take accountability for anything. They think Aster is falsely accusing them of claiming that she had the storage unit for years.
Aster responds that she was just
clarifying that she has had (and has been paying for) this storage unit for years. And she gives many reasons why nothing is her fault.
Aster is amused.
She actually totally would work and go to college, if she could.
Also, she's at the ER.
She, very unbothered, posts proof of eviction.
Aster says she's never not taken accountability for her actions. She has always said it was her fault. (Nice accountability, there!)
Aster makes another e-beg post in response.
This attracts someone else's attention. This person's criticisms are a lot more accurate, except they think that Aster is in Colorado instead of Portland. They even caught that a friend that Aster raised money for didn't actually spent the money on a wheelchair.
Aster claps back.
She turns reblogs off.
She feels very unsafe.
Aster tests positive for a yeast UTI and a stoma infection, but they're going to redo the urinalysis.
Aster has a mast cell reaction to IV zofran.
She's feeling seizurey.
It's over an hour before they do something. She thinks they should have given her her usual orally disintegrating tablets instead.
Aster complains about the person who accused her of being a scammer.
Aster feels pressure from something or someone to post the video of her having seizures.
Aster gets admitted for IV antibiotics.
A random old lady may or may not be upset with Aster.
Aster shows off how sick she is to her haters.
Aster gets oxy. The doctors are finally doing their jobs.
Aster doesn't like her PA or her nurse. She also says that the people who were questioning/criticizing her requests for donations were using her posts as "proof that she doesn't deserve to be treated like a human being."
She wants to leave.
Everyone in her life would prefer it if she were dead.
The infectious disease physician agrees that her catheter stoma looks infected.
They send her home.
Aster wants to kill herself.
Aster makes a dramatic post contrasting her PCP's recommendation of OHSU and the horrific treatment she received.
It's very long, and she acts like it's just a compilation of "proof."
Aster cries in front of her hospitalist.
Aster shares some rash photos.
Aster also shares her seizure video.
Aster gets discharged, but the doctor tells her the preliminary culture has staph epidermis, probably mrse.
Aster thinks she may have had staph epidermis embedded in her bladder walls for six months. And that the (very real) bacteremia was also caused by the staph uti.
Aster makes another dono post.
She says she needs money to go back to Arizona to live with her mom. She says that she knows that it seems like a random change in plans, but "circumstances have changed HEAVILY," and she'll elaborate later.
Aster lets us know that she is no longer in a relationship. Things "didn't go as expected."
